The truth about us

Procrastinating

I still have many things to accomplish this week, and here are the ff:

-finish the audio visual presentation for my high school batch (to be passed on Tuesday)
- review for Psychology 101 midterm exam (this coming Friday)
- make a reflection paper for H-101 (to be passed on Tuesday)
- prepare an informative speech in E-102 (to present on February)

But instead of doing them today, what I did was this...

...smiling in front of the webcam and being vain the whole afternoon.

At least I've finished my laundry this morning. I have uniforms and training attires to wear this coming school days, so as my younger siblings.

Oh well, I guess that's the only good thing I did today, this Sunday. Still, I feel like I've wasted a lot of time.

Life is more fun with them!

Was with Danica & Andrea at KFC that time. Decided to make a GIF for something new to see on my blog.

Gotta be me. It's who I am.

8 minutes...

I have 8 minutes until midnight and sure want this posted before the clock strikes twelve. OK, so I don't have a clock that will strike twelve, but it'll be midnight either way... Eight... Eight... Eight... Here we go.


EIGHT things I did today:

• 1) Slept until about 2 am... =)
• 2) Crammed reviewing for my midterm exam today
• 3) Arrived home at exactly 12PM
• 4) Ate Tuna Pasta for lunch (mmmmm... delicioso!)
• 5) Laundry
• 6) Disappointed some people that I surely didn't want to disappoint...
• 7) washed the dishes after having dinner
• 8) Blogged tonight

EIGHT things I DIDN'T do today:

1) Review for my midterm exam tomorrow

2) Finish my assignment in NSTP

3) Attend E-102 Class

4) Eat rice

5) Make a real dinner

6) work out

7) Dust... I really need to

8) Finish this list...

Whew... two minutes to spare... Hope today was a great day for you... What did you do?

It's a little surreal...

... that I'm sitting outside the porch, looking at a sky full of stars, and I'm posting a blog by using my phone. I can't be the only one who thinks... Wow. That's crazy. I think we continue to take for granted the technological advances. Just like we take for granted the star-filled sky overhead. To say this sky is beautiful is an understatement. To say it is awe-inspiring is not enough. To say it is mesmerizing is true but not close to accurate.

Your love, O Lord, reaches to the heavens. Your faithfulness to the skies. (Psalm 36:5)

For as amazing and big and vast and awe-inspiring and mesmerizing and beautiful this sky is... God's love is bigger. And just when I think I can focus on how big it is, God's love is bigger still. And then you think of 1 Corinthians 13 that says Love is patient. Love is kind. It does not envy, it does not boast. It is not proud. It is not rude or self-seeking. It is not easily angered. It keeps no record of wrongs. Love does not delight in evil but rejoices in the truth. It always trusts, always protects, always hopes, always perseveres. Love never fails.

Then... I think about it again but every time I say the word Love or It, I put in God's name... Or Jesus' Name... And then I stare up at this big ol sky and go ... Wow!! Thanks God for loving me this much. Thanks for loving me regardless, in spite of my faults, through good times and bad...and so on.

Maybe you can go take a peak outside tonight or tomorrow night and catch a glimpse of how big the sky is...and how big His love for you is... It's a lil surreal...

Superstition.

I guess I'm starting to believe the speculation that whatever happens to a person on the first day of the year or every January 1st, it will repeatedly happen to him/her until the year ends.

Why?

It's because when the firecrackers were already illuminated in front our house, which bought by my parents from the market, at exactly 12 midnight, something strange hit my left knee and it started to bleed. I figured that it came from the firecrackers for I'm obviously near those. I was hesitant at first to believe that this circumstance would occur to me again not until another week had passed and something horrible turned out with my left knee for the second time! I slipped on the wet pavement in town and got disgusting bruises. It's not yet healed until now nor the first incident, and I'm not letting this happen to me for the third time!

Starting tonight...

I will place a pen and a notebook near my bed, so whenever I dream of something I can easily jot it down. I am planning to do this for the rest of my life, because I believe that these dreams have a message that must be interpreted to unlock something that involves my life and my relation to others, or like what my professor mentioned in my psychology class, these might somehow become true in reality. If there is an instance that one of these came true and I saw it written on my notebook, that's when I will advice you to do the same thing too!

And I bet this will be fun!

Have a nice day!

Congratulations to myself!

Disclaimer: I am about to brag something about myself in this short post.

Today, at the assembly I was awarded as one of the students who show exemplary behavior in school. That means I never had a violation, I keep good grades, and also the school's pride as a pep squad varsity. I could not even believe myself for this!

I also lose 2 lbs, from 95 lbs now I weigh 93 lbs. My lifters won't have a trouble lifting and throwing me in the air now! In addition, I'm getting stronger and stronger each day!

I am so blessed!  Thank you, God for these wonderful achievements!

Stressful Tuesday!

I lacked sleep from last night. I only had 4 hours of sleep and I felt so cranky this morning. I woke up at 4:00am and left the house at 5:40am. If I'll leave later than that I'll be late on my 7:30am class. I don't have a choice. This is going to be my routine everyday for the whole 2nd semester.

Anyways, whenever someone would talk to me, I would give them a rude answer subconsciously. I could also sense myself frowning the whole time. I even tried to close my eyes for quick seconds when my professors were facing the blackboard while discussing something in class for I was so sleepy. In addition, I get easily annoyed of something or someone just because it or she looks annoying to me. 

Somehow, I managed to laugh and smile when my classmates were throwing funny stories and punchlines at break times, but after those I can't help but to be back in my grouchy mood again!

Oh, stress! I know you won't leave me, but at least lessen it please. Sincerely, begging for a longer sleep.

Good night!

Blasting Monday!

How are you?

How was your day? Was it fun? was it bad? Hmmm... ?

If you'll ask me, mine was very exploratory! Here's what I remember today:

I came to school early this morning to attend a general assembly held by the communication department. When the special guests appeared, a lot of ladies where screaming and cheering on top of their voices. I would like to do the same, but I hesitated. They were cute, yes! But they're humans too, right? so I just smiled at them on their whole performance. It was also my classmate's birthday and she received a kiss from one of the guests who were singing on stage. How lucky she was! I wanted to receive a kiss too! but not from him, but from the guy I always wish was mine!

The Lamar brothers were the special guests

This cute Micah Lamar kissed the birthday celebrant!

After the event, we went to BON CHON, a restaurant just around Katipunan, to celebrate her birthday! She treated us for lunch and I could say that she was overjoyed!

Hannah, the birthday celebrant, on my left side.
Oh, and they were the ones who decided to wear black and white clothes.

When it was already afternoon, I returned to school to attend my training. We did 10 laps of jogging, heavy conditioning, stretching, gymnastics, and we did different stunts for pyramid. I can now do different toss and turns as a flyer very well, and to tell you, I never been a flyer before. I'm just so happy being fit, productive, and staying in the squad wholeheartedly.

Lastly, after the training, I came home as soon as possible to finish all my assignments, to have my supper and to blog about this tonight!

Finally! I can now have  the sleep I was waiting for to happen.

Good night!

Behind those 'you', I meant me

Have you experienced before when you are trying to hold back tears by smiling to those people cheering/ talking to you? And that you decided not to utter words, not even one, because you know that those tears may start running down from your eyes and you just don’t want to let them see?

sigh.

I was not with myself this afternoon. At least I'm okay now this evening.

sigh.

Random post (i'm bored)

 ‎-------------------Girls---------
-------------are like apples------
---------on trees. The best ones-----
-------are at the top of the tree.-----
-----The boys don't want to reach---
-----for the good ones because they--
---are afraid of falling and getting hurt.-
---Instead, they get the rotten apples-
---from the ground that aren't as good,
but easy. So the apples up top think there
--is something wrong with them when in
----reality they're amazing. They just--
-----have to wait for the right boy to
------- come along, the one who's-
------------- brave enough to-----
----------------- climb all---------
----------------- the way------
-----------------to the top----
-----------------of the tree ----

--------------------------------------------

Essentially, this post is something nice to share with other girls out there. I got this from my awesome friend, Alleli Fei.

If you feel loveless and single right now (yes, single! like me! but I don't feel loveless. hehehe), well, you're wrong.

Let's just learn to WAIT--- nothing else but WAIT. Time flies so fast anyway, and we'll absolutely have the boy that we've been longing to.

Enjoy your evening!

Howlee Sheet!

For the first time in my college life, I was marked late in my 7:30am class today, which is Humanities. It sucks! Now I won't be able to have a perfect record in my attendance sheet. Why did this happen when the semester is almost over? Alas!

The story starts like this.

Whenever I have a 7:30 am class I am supposed to wake up at 4:30 and leave the house around 5:45 in the morning. But today was something devastating! I didn't hear my phone alarmed! or my phone didn't alarm? Whatever. I am still late, and I hate to remember it! I already woke up 6 in the morning! And maybe I will be waking up later than that if my mom didn't come inside the room to ask me to print the contract that was saved on my laptop.

"Howlee sheet!!!" were the first words I said this morning and I felt bad about it.

I rushed myself to take a bath and left the house without eating my breakfast. I did that all for half an hour!

I know by that time that it's already traffic on highways and it's impossible to get a ride going to school. My emotions were mixed up. I don't know if I should stay positive or release the madness feeling inside me.

Finally, I made it to the class! I arrived there at 7:50am, but my professor already checked the attendance and I was already marked late!

Shoot!

Saved by the bell!

I had my Sociology class early this morning, and I guess this is my lucky day!

I was assigned to report a given topic on Friday and today is only Wednesday. It so happened that our professor has a dilemma on that day and she won't be able to meet us, so she decided to have all the reports to be finished this meeting. I was suddenly shocked to hear that announcement!

Oh no! I wasn't able to bring my flash drive today! I left it at home (and honestly, I'm not yet finish w/ it)! I have nothing to present in class! What now?!

Anxiety abruptly came to me. I tried to calm down, but I couldn't stop my heart beating rapidly. While there are still other reporters in front, I started skimming all the pages of my book to remember the important details about my topic. I am not worried about how I am going to deliver my report in front of the class for  I have studied that already in advance. It's just that my professor will mark higher grades to those students who prepared any visual aids or powerpoint presentation. She might think that I effortlessly did my report and she will end up giving me a low grade.

Tick! tock! tick! tock! I can't stop looking at the clock...

Tick! tock! tick! tock! and I am next to present in the class...

The moment my professor will about to call my name the bell suddenly rang!

Phew! What a relief! Class is over! I'm so happy... I'm so lucky! She has no choice but to make me report on the next meeting.

Thank, God!

How are you, blog?

When was the last time I posted an entry here? It seemed like a month had passed already, although it was just few days ago.

Anyway, my week was full of a lot of assignments to do, reports to prepare, and deadlines to meet, plus the time I spend having my training at the pep squad. I'd never been so stressful before. I've been lacking sleep consecutive days already and the result is I look older than what my age should really tell other people who see me.

I admit, I feel so anxious most of the time. I do everything just to finish all my jobs before the deadline to get high grades and be a dean's Lister, to have a good reputation in and out of the school, and to never fail the expectations of the people who knew about my capability.

It's hard, I know. I even attempt to give up several times, but it never happened, and thank you for that. I'm still this person/ student who strives harder to achieve a lot of things I want, to make my family proud of me and to reach my goals.

Aside from all the school works this week, I had my recollection last Friday. I was so blessed to attend that activity because I know God wants me to spend my whole day with Him. I felt renewed and spiritually heeled from all the sorrows I had in my life. I always remember Him every day and every night, and I know He is always by my side to always reach out.

The following day, Saturday, was the final examination of all first year students for their PE subject (I was exempted in that exam because I am a varsity, and varsities do not have to to attend that subject). They were graded with their cheerdance presentation and it was also a sort of competition w/ the other sections. I didn't join my blockmates because I danced at the opening w/ the pep squad (boy, I'm too proud to brag about it!) Not only that, my section was announced as the champions! That was equivalent to a perfect score for their final exam! Hooray for them! hooray for us!

The Pep Squad 

My champion blockmates!

Everything paid off knowing that news. Saturday was just the day for fun and merriment!

Oh, and have I told you that within those challenging days, there is always this one person who adds strength in me? He used to tell me that I'm strong, that we're both strong, that we can accomplish all the work given to us because we can. I love that boy so much. Too bad, we're both apart and busy with our own businesses. But that's okay, there will be a day that we'll meet and enjoy each others company  in wherever place we plan to go. I'm already happy to know that he is happy with all the activities he does, and the little time he spares to update me with his day.

It feels so good to be inspired--- to be in love with the guy who cares for me even without any words unleashed from his voice. I can strongly feel that in my heart *blushing*. Sigh. I can't wait for that special moment of my life :)

It's late in the evening again. I'd better be in bed now.

Good night, world! Let's always pray to have a better tomorrow!

Nothing to say

I haven't had anything to say.

It's a thought that takes me only a second to say and only two seconds to realize is a complete lie.

I passed all my exams this midterm, we started having a hardcore training in our pep squad, an anonymous person asked me to give any suggestion for his article, and I'm deeply in love with a guy and not a gal (JSYK, cuz I'm enrolled in an all girls school).

Fact is, I've had a lot to say. I just don't want to say it.

It's probably because to say things makes me feel vulnerable and open. Generally, I like this feeling. I like to foster that between me and my family and friends. Truly, I do. But I like it on my terms.

And when one is officially a great writer, and soon to be a full-time worker and goal-achiever, the vulnerability is officially no longer my own.

And maybe that's why I don't want to say things. I think I already feel like I'm saying enough.

School Tour Concert

Finally, I felt relieved when the midterm exams were over, and at the same time excited!

When I woke up Saturday morning, I felt like I needed more sleep, but I refuse to go back to bed. Instead I started doing all my chores at home and prepared everything I need to wear and bring for the school's event. I was already so happy with the thought that I'd be seeing someone later.

Then it was already evening. I felt more and more excited knowing that the time was near to meet the friend I'd been waiting to see a long time ago. When I saw him, I was so glad he made it. He knows how much his presence mean to me and I was so thankful to God he came. I know I have to be me when I'm with him but I can't help but to feel a little bit anxious.

We decided to eat first before we watch the concert in school so we went to a fast food. We talk a lot about school and blah, blah, blah. He's still amazing, cute and jolly. After an hour, we finally proceeded to where the concert was being held.

Honestly, I was tensed a little, but I cover it up by telling him a few facts about some people we saw on stage performing, hosting, singing and modeling. And the truth is all my attention was on him and not really with the concert.

I remembered someone who sent me a message asking what was special at the concert. I replied, "Nothing special at the concert, but the person I'm with tonight is special."

No words can equivalent the feeling I have when he is always around.

So, okay, hmm, I talked too much already. I don't know if he's reading this or not.

Lastly, we both went home safe and sound.

Be responsible enough

Most of the students in my school say that this week is a "hell week!" because it's our midterm exam week starting today until on Saturday. But for me, it was never came to mind to term my week that way.

Why? Because in every exam, I always ready myself so I don't have to worry anything. I start reviewing all the tackled lessons and all the pointers to remember. And besides, it was announced to us when will be our exam week a long time ago, so there's no one to blame.

I don't understand some students, the teachers and the school officials, they keep reminding us about this. They even release school papers of the upcoming activities before we reach the date when we should be prepared. But it seems nothing to them, to those happy-go-lucky students. They'll just open their books when it's already the day before the midterm. Then when they found out the result of their exams they will start complaining why their grades were like these and like that. I find it irritating. Really.

I know it's not my concern to care about their grades or whatever they do in life, but I'm just being affected. I can't help but to mind their acts than just minding mine.

I hope they realize that instead of complaining, why not just sit in one place where they can concentrate well and start studying. And I also hope that they will refrain asking their classmates about the lessons because they both attend the class anyway. Sometimes they don't know that the classmate they are asking is already bothered and irritated.

Lastly, I hope they learn the lesson of being a responsible individual not only in school, but also when they go out to other places.

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