Heartache or Bugled mind?

There are times when I feel so happy, and there are times when I really feel so hurt. In just few thoughts, my feelings would eventually change and I am just making myself confused. It sucks actually, but most of the time I would think of throwing away objects that I would see near me if my heart could no longer handle the hurtful feeling that I am keeping inside. Apparently, that idea of mine never happened.

I don't know what to do anymore. I already made myself occupied with so many activities that will make me forget about those thoughts, thoughts that emit not-so-good vibes and eventually make me feel so angry and envious and then will end up crying.

Sigh.

This coming new year, I just want to receive good vibes, feel wonderful, beautiful and be filled with merriment.

Merry Christmas, world!

Hello,

It's been a long long long long long long long time since I updated this blog. I really have so many things to share with you, but I do not know where to start. Second semester in first year college really made my time occupied. AS IN. I'm getting used to sleep 3 to 4 hours at night just to finish all my assignments and be in school on time. Anyways, I'm still lucky that I'm strong, surviving and can accomplish everything on time. I thank God for that despite of all the pressure and anxious feeling that I couldn't avoid when I feel like I couldn't make it.

I'm glad that it's Christmas break and I have 2 weeks of worry free. Since it's also Christmas, I'm greeting all of you a wonderful one and happy holidays!

Wish everyone receives its own special gift this year

Will update you soon,
Erica :)

Say "HI" to the Miriam College Pep Squad 2011- 2012

Starting tonight...

I will place a pen and a notebook near my bed, so whenever I dream of something I can easily jot it down. I am planning to do this for the rest of my life, because I believe that these dreams have a message that must be interpreted to unlock something that involves my life and my relation to others, or like what my professor mentioned in my psychology class, these might somehow become true in reality. If there is an instance that one of these came true and I saw it written on my notebook, that's when I will advice you to do the same thing too!

And I bet this will be fun!

Have a nice day!

Congratulations to myself!

Disclaimer: I am about to brag something about myself in this short post.

Today, at the assembly I was awarded as one of the students who show exemplary behavior in school. That means I never had a violation, I keep good grades, and also the school's pride as a pep squad varsity. I could not even believe myself for this!

I also lose 2 lbs, from 95 lbs now I weigh 93 lbs. My lifters won't have a trouble lifting and throwing me in the air now! In addition, I'm getting stronger and stronger each day!

I am so blessed!  Thank you, God for these wonderful achievements!

M- 102 for lunch

My Statistics class starts at 12:00 noon and ends at 1:30 pm. And take note,  I don't have a break before this subject to have my lunch, so I have no choice but to eat late. Too bad, students aren't allowed to eat even biscuits while classes are on going! Water doesn't work for me. I just pee all the time.

I just hope I won't have an ulcer in the future. 

Stressful Tuesday!

I lacked sleep from last night. I only had 4 hours of sleep and I felt so cranky this morning. I woke up at 4:00am and left the house at 5:40am. If I'll leave later than that I'll be late on my 7:30am class. I don't have a choice. This is going to be my routine everyday for the whole 2nd semester.

Anyways, whenever someone would talk to me, I would give them a rude answer subconsciously. I could also sense myself frowning the whole time. I even tried to close my eyes for quick seconds when my professors were facing the blackboard while discussing something in class for I was so sleepy. In addition, I get easily annoyed of something or someone just because it or she looks annoying to me. 

Somehow, I managed to laugh and smile when my classmates were throwing funny stories and punchlines at break times, but after those I can't help but to be back in my grouchy mood again!

Oh, stress! I know you won't leave me, but at least lessen it please. Sincerely, begging for a longer sleep.

Good night!

Blasting Monday!

How are you?

How was your day? Was it fun? was it bad? Hmmm... ?

If you'll ask me, mine was very exploratory! Here's what I remember today:

I came to school early this morning to attend a general assembly held by the communication department. When the special guests appeared, a lot of ladies where screaming and cheering on top of their voices. I would like to do the same, but I hesitated. They were cute, yes! But they're humans too, right? so I just smiled at them on their whole performance. It was also my classmate's birthday and she received a kiss from one of the guests who were singing on stage. How lucky she was! I wanted to receive a kiss too! but not from him, but from the guy I always wish was mine!

The Lamar brothers were the special guests

This cute Micah Lamar kissed the birthday celebrant!

After the event, we went to BON CHON, a restaurant just around Katipunan, to celebrate her birthday! She treated us for lunch and I could say that she was overjoyed!

Hannah, the birthday celebrant, on my left side.
Oh, and they were the ones who decided to wear black and white clothes.

When it was already afternoon, I returned to school to attend my training. We did 10 laps of jogging, heavy conditioning, stretching, gymnastics, and we did different stunts for pyramid. I can now do different toss and turns as a flyer very well, and to tell you, I never been a flyer before. I'm just so happy being fit, productive, and staying in the squad wholeheartedly.

Lastly, after the training, I came home as soon as possible to finish all my assignments, to have my supper and to blog about this tonight!

Finally! I can now have  the sleep I was waiting for to happen.

Good night!

Good sign

You must be wondering why I haven't posted something new here for a long time now. I guess, for me, this is a good sign.

But for now, I won't tell you not until I have accomplished my greatest mission!

I'll update you soon,

Erica :)

I'm sorry

I abandoned this blog for a long time, like how a person abandoned his pet or a kid who didn't want to play with his toys anymore, but I still want to post many stories here. It's just that the things happening to me right now are more of a private matter that aren't appropriate to share with the world wide web, except for the days when my sembreak was so productive--- thanks to the PEP SQUAD!

There are also times when I want to cry and scream out loud, say the meanest words I know, punch people and hurt their feelings. What sucks more in my part is you probably want to know why and I just couldn't tell you. I want to, but I can't coz if I do you might hate me for that. I just badly want to talk to someone right now-- heart- to- heart. But no one is around to comfort me. Presently, it's me against the world.

Or maybe there is really someone who can listen, understand and comfort me, but I'm not yet ready to open up to Him.

This is it for now. Have a happy Halloween!