Gotta be me. It's who I am.

Stressful Tuesday!

I lacked sleep from last night. I only had 4 hours of sleep and I felt so cranky this morning. I woke up at 4:00am and left the house at 5:40am. If I'll leave later than that I'll be late on my 7:30am class. I don't have a choice. This is going to be my routine everyday for the whole 2nd semester.

Anyways, whenever someone would talk to me, I would give them a rude answer subconsciously. I could also sense myself frowning the whole time. I even tried to close my eyes for quick seconds when my professors were facing the blackboard while discussing something in class for I was so sleepy. In addition, I get easily annoyed of something or someone just because it or she looks annoying to me. 

Somehow, I managed to laugh and smile when my classmates were throwing funny stories and punchlines at break times, but after those I can't help but to be back in my grouchy mood again!

Oh, stress! I know you won't leave me, but at least lessen it please. Sincerely, begging for a longer sleep.

Good night!

I should be asleep right now...

... but because of what I found out before I log off on facebook, My blood started to boil  when I saw an account with my picture and name displayed on it. And wow! Am I too popular already? That person should have created a fan page, and not a different account just to receive praises from people when they see him/her online (If they are already a friend with him/her). Or maybe that person is just messing around with me? I'll tell you, this is not funny.

Here's the link of the poser to prevent any malicious situations:

MY POSER'S LINK ON FACEBOOK!
(You should log in to facebook first before clicking this link to see it)

Poser, if you are reading this, what did I do to you to make such thing? Tell me.


Help me report the account please!

Thank you, friends!

Dream Interpretation seminar

We had an alternative classes in school last week, and the most interesting activity that I have attended was the Dream Interpretation seminar. Our guest speaker that day was Dr. Randy Dellosa. I was surprised and at the same time impressed of who he is when he was introduced to us.

Randy Misael Sebastian Dellosa, popularly known as Doc Randy is a Filipino psychologist and psychiatrist.

He is popularly known as the life coach-psychotherapist of Filipino celebrities and was the resident psychiatrist in the Pinoy Big Brother and Pinoy Dream Academy reality shows of ABS-CBN Network as well as game shows such as Deal or No Deal.

He is distinguished as the first and so far the only Filipino who is both a psychiatrist (M.D.) and a doctor of clinical psychology (Psy.D.) [Source: Wikipedia]

I was also overwhelmed that I was given a chance to talk to him in person when I shared my dream to him and to others who were listening.  He helped me interpret it.


I just can't believe that I've actually faced someone who's really a genius, popular and amazing.


Despite everything negative happening in our country, I'm still proud that I'm a Filipino. There are so many of us just like him.

9/11

A decade had passed since the terrorists sabotaged the country of America. It seems like yesterday when it happened. But look at it now, still a progressive country. After all the damaged done, the lost lives and values learned, they remain strong and powerful until this very point.

What about us Filipinos? What happened to us? I may still not be in the right age to tell this since I'm still a student, but I can sense that there is really something wrong with us.

Aside from the government officials who are having a hard time counting billions of money that they corrupt from us, our country seemed to look worse than what America should experience when they were bombed by the terrorists.

Look at Japan and the other countries that experienced catastrophic calamities, they easily rise because they have the funds to reconstruct and they have less money owing.  In us? We are about to start a new project, yet we already have a debt to pay.

Do you think that the generation of the Filipinos today can witness a success Philippines, that there will be a day when we there is no much news about the dirty politicians? that everything happening in our country are all nice, that there are less crimes here because many citizens have their decent jobs already, that anywhere here in the Philippines can be a tourist destination?

I am so bored.. so irritated.. why? Because the other countries already made it. And Philippines? I don't know when.

"The last missing ingredient for true change is DISCIPLINE."

A brand new day, a brand new life.

I wanted to say good morning to all.


I thank God for giving me another day to spend my time with the people I love, to accomplish all the unfinished tasks, to learn new things, to meet new people, to be able to live the life I always wanted.


It's September 1, the day to start all over again.



Always remember that


“ God is the reason why even in pain, we smile; even in confusion, we understand; even in betrayal, we trust and even in fear, we continue to fight.”


Take care, everyone! Time to go to school.

between

it's uncomfortable being inbetween

it's painful being inbetween

it's exhausting being inbetween

it's frustrating being inbetween

None of it is going to get the best of me.

Blogging was never nonsense

It is a kind of medication. We release ourselves with the feelings we express here. Sometimes we even inspire people, give knowledge to them, and when we read other's entry, we can be warned with the experiences they had.

Blogging is really important for me. This is where I practice my writing skills. It has something to do with the course I am taking up in college. In this, I can improve myself as a communication student. I can practice expanding a certain topic, think fast of what to say or write when I am asked to, discover more words that I have not encountered before in my life, know the thoughts people always have in their mind, and many more.

It is good to blog without boundaries. That what make us a true writer. When someone criticizes us, let them. They always mind the errors that they see from us which only help us to develop ourselves, the skills we have and the thing we will do. And when they are too focused on us, they forget to improve themselves. And the result is we are far better than them. When I always think about this, I make myself smile for they are a fool on their own.

Blogging is noteworthy, if you just know the real meaning of it.

(P.S. This is a kind of informal/ free writing. I'm not using a thesis statement and this is not an essay. This is a blog. Just saying. LOL)

Not all unfortunate are illiterate

I've been observing the street vendors and the fare conductors for a long time now. I see them every day at towns and when I board public vehicles. They are the people who were not able to have a proper education, because they do not have enough money to enroll themselves in a school. That is why they have no choice but to get unprofessional jobs just to have their means of living.

Talking about their job, it involves money, and money involves math. I am so amazed with these kinds of people because they know how much change they will give to their customers and passengers no matter how big or small the amount of money is. And the fact is they can do more.

If they were not given a good education, what more if they were?

I pity them. They are smart people who were not given a chance to prove themselves in bigger companies. The only thing they do not have is a diploma to be employed in a better position, and the money to for the fees needed to completely work in that company.

Kanina sa loob ng jeep

May kuyang taga-UP na ginigitgit ako sa loob ng jeep kanina kaya naglakas loob akong kausapin siya


Me: Kuya, anong name mo? Madalas kasi kita nakakasabay sa pagsakay ng jeep tuwing uuwi na (which is true)

Siya: Raymond.

Me: Ako si Erica.

Siya: Ah.

Me: Anong course mo?

Siya: ECE

Me: Ah.

Dahil doon, nilayuan niya na ako, at sa wakas maluwag na ang aking inuupuan. Hehe. Papansin.

The life of homeless people under the footbridge of Katipunan

Was there a moment in your life that you picture yourself being homeless? That your only bed is a small carton, your blankets are the crumpled newspapers found on the trash bin, and your room is the whole sidewalk? Have you imagined yourself begging for food or asking for spare change at the streets just to have something to eat for the day?  How will you feel if these really happen to you?

Few days ago, after my pep squad training, I was walking across the footbridge, suddenly a young boy, around 5 years old, pulled my shirt and begged me to pay money for his sampaguita flowers. Honestly, I don’t want to purchase those because I’m not going to place them on the altar, but the child looked so hungry.  Instead of getting the flowers he was holding, I gave him coins that were enough to buy him bread or a biscuit, and he can earn more money if he’ll sell the flowers to other people passing by. It was a relief on my part that I have helped someone and he can finally fill his empty tummy, but it was better if I gave him directly foods so that I can be sure that he will really consume it. It was so happen that there were no open stores nearby so I have no choice but to give him money.

The following day, I saw a mother with two infants who were exposed to the polluted air of the city. The helpless babies were sleeping under the footbridge and the mother was asking for alms. When I observed the bottle, it was empty and unclean. This can cause harmful effects on their body. When I also looked at the infants’ faces, there were tears dried on their skins evidencing that they recently cried. I really felt so bothered with their situation. Unfortunately, I can’t do anything to help them.  I sensed guilt in me. Passing by on them really stabbed my heart. When I mentioned this to my mother, she told me to donate some clothes to them. But I wonder, will I ever see them again when I pass by? They are homeless; they move to different places to ask help from more fortunate people.

There are more kinds of situations like these that I see around the city everyday.

All I want is to make the other people who are not contented of what they have to realize how lucky they are for having a good life. I know you are lucky. Why?  Because you have your own computer to read this blog, if not, you’re still lucky to afford renting a PC in the internet café. You’re lucky because your room may not be as big as what you wanted, but I’m sure it has a comfortable bed that can make you sleep well. You’re lucky in so many other ways. My point is whatever we own, even the smallest objects, we should be thankful for it and let us always remember those people who support us financially and to God who lets these good things happen to us.

"You only feel insecure when you know that you need to improve something about yourself."

-Ms. Pelias

(MC101 Professor)

Be responsible enough

Most of the students in my school say that this week is a "hell week!" because it's our midterm exam week starting today until on Saturday. But for me, it was never came to mind to term my week that way.

Why? Because in every exam, I always ready myself so I don't have to worry anything. I start reviewing all the tackled lessons and all the pointers to remember. And besides, it was announced to us when will be our exam week a long time ago, so there's no one to blame.

I don't understand some students, the teachers and the school officials, they keep reminding us about this. They even release school papers of the upcoming activities before we reach the date when we should be prepared. But it seems nothing to them, to those happy-go-lucky students. They'll just open their books when it's already the day before the midterm. Then when they found out the result of their exams they will start complaining why their grades were like these and like that. I find it irritating. Really.

I know it's not my concern to care about their grades or whatever they do in life, but I'm just being affected. I can't help but to mind their acts than just minding mine.

I hope they realize that instead of complaining, why not just sit in one place where they can concentrate well and start studying. And I also hope that they will refrain asking their classmates about the lessons because they both attend the class anyway. Sometimes they don't know that the classmate they are asking is already bothered and irritated.

Lastly, I hope they learn the lesson of being a responsible individual not only in school, but also when they go out to other places.

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Avoid the appearance of Evil

I'm of the opinion that it's a good idea not to do unto others what I don't like being done unto me. Revolutionary, I know, but it's my opinion and I'm welcome to it.

You know that guy who sits in every meeting drumming his fingers on the table? Or that coworker who whistles tunelessly and drives you up a wall? Or the kid who sits behind you in church kicking the back of your seat? Or the friend who cannot seem to tell a story without loading it with mindless and quite useless details?

You know, all those people who don't seem to mind at all how irritating they can be. Well, I try not to do that. This creates some difficulties, however. Over the years, I've had people comment to me about this or that and I've tried to change what I do because this or that irritates them ... until I end up being completely unable to do almost anything at all because everything seems to irritate someone at some time.

Enter this famous verse from Paul's first epistle to the church of Thessalonica: "Abstain from all appearance of evil" (1 Thess 5:22). I grew up with that verse. I knew people, friends and relatives, who made it their life's goal. They didn't go to movies not because all movies were bad, but because it was possible that you could be coming out of a theater that was playing Bambi and someone driving by may not have realized that last week's R-rated movie had changed and they would think you were doing something wrong. You don't play cards because, even though you were just playing "Go Fish", someone looking on could easily conclude that you were gambling. As a kid I once took a game for a rainy day to school. This game had dice in it that had numbers on them. You rolled these numbered dice and then tried to fit the numbers into math squares -- "__ + __ = __; __ - __ = __", and so on. An educational game. No, no! The game had dice, and even though you knew they weren't gambling dice, onlookers might not know and you could have the appearance of evil.

This whole thing bothered me for years. You see, it's not very likely that you can find anything you can do that will not appear evil to someone. You may join the military to serve your country and be "evil" because you're joining the military or refuse to join the military because joining the military is wrong and be "evil" for refusing to serve your country.

So ... Paul, what are we to do? We can continue to try to meet its requirement but that's impossible. We could throw out the verse, but that's certainly not a good choice. Or, maybe, just maybe, we can figure out what it means.

As it turns out, this isn't as hard as it seems. The Greek word translated "appearance" is eidos. It is, most literally, "form". It references the appearance or shape of something. So what is actually being said here is "Avoid the form of evil." Of course, newer translations have figured this out (so it's not like I thought this up myself). Green's Literal Translation says, "Keep back from every form of evil." The ESV says, "Abstain from every form of evil." The NAS agrees. So does the New King James. So maybe this wasn't such a hard saying after all. The real difficulty occurs when people don't think through what they're reading. "'Avoid all appearance of evil'? How do I do that?"

Now if only someone can help me out with this whole avoiding whatever irritates someone because I'm running out of options.

To those Pinoys who can relate:

Have you experienced this before?

Me, I did. So many times already. People beside me seem to be blind not seeing me giving my money to pay the transportation fee. They are so inconsiderate. But when it's their turn, I am kind enough to pass their money to the driver or kundoktor. I always think of getting my revenge by ignoring them, but I couldn't. My conscience always comes first before my evil acts.

Oh well, just something happened today to share with you tonight.

Para sa mga in love

Naranasan niyo na ba ang pakiramdam na kinausap/tumawag/nagtext mahal mo kahit sa sandaling oras lamang ngunit ang kasiyahang nadama mo sa ginawa niya ay umaabot ng linggo o higit pa? Sarap sa pakiramdam noh? Sarap ng may minamahal sa buhay.

Are you going to read this? If not, I don’t mind

I always tell myself to be true. Anything that appears in my mind and whatever I feel with so many comings and goings in my life I always blog it.

If I’m away from the computer, I write in on a scratch paper. To be honest with you, I get so pressured when other people tell me that my writing is good. And that’s really something. But who will really stay reading are my real friends and the people who love my blog.

That’s why when I get to read other’s blog I was never against with anything they post. Like me, they also have their own opinions, beliefs and events happening in their life. They are just being real and expressing their emotions. We just need to understand them. That’s what makes me appreciate different people, get inspired, learn from them and get ideas to post something on my blog (and sometimes even for my assignments, haha! like from Sir John Marine’s blog).


I salute every blogger in this world. They contribute a lot of help and knowledge to other people. They might sound harsh or not, but let’s face it we still get something out from them.


As long as we don’t step on other people and we know our limitations, everything will be fine.

"Don't be affected with what other people say about you

especially when you know to yourself that it is not true."

You know yourself better than anybody else

A taken for granted life

Most of the things in our lives are all taken for granted. We never notice the simple lucky things happening to us. Are you still going to ask for more if you're already complete? That you can see clearly, you can walk, you can talk and many more?

You're already so lucky when you were born that way, because there are other people who have nothing to do but to accept what they are. There are even handicap people who can do what you can do but you're just too lazy to do those. The reason for this is you're too confident of what you had.

Try to play with your mind. You don't have to be intelligent to think about simple things. What's important is you know how to observe and that's what matters.

There is even an instance when you even forget to thank God for the new day He has given you, and sometimes you'll wake up with a frown face.