How are you, blog?

When was the last time I posted an entry here? It seemed like a month had passed already, although it was just few days ago.

Anyway, my week was full of a lot of assignments to do, reports to prepare, and deadlines to meet, plus the time I spend having my training at the pep squad. I'd never been so stressful before. I've been lacking sleep consecutive days already and the result is I look older than what my age should really tell other people who see me.

I admit, I feel so anxious most of the time. I do everything just to finish all my jobs before the deadline to get high grades and be a dean's Lister, to have a good reputation in and out of the school, and to never fail the expectations of the people who knew about my capability.

It's hard, I know. I even attempt to give up several times, but it never happened, and thank you for that. I'm still this person/ student who strives harder to achieve a lot of things I want, to make my family proud of me and to reach my goals.

Aside from all the school works this week, I had my recollection last Friday. I was so blessed to attend that activity because I know God wants me to spend my whole day with Him. I felt renewed and spiritually heeled from all the sorrows I had in my life. I always remember Him every day and every night, and I know He is always by my side to always reach out.

The following day, Saturday, was the final examination of all first year students for their PE subject (I was exempted in that exam because I am a varsity, and varsities do not have to to attend that subject). They were graded with their cheerdance presentation and it was also a sort of competition w/ the other sections. I didn't join my blockmates because I danced at the opening w/ the pep squad (boy, I'm too proud to brag about it!) Not only that, my section was announced as the champions! That was equivalent to a perfect score for their final exam! Hooray for them! hooray for us!

The Pep Squad 

My champion blockmates!

Everything paid off knowing that news. Saturday was just the day for fun and merriment!

Oh, and have I told you that within those challenging days, there is always this one person who adds strength in me? He used to tell me that I'm strong, that we're both strong, that we can accomplish all the work given to us because we can. I love that boy so much. Too bad, we're both apart and busy with our own businesses. But that's okay, there will be a day that we'll meet and enjoy each others company  in wherever place we plan to go. I'm already happy to know that he is happy with all the activities he does, and the little time he spares to update me with his day.

It feels so good to be inspired--- to be in love with the guy who cares for me even without any words unleashed from his voice. I can strongly feel that in my heart *blushing*. Sigh. I can't wait for that special moment of my life :)

It's late in the evening again. I'd better be in bed now.

Good night, world! Let's always pray to have a better tomorrow!

9/11

A decade had passed since the terrorists sabotaged the country of America. It seems like yesterday when it happened. But look at it now, still a progressive country. After all the damaged done, the lost lives and values learned, they remain strong and powerful until this very point.

What about us Filipinos? What happened to us? I may still not be in the right age to tell this since I'm still a student, but I can sense that there is really something wrong with us.

Aside from the government officials who are having a hard time counting billions of money that they corrupt from us, our country seemed to look worse than what America should experience when they were bombed by the terrorists.

Look at Japan and the other countries that experienced catastrophic calamities, they easily rise because they have the funds to reconstruct and they have less money owing.  In us? We are about to start a new project, yet we already have a debt to pay.

Do you think that the generation of the Filipinos today can witness a success Philippines, that there will be a day when we there is no much news about the dirty politicians? that everything happening in our country are all nice, that there are less crimes here because many citizens have their decent jobs already, that anywhere here in the Philippines can be a tourist destination?

I am so bored.. so irritated.. why? Because the other countries already made it. And Philippines? I don't know when.

The long weekend is over!

Finally, I had the rest I always wanted. I slept longer than I used to, watched late TV shows and movies, went out to the beach to stare at the sky and to enjoy the breeze, to be with my family again, and to talk to random people. Sadly, I was not able to control the amount of food I should consume, for I am tempted by many people around me. I hope to still maintain the weight my coach checked last Friday.

Aside from the rejuvenating activities I did, the school works were still attached to me wherever I go. I can not help but to think about what I should accomplish before I enter school. My professors did not fail to give me assignments to be passed tomorrow. Fortunately, I have more time to do that, but it is better if they did not assigned me anymore.

And good news, the muscle injuries on my thighs were gone already. I can do cat walk again and attend my training at the Pep Squad tomorrow.

Oh, tomorrow!
I have to wake up again so early in the morning just to be in school on time.

Oh, tomorrow!
My brain will be drained again because of all the essays, recitations, seatworks, and quizzes in class.

Oh, tomorrow!
You give me all the strength to face my daily challenges.

The life of homeless people under the footbridge of Katipunan

Was there a moment in your life that you picture yourself being homeless? That your only bed is a small carton, your blankets are the crumpled newspapers found on the trash bin, and your room is the whole sidewalk? Have you imagined yourself begging for food or asking for spare change at the streets just to have something to eat for the day?  How will you feel if these really happen to you?

Few days ago, after my pep squad training, I was walking across the footbridge, suddenly a young boy, around 5 years old, pulled my shirt and begged me to pay money for his sampaguita flowers. Honestly, I don’t want to purchase those because I’m not going to place them on the altar, but the child looked so hungry.  Instead of getting the flowers he was holding, I gave him coins that were enough to buy him bread or a biscuit, and he can earn more money if he’ll sell the flowers to other people passing by. It was a relief on my part that I have helped someone and he can finally fill his empty tummy, but it was better if I gave him directly foods so that I can be sure that he will really consume it. It was so happen that there were no open stores nearby so I have no choice but to give him money.

The following day, I saw a mother with two infants who were exposed to the polluted air of the city. The helpless babies were sleeping under the footbridge and the mother was asking for alms. When I observed the bottle, it was empty and unclean. This can cause harmful effects on their body. When I also looked at the infants’ faces, there were tears dried on their skins evidencing that they recently cried. I really felt so bothered with their situation. Unfortunately, I can’t do anything to help them.  I sensed guilt in me. Passing by on them really stabbed my heart. When I mentioned this to my mother, she told me to donate some clothes to them. But I wonder, will I ever see them again when I pass by? They are homeless; they move to different places to ask help from more fortunate people.

There are more kinds of situations like these that I see around the city everyday.

All I want is to make the other people who are not contented of what they have to realize how lucky they are for having a good life. I know you are lucky. Why?  Because you have your own computer to read this blog, if not, you’re still lucky to afford renting a PC in the internet café. You’re lucky because your room may not be as big as what you wanted, but I’m sure it has a comfortable bed that can make you sleep well. You’re lucky in so many other ways. My point is whatever we own, even the smallest objects, we should be thankful for it and let us always remember those people who support us financially and to God who lets these good things happen to us.

Hello, Monday!

 

I was so glad to see my friend, Matthew Geis, online yesterday. It was like we didn't chat a long, long, long time ago and my reaction was exactly how you see in the picture above. I told him few things I keep thinking in mind and he must be laughing at me right now.

Oh, well, few more hours and my training will start. Good day, world!

Today, i feel like...

 

...writing more, blogging more, and doing more! this may be something shallow for you to make you happy, but this means a lot to me. The whole world, they view my blog everyday, no matter what i keep posting here, they just seem to enjoy.

I can certainly tell you that this is me!

Enjoy reading! :)

Stuck.

"There were so many things
That I never ever got to say
'Cause I'm always tongue tied
With my words getting in the way"

So, there is this guy i really love. I'm so in love, deeply in love, and whenever we talk/chat/text I always wanted to say the words "I LOVE YOU" before we end our conversation, but I couldn't. I always feel so coward. Instead, I always change it with "I MISS YOU".

Yes, I miss him too, because I don't see him, but i just don't want him to know that that is the only thing I feel for him. I always hope he feels that my heart beats for him. And I'm really frustrated right now. I don't know, maybe it's because I couldn't really tell him. Arghh! Whatever. He'll soon know, I hope.

One time at the school's cafeteria :)

My blockmates and I had our two hours break yesterday that's why we decided to spend our time taking pictures. And the outcome was full of wackiness. I have plenty more of these photos on my facebook account.

I had fun throughout the week. 

I guess this is the last post for now, It's Saturday tomorrow and I still have a make up class early in the morning so I should go to bed now.

Good night, people of God!

(YAWN)

A miraculous Tuesday!

I usually set my alarm clock at 4:15 in the morning every Tuesday and Thursday. Since its Tuesday today, I should be awake at that time. I heard my phone alarmed, I already opened my eyes, but I decided to close them for a few minutes because I still feel so sleepy for I just slept at 12 midnight. As I opened my eyes again, I thought 5 or 10 minutes only passed, and then when I checked my phone it was already 5:30 am! I was like, "Oh my, Oh my!!! I'm going to be late. I should be at the terminal this hour!!!"

I hurried myself to take a shower and dressed quickly because I want to travel to school as soon as possible. I know that if I don't leave immediately I might caught by the traffic jams along the way. While traveling, I prayed hard to God to make a miracle today that there is a possibility for me to be there on time.

I arrived in school at 7:47am, and I was already 17mins late. Fortunately, the professor hasn’t checked the attendance yet, so when I was there already I was not marked late.

I felt a relief, and I thank God for this. He is so good!

P.S. This is the also the very first time that I have not eaten my breakfast in my college life. I just sipped an energy drink before I fully left the house.

I will never forget June 9, 2011

It was supposed to be the 2nd day of classes in college. I don’t have a dorm so I just commute back and forth to school and home. It was even raining that day, but since it was not signal #3, college students still have to attend classes.

I was inside a public vehicle, jeepney to be exact, going to school. I was almost there when my course mate sent me a text message telling me that the classes were suspended. Geez! Few kilometers and I were there! I freaked out! Imagine, you woke up so early to catch the 7:30 am class, you already traveled almost an hour and spent money for transportations then you’ll receive something that would disappoint you. I sighed. I have no choice but to go back home and spend another fee for my transportation.

It was not a good day after all

Officially back!

At last! I finally had the time to open my blog and post something new. It’s been 3 weeks (I guess?) that this was in silent. The last time I blogged here was when I received my certificate from a baking class and reminding you how many more days before my birthday.

4 days before my birthday, people inside the house were so busy preparing everything for the party, from the house, the foods, drinks and etc. It was even raining so hard that time and I was already feeling something not so good about it. We even received frequent brown- out due to the heavy rains pouring. When it was already the day of my birthday, I was expecting many visitors to come because many said they will attend my birthday party. Then, I was disappointed. Few only came because of the stupid weather! I knew this was happening! I was really annoyed because the people who I was expecting the most didn’t come. And honestly, I was so sad and told myself that it was the worst party ever! But good thing I looked at the bright side, Janred came, and he is one of the important people in my life, my girlfriends also remembered me, and so as the guy I’ve been crushing for a long time, eventually, I find calmness in my sorrowing heart.

After the birthday party and everything that happened, I cleaned the whole house again, washed piles of plates and arranged the furniture. Now it was the time to prepare everything for my new school.

Another disappointment came to my life when I wasn’t able to qualify to enroll in my dream school, ADMU, when I received an e-mail from their office. I started holding back tears because my cousin and my mom were around and I don’t want them to see me crying. What happened to my birthday and the news I received made me so down! A failure! I felt like my life was in ruin. I have no other choice but to enter MIRIAM COLLEGE, an exclusive school for girls. I never wanted to enroll there but I have no choice and the deadline of requirements needed was near. If I didn’t abruptly make a move, they might not accept me and not be able to enter any school at all. So, I guess, that is where I really belong. I have no other choice but to accept the outcome of my life.

After I successfully passed all the needed requirements, I was now enrolled in that school. I wasn’t feeling so happy at all. I started attending psychological exam and orientations from those said schedules. And you know what sucks? My dream school is just beside my present school and every time I’ll pass by I can feel that I am so hurt, I even question myself, “Am I really an imbecile?”

I’m trying to move on by searching things what my present school has that my dream school doesn’t have. But whatever I see around the campus, still ADMU is far better.
I guess I just started loving my present school when I listened to the last orientation that they held last June 7. It was convincing, and little, I’m starting to be proud that I am now a MARYKNOLLER. They even prepared different presentations from different clubs and organizations they have and they really amused me.

The following day, June 8, was my first day in school and my first time to be in college. I felt just fine traveling there and meeting my blockmates and making new set of friends. And until present I’m gaining more academically and socially.

Fast 5

A friend and I just watched the movie FAST 5 in cinema yesterday. I really expected that this would be awesome! And it was. I always love action movies, especially when Vin Diesel is one of the main casts.

There was a technical problem at first and they started the film an hour late. But everything paid off when it was on going. The cars, the cool stunts and the flow of the story were all amazing. Unfortunately, this movie was the last sequel. But what can we do, like many say, everything has its end.

After watching the said movie, we went to a fast food chain and fueled up our tummies with large fries, burger and float. I can say that the both of us had a great day. And that friend of mine just doesn't know how much he cheers me up all the time!

Finally, we went home just in time. And I thank God of for a safe trip.

P.S. I feel so embarrassed with those zits on my forehead and how I ate the ice cream before we enter the cinema.

It's nice to laugh how we look before...

Because we are different now, we know how to dress up, we know how to fix ourselves, we were influenced by the people we spend our time with.

Isn't it nice to know that we also have the confidence to show how we look when we were younger? That you even tell yourself how ugly you were and laugh with the photograph you're holding. It's fine with you now, because you have changed. You look better than before. It's just so nice to remember memories from the past.

Reformation

Lately, I’ve been going to the wrong direction and thinking in a wrong way.  I lost focus of what I always love to do and that is---- to BLOG.  To make some clarifications I asked myself,

“What’s wrong, Erica? What makes you down? How will you be successful if you’re always like this? What are the possible ways to put you on full strength again? Where is the eagerness you used to put in yourself to reach that goal? You need to answer these questions right here, right now. Don’t waste time. Come on! You used to repeat the phrase make use of my time again and again in your mind. But what are you doing? You’re just sitting there and looking at nowhere. Isn’t this the right time to use it? ”.

Don’t get me wrong, but I really talk to myself often.

Remember my last post before this? You can read it back if you want so you can understand clearly what I am talking about.

If you just know, Blogging is a big deal for me, earlier as now I am practicing myself for bigger purposes. I am putting myself to the test, to ready myself to make my career successful in the future, and this is a perfect way to start. I always wanted to be a WRITER. I love writing; I always have abundant imaginations and can make them out of a story.

I often picture myself holding a book in front of the Medias throwing questions of how I made it, that the book I have created is now a bestselling not only in my continent, but also worldwide. That my name is very famous and is always seen in magazines and newspapers, and paparazzi are everywhere to snap photos of me for their own article, and they might also put it in their blogs too. And that I’m well- known by people just like how Ophra Winfrey is right now, and so as Bill Gates, and the others.

Doesn’t it feel good to be true? I want these things to happen, I really do.

But in every big achievement it is necessary to start at the small one, because there is a saying, “In every thousand miles we start with one step”.  But how will it be as big as my imagination to make it in reality if in small areas I am not making a move?  I should stop being happy-go-lucky and should set a goal.

Just like yesterday, I know there’s something nice to blog about a grandpa and my unusual feeling of what happened that the readers will find it touching, but I didn’t post it because I’m lazy and tired. I’m tired because I’ve been doing nothing the whole day.  See? This is not good. When I get a job I can’t be like this. Do you get what I mean?

If you’re telling me that maybe I’m getting the wrong choice of career, you’re wrong. This is what I love, being in the industry of authors, editors, writers, columnists, etc. This is really the profession I wanted to take. I’m just being TOO LAZY.

And I find my courage again when a friend of mine, Mr. John Marine, had an article about blogging stuff which I find it absolutely true. He inspires many people across the world including me. And his words are very powerful and meaningful that you will get up from where you are seated and start doing what you really love that is good for you and for your career. I appreciate everything he does for me all the time.

If you want to meet him, just visit his blog here.

And this time, I’ll make it sure that I’m heading the right direction to success with God’s guidance.

Here we go again!

I hate this kind of feeling when I have nothing to blog about and there are abundant things and events happening in my life everyday (except this issue). I just can't find something significant, or am I not good in expressing those here?

I don't know. It's awkward today and the previous days. Been here at home for a while. Nothing new. I wish I have plenty of money to travel anywhere and do the things I want to that money can only pay.

Staying at home really kills me to death :|

I am missing that feeling

There's no thrill. When can I ever feel that again?

Since last Thursday up to this day, my batch and I are just having our graduation practice, and tomorrow will be the final one.

It feels so lame, so, so...(sigh) never mind, didn't even know the word to describe.

I want something new, even just for now. Heck, if I just know what to do.

Filled with glee: The musical!

Antipolo lady of Lourdes School just celebrated its 19th year founding anniversary. This year's theme was "Filled with gLee!".

All students from each year level had prepared a production number for the night's event, which was held last February 12, 2011 in our school's covered court.

As I have mentioned before from my previous post that we will dance and sing some scenes from the gLee show. Here I am to show you all the photos from the said event.

My costume for the dance. This was taken at our porch. 

The stage's background

The curtain

The opening number. 

Those are the selected students who performed  It's my life/confessions

from one of the original gLee's performances. 

This was the original.

Our very own female casts who performed 

Halo/ Walking on Sunshine...

...Which was seen in this original clip.

Next...

Grade 3- Lady gaga

(Poker face, Bad romance)

Sophomore students- Beyonce 

(single ladies, crazy in love)

Grade 4- Justin Bieber 

(Baby, U smile, Somebody to love)

Grade 5- Hannah Montana 

(Climb, Part in the USA)

 My lil' bro with his wig and shades on. haha!

Grade 1- KC and the Sunshine band 

(That's the way I like it, Shake shake shake)

Kinder 1 & 2- MC Hammer 

(Vanilla Ice Ice Baby)

Juniors- Madonna

(4 minutes, vogue, express yourself)

Grade 2- Charice and Iyaz

(pyramid, listen)

our very own Britney Spears wearing black dress 

 me, between my two batchmates

back- up dancers of BS

Seniors- Britney Spears

(Baby one more time, I'm a slave for you, Me against the music)

Freshmen- Justine Timberlake & Christina Aguilera

(rock your body, come on over baby, love sex and magic)

I have no photos from the grade 6 pupil's presentation, but I have their video....

(I'll upload it here)

Selling Raffle Tickets to the Grade 4 Students

Remember my post last Wednesday?

These are the photos of the grade 4 pupils who loved to be included in the picture taking. 

 (Me, at the right side)

 (Poor Janred, he was pushed)

(LOL. The kid covered us at the back)

If everyday was like that, I'm sure all my stress will be gone easily when I arrive home (:

I love those kids!

What's up, Doc?

Last Friday my dentist contacted me and told me to be in her clinic the following day.

I DID.

As I enter her clinic, she was attending a patient who was seated on the dental chair. There was also a patient before me waiting for her turn and her teeth has to be re sealant.

After SEVERAL minutes it was another patient's turn. The one who I am next with.

My dentist was not yet done sealing the patient's teeth. I was totally bored, so I gave up. I waited an hour and a half for nothing!

I have to go back home for I'm already hungry and I want to eat my lunch, and besides I have a rehearsal in school later that time. I still have to prepare the things needed to be brought there. What I did is I approached my dentist and asked if I can just go back tomorrow.

Tomorrow was today, Sunday.

 Finally, I was the first patient who came to her clinic. As I was seated on the dental chair, I opened my mouth, she checked for a FEW seconds and said, "Your braces can now be removed. Let's reschedule when you want to take them off."

That's it?! That's the appointment all about?!
Of course I can't ask her to remove it that time because I didn't bring any money for the labor.
For all I know is she will do some adjustments and I don't have to pay any amount.
The only reaction I could give was to smile and said "okay". But that was totally not okay for me!

I waited longer than to be assisted! Shoot! If I only knew this was going to happen I should have asked her to assist me first before the patient before me!

This was not the only time I have encountered an experience like this with her. She's totally ridiculous. Doesn't she know about time management?

Ow, gawd! I was totally pissed off!

Don't mention my name, Ma'am

Yesterday, our Filipino teacher got mad with us. She stopped talking in front of the class to get our attention. And when our attention was on her, she said something that made me giggle, but I tried to force not to be noticed because I don't want her

TO MENTION MY NAME TOO!

Her sermon goes like this:

"Class, I am now annoyed with your noise. I can't tolerate this anymore! You are already grown ups so you should know how to respect the person who is talking in front. I JUST DON'T WANT TO MENTION YOUR NAMES SO YOU WON'T GET EMBARRASSED IN FRONT OF THE CLASS!...."

she paused.

"PAULINE, YSABEL and SARAH! You are very noisy! If you want, you can get out of my class ... Now!"

ohh-ouh!

El oh El,

erica