Procrastinating

I still have many things to accomplish this week, and here are the ff:

-finish the audio visual presentation for my high school batch (to be passed on Tuesday)
- review for Psychology 101 midterm exam (this coming Friday)
- make a reflection paper for H-101 (to be passed on Tuesday)
- prepare an informative speech in E-102 (to present on February)

But instead of doing them today, what I did was this...

...smiling in front of the webcam and being vain the whole afternoon.

At least I've finished my laundry this morning. I have uniforms and training attires to wear this coming school days, so as my younger siblings.

Oh well, I guess that's the only good thing I did today, this Sunday. Still, I feel like I've wasted a lot of time.

Before I leave the house I would like to leave something.

"We should show/see ourselves smiling at least once a day so that we could see the real beauty of life" -Rhadson Mendoza :)

Hi there! I've been blogging here since the moment I woke up. Today is just a bright and beautiful day and it gives me a good vibe!

In just a few hours, I will be meeting my dad’s friend to hand over something, so by this time I should start preparing myself to leave.

And to you, dear reader, enjoy the rest of your day! I hope you're feeling jolly like I am right now!

:*

Recent discoveries about myself:

1.) I love watching BEN TEN TIME MACHINE (so much that when someone will change the channel I'll immediately get mad!!!)

2.) I'm an obsessive compulsive person (maybe because I organize ANYTHING too much).

3.) It takes me 2 hours just to settle a perfect layout for my blog (seriously, just done one today).

4.) I'm starting to be a shopaholic (for clothes and make-ups! YIKES!!!)

5.) I'm starting to cram doing my assignments and  review for quizzes/exams most of the time (I'm not like this when I was in highschool)

6.) I'm obsessed with Jake Gyllenhaal <3

7.) Now I weigh 92 lbs.

8.) Lastly, I always end in this number :)

Good morning!

So, I am trying to get a new blog design going here. Just a little something different. But somehow in the midst of it, I've trashed the content part - part of which is not allowing for comments. That stinks. I like your feed back. It's a part of connection I guess. So, thanks for your patience as I try to figure this out. I know - I'm a techie wanna be - and there are days I am better at it than others - today is not one of those days.

I'm a cry baby :'(

Early this afternoon we were doing some pyramids. Officially, I am the flyer and I have my very strong and beautiful base and a back spotter. As we were practicing different stunts, I couldn’t help but to hurt them, hit them in the face or kick their heads as I land onto their arms. I can sense the pain they were feeling even though they keep telling me that they were fine, but actually they were not. I felt apologetic and dreadful at the same time. I started blaming myself for the fault happened (but I just kept it in my head), because I knew that I need to master more the stunts I am doing.  I haven’t done these before and this was my only opportunity to learn them in order to stay where I am placed right now.

I really want to cry that moment because I was already causing them so many burdens, but I tried to holdback my tears as long as I could so they wouldn’t notice. I want them to know that I am still determined and willing to do better for the team despite of the errors done.

Eventually, when we were doing the ‘twist’, I was able to land perfectly several times without hurting them physically! Finally! Finally! we were able to make it! I suddenly burst down in tears for the joy I felt! And that feeling was beyond words! My company was starting to cry as well. They must have felt the same way too.  I was so glad that I finally did right before the training session ended.

I am so thankful to God for this magnificent day!

Howlee Sheet!

For the first time in my college life, I was marked late in my 7:30am class today, which is Humanities. It sucks! Now I won't be able to have a perfect record in my attendance sheet. Why did this happen when the semester is almost over? Alas!

The story starts like this.

Whenever I have a 7:30 am class I am supposed to wake up at 4:30 and leave the house around 5:45 in the morning. But today was something devastating! I didn't hear my phone alarmed! or my phone didn't alarm? Whatever. I am still late, and I hate to remember it! I already woke up 6 in the morning! And maybe I will be waking up later than that if my mom didn't come inside the room to ask me to print the contract that was saved on my laptop.

"Howlee sheet!!!" were the first words I said this morning and I felt bad about it.

I rushed myself to take a bath and left the house without eating my breakfast. I did that all for half an hour!

I know by that time that it's already traffic on highways and it's impossible to get a ride going to school. My emotions were mixed up. I don't know if I should stay positive or release the madness feeling inside me.

Finally, I made it to the class! I arrived there at 7:50am, but my professor already checked the attendance and I was already marked late!

Shoot!

Saved by the bell!

I had my Sociology class early this morning, and I guess this is my lucky day!

I was assigned to report a given topic on Friday and today is only Wednesday. It so happened that our professor has a dilemma on that day and she won't be able to meet us, so she decided to have all the reports to be finished this meeting. I was suddenly shocked to hear that announcement!

Oh no! I wasn't able to bring my flash drive today! I left it at home (and honestly, I'm not yet finish w/ it)! I have nothing to present in class! What now?!

Anxiety abruptly came to me. I tried to calm down, but I couldn't stop my heart beating rapidly. While there are still other reporters in front, I started skimming all the pages of my book to remember the important details about my topic. I am not worried about how I am going to deliver my report in front of the class for  I have studied that already in advance. It's just that my professor will mark higher grades to those students who prepared any visual aids or powerpoint presentation. She might think that I effortlessly did my report and she will end up giving me a low grade.

Tick! tock! tick! tock! I can't stop looking at the clock...

Tick! tock! tick! tock! and I am next to present in the class...

The moment my professor will about to call my name the bell suddenly rang!

Phew! What a relief! Class is over! I'm so happy... I'm so lucky! She has no choice but to make me report on the next meeting.

Thank, God!

How are you, blog?

When was the last time I posted an entry here? It seemed like a month had passed already, although it was just few days ago.

Anyway, my week was full of a lot of assignments to do, reports to prepare, and deadlines to meet, plus the time I spend having my training at the pep squad. I'd never been so stressful before. I've been lacking sleep consecutive days already and the result is I look older than what my age should really tell other people who see me.

I admit, I feel so anxious most of the time. I do everything just to finish all my jobs before the deadline to get high grades and be a dean's Lister, to have a good reputation in and out of the school, and to never fail the expectations of the people who knew about my capability.

It's hard, I know. I even attempt to give up several times, but it never happened, and thank you for that. I'm still this person/ student who strives harder to achieve a lot of things I want, to make my family proud of me and to reach my goals.

Aside from all the school works this week, I had my recollection last Friday. I was so blessed to attend that activity because I know God wants me to spend my whole day with Him. I felt renewed and spiritually heeled from all the sorrows I had in my life. I always remember Him every day and every night, and I know He is always by my side to always reach out.

The following day, Saturday, was the final examination of all first year students for their PE subject (I was exempted in that exam because I am a varsity, and varsities do not have to to attend that subject). They were graded with their cheerdance presentation and it was also a sort of competition w/ the other sections. I didn't join my blockmates because I danced at the opening w/ the pep squad (boy, I'm too proud to brag about it!) Not only that, my section was announced as the champions! That was equivalent to a perfect score for their final exam! Hooray for them! hooray for us!

The Pep Squad 

My champion blockmates!

Everything paid off knowing that news. Saturday was just the day for fun and merriment!

Oh, and have I told you that within those challenging days, there is always this one person who adds strength in me? He used to tell me that I'm strong, that we're both strong, that we can accomplish all the work given to us because we can. I love that boy so much. Too bad, we're both apart and busy with our own businesses. But that's okay, there will be a day that we'll meet and enjoy each others company  in wherever place we plan to go. I'm already happy to know that he is happy with all the activities he does, and the little time he spares to update me with his day.

It feels so good to be inspired--- to be in love with the guy who cares for me even without any words unleashed from his voice. I can strongly feel that in my heart *blushing*. Sigh. I can't wait for that special moment of my life :)

It's late in the evening again. I'd better be in bed now.

Good night, world! Let's always pray to have a better tomorrow!

9/11

A decade had passed since the terrorists sabotaged the country of America. It seems like yesterday when it happened. But look at it now, still a progressive country. After all the damaged done, the lost lives and values learned, they remain strong and powerful until this very point.

What about us Filipinos? What happened to us? I may still not be in the right age to tell this since I'm still a student, but I can sense that there is really something wrong with us.

Aside from the government officials who are having a hard time counting billions of money that they corrupt from us, our country seemed to look worse than what America should experience when they were bombed by the terrorists.

Look at Japan and the other countries that experienced catastrophic calamities, they easily rise because they have the funds to reconstruct and they have less money owing.  In us? We are about to start a new project, yet we already have a debt to pay.

Do you think that the generation of the Filipinos today can witness a success Philippines, that there will be a day when we there is no much news about the dirty politicians? that everything happening in our country are all nice, that there are less crimes here because many citizens have their decent jobs already, that anywhere here in the Philippines can be a tourist destination?

I am so bored.. so irritated.. why? Because the other countries already made it. And Philippines? I don't know when.

Good morning!

If you missed the beautiful sunrise that God made this morning, it's okay. All you have to do is look at the mirror and see a real beautiful creation of God.


Say thank you too!

A brand new day, a brand new life.

I wanted to say good morning to all.


I thank God for giving me another day to spend my time with the people I love, to accomplish all the unfinished tasks, to learn new things, to meet new people, to be able to live the life I always wanted.


It's September 1, the day to start all over again.



Always remember that


“ God is the reason why even in pain, we smile; even in confusion, we understand; even in betrayal, we trust and even in fear, we continue to fight.”


Take care, everyone! Time to go to school.

The long weekend is over!

Finally, I had the rest I always wanted. I slept longer than I used to, watched late TV shows and movies, went out to the beach to stare at the sky and to enjoy the breeze, to be with my family again, and to talk to random people. Sadly, I was not able to control the amount of food I should consume, for I am tempted by many people around me. I hope to still maintain the weight my coach checked last Friday.

Aside from the rejuvenating activities I did, the school works were still attached to me wherever I go. I can not help but to think about what I should accomplish before I enter school. My professors did not fail to give me assignments to be passed tomorrow. Fortunately, I have more time to do that, but it is better if they did not assigned me anymore.

And good news, the muscle injuries on my thighs were gone already. I can do cat walk again and attend my training at the Pep Squad tomorrow.

Oh, tomorrow!
I have to wake up again so early in the morning just to be in school on time.

Oh, tomorrow!
My brain will be drained again because of all the essays, recitations, seatworks, and quizzes in class.

Oh, tomorrow!
You give me all the strength to face my daily challenges.

Kanina sa loob ng jeep

May kuyang taga-UP na ginigitgit ako sa loob ng jeep kanina kaya naglakas loob akong kausapin siya


Me: Kuya, anong name mo? Madalas kasi kita nakakasabay sa pagsakay ng jeep tuwing uuwi na (which is true)

Siya: Raymond.

Me: Ako si Erica.

Siya: Ah.

Me: Anong course mo?

Siya: ECE

Me: Ah.

Dahil doon, nilayuan niya na ako, at sa wakas maluwag na ang aking inuupuan. Hehe. Papansin.

The life of homeless people under the footbridge of Katipunan

Was there a moment in your life that you picture yourself being homeless? That your only bed is a small carton, your blankets are the crumpled newspapers found on the trash bin, and your room is the whole sidewalk? Have you imagined yourself begging for food or asking for spare change at the streets just to have something to eat for the day?  How will you feel if these really happen to you?

Few days ago, after my pep squad training, I was walking across the footbridge, suddenly a young boy, around 5 years old, pulled my shirt and begged me to pay money for his sampaguita flowers. Honestly, I don’t want to purchase those because I’m not going to place them on the altar, but the child looked so hungry.  Instead of getting the flowers he was holding, I gave him coins that were enough to buy him bread or a biscuit, and he can earn more money if he’ll sell the flowers to other people passing by. It was a relief on my part that I have helped someone and he can finally fill his empty tummy, but it was better if I gave him directly foods so that I can be sure that he will really consume it. It was so happen that there were no open stores nearby so I have no choice but to give him money.

The following day, I saw a mother with two infants who were exposed to the polluted air of the city. The helpless babies were sleeping under the footbridge and the mother was asking for alms. When I observed the bottle, it was empty and unclean. This can cause harmful effects on their body. When I also looked at the infants’ faces, there were tears dried on their skins evidencing that they recently cried. I really felt so bothered with their situation. Unfortunately, I can’t do anything to help them.  I sensed guilt in me. Passing by on them really stabbed my heart. When I mentioned this to my mother, she told me to donate some clothes to them. But I wonder, will I ever see them again when I pass by? They are homeless; they move to different places to ask help from more fortunate people.

There are more kinds of situations like these that I see around the city everyday.

All I want is to make the other people who are not contented of what they have to realize how lucky they are for having a good life. I know you are lucky. Why?  Because you have your own computer to read this blog, if not, you’re still lucky to afford renting a PC in the internet café. You’re lucky because your room may not be as big as what you wanted, but I’m sure it has a comfortable bed that can make you sleep well. You’re lucky in so many other ways. My point is whatever we own, even the smallest objects, we should be thankful for it and let us always remember those people who support us financially and to God who lets these good things happen to us.

Hello, Monday!

 

I was so glad to see my friend, Matthew Geis, online yesterday. It was like we didn't chat a long, long, long time ago and my reaction was exactly how you see in the picture above. I told him few things I keep thinking in mind and he must be laughing at me right now.

Oh, well, few more hours and my training will start. Good day, world!

Be responsible enough

Most of the students in my school say that this week is a "hell week!" because it's our midterm exam week starting today until on Saturday. But for me, it was never came to mind to term my week that way.

Why? Because in every exam, I always ready myself so I don't have to worry anything. I start reviewing all the tackled lessons and all the pointers to remember. And besides, it was announced to us when will be our exam week a long time ago, so there's no one to blame.

I don't understand some students, the teachers and the school officials, they keep reminding us about this. They even release school papers of the upcoming activities before we reach the date when we should be prepared. But it seems nothing to them, to those happy-go-lucky students. They'll just open their books when it's already the day before the midterm. Then when they found out the result of their exams they will start complaining why their grades were like these and like that. I find it irritating. Really.

I know it's not my concern to care about their grades or whatever they do in life, but I'm just being affected. I can't help but to mind their acts than just minding mine.

I hope they realize that instead of complaining, why not just sit in one place where they can concentrate well and start studying. And I also hope that they will refrain asking their classmates about the lessons because they both attend the class anyway. Sometimes they don't know that the classmate they are asking is already bothered and irritated.

Lastly, I hope they learn the lesson of being a responsible individual not only in school, but also when they go out to other places.

-____-

It's been raining...

... and all classes were suspended
... the houses are quiet
... some kids are bored
... some are having their sleep
... some just watching tv
... no one wants to play with the rain,
... but many want to see the sun
... and enjoy outside to have fun
... like me, I want to go out
... to break free,
... to feel the warmth,
... to run and chase the butterflies,
... to be young again
... to be alive,
... but I could no longer be
... for there are lots of responsibilities
... even I'm just stuck here.

"Today I Don't Feel Like Doing Anything, I Just Wanna Lay In My Bed"

The moment my coach announced that we'll have no training tomorrow and this coming Monday in our pep squad I was so glad! I even wanted to shout on top of my voice "HOORAY!!!" but I couldn't because he might change his mind. So I just blushed in one corner. At least I am given a chance to sleep longer this weekend because I badly need it. Sleeping 4 hours every night really sucks! My eyes automatically close when I'm already in class, and I hate that feeling! Plus, I can do on the following days tons of my assignments that are to be submitted next week.

sigh.

I thank God for the good news, for my safe travel going to school and at home, for my health and for the abundant blessings I keep receiving from Him every day of my life!

Oh, it's 11:40 in the evening again. I should go to sleep now.

I'll talk (blog) more tomorrow for you.

P.S. I keep thinking about this guy before I go to sleep. I hope I dream of him tonight. He just doesn't know how I love him so much! I can't wait for the day I can hug him tightly.

Ok, I said too much. Good night, world!

Today, i feel like...

 

...writing more, blogging more, and doing more! this may be something shallow for you to make you happy, but this means a lot to me. The whole world, they view my blog everyday, no matter what i keep posting here, they just seem to enjoy.

I can certainly tell you that this is me!

Enjoy reading! :)

Stuck.

"There were so many things
That I never ever got to say
'Cause I'm always tongue tied
With my words getting in the way"

So, there is this guy i really love. I'm so in love, deeply in love, and whenever we talk/chat/text I always wanted to say the words "I LOVE YOU" before we end our conversation, but I couldn't. I always feel so coward. Instead, I always change it with "I MISS YOU".

Yes, I miss him too, because I don't see him, but i just don't want him to know that that is the only thing I feel for him. I always hope he feels that my heart beats for him. And I'm really frustrated right now. I don't know, maybe it's because I couldn't really tell him. Arghh! Whatever. He'll soon know, I hope.