Here we go again!

I hate this kind of feeling when I have nothing to blog about and there are abundant things and events happening in my life everyday (except this issue). I just can't find something significant, or am I not good in expressing those here?

I don't know. It's awkward today and the previous days. Been here at home for a while. Nothing new. I wish I have plenty of money to travel anywhere and do the things I want to that money can only pay.

Staying at home really kills me to death :|

Blogless

Not to say I no longer have a blog. Just that I am "less" anything to blog. Can't think of a thing. I hate it when that happens.

Hooray!

Someone just gave me a compliment that my grammar is improving!

Thanks to that person.

As you can notice, I started blogging last March and my grammar isn't that good. I also posted before that I want to improve it so I can do better in school. Now that I achieved my goal, I am also thanking blogger for helping me giving a good practice.


Chao!

Blah Blah Blah

Another day where I can't get my thoughts into words. Too much hurt, too much confusion and not enough peace makes writing hard. Today is just one of those days.

Blogging has been hard for several weeks now and it's been difficult to write congruent thoughts without creating a book. While writing has been an outlet for me, it is also a barometer of the stress and strain of what is going on in my life. More so, it is a barometer of where I stand in my relationship with God because when I am trusting Him completely there is a peace around me that is certainly supernatural, but, when I am in the old mode of wanting what I want and struggling with emotions that are neither healthy nor productive, there is no peace and I am a tangled mass of confusing thoughts and feelings. This isn't a good recipe for writing.

I totally....

miss my friend Mayo.

Being around Mayo is like bringing home a new puppy. He's so adorable. Sure, he gets into trouble, but you never get mad at him because he just wants to make you happy. He has an endless supply of energy. He waits on you and makes you feel loved. He looks at his family with big puppy dog eyes and is so incredibly loyal to them.

I totally miss Mayo.

The Fortune Cookie

I have a fortune cookie slip taped to my fridge that says:

You will come to realizations in your life that will change you forever.

I doubt that these are among them, but at least they are fun:

1. I've come to realize that, when I talk: I'm not necessarily saying what I'm thinking, or vice versa.

2. I've come to realize that, somewhere, someone is thinking: about far more important things than this blog.

3. I've come to realize that, I'll always have: a need for my mother and the support of good friends

4. I've come to realize that, my cell phone is: so high tech!

5. I've come to realize that, when I wake up in the morning: it's probably not fair, but I pee before I take my babe out to do the same.

6. I've come to realize that, before I go to sleep at night I: love to read and have missed that ritual.

7. I've come to realize that, right now I am thinking about: how loud Stitch is snoring. Do they make breathe-rights for dogs?

8. I've come to realize that, I get on facebook: too much.

9. I've come to realize, that tonight I will: perhaps go and buy a school supply at the national bookstore. Well, I've accepted it more than realized - I hate spending money on them.

10. I've come to realize that, school is: where I belong, in any capacity.

11. I've come to realize that, tomorrow I will: wake up at 4:45 am because its school day.



Maybe it's not what the fortune cookie had in mind, but I like it.

Oh eri ..

sucks when you're happy and you can't really tell anyone about it.

I Have Things to Say

But I will likely say them tomorrow or the next day.

For now - please don't go away. I very much like you.

And thank you for being patient with my spotty posting :)

A Freaky Friday

It was weird this morning. I woke up dizzy and out of my mind. First, I put a cereal on my bowl then grabbed a box of milk out of the fridge. I was about to pour it when I realized that the milk was onwed by my mom- and it's a soya milk! Geez.. Why didn't I read the label?

Second, when I'm about to brush my teeth, I squeezed my facial wash onto my toothbrush. When it was near my mouth, I stopped and surveyed for a moment. I wonder why the color is different from the usual toothpaste I put on my toothbrush. That's when I found out I made a mistake! It's not a toothpaste! Gawd. I removed it and since I don't want to waste it I used it . Lucky I'm not yet facially washing my face. And lucky Im not yet brushing it inside my mouth. Yuck!

Third, I keep thinking about Dimitri Belikov, one of the characters in Vampire Academy. I think i'm falling in love with him even I don't exactly see him. I just imagine what I read in the book of how he was described. Don't get me wrong but I think he's cute and hunky. --or, I'm just too imaginative. But I can replace my crush with Dimitri my love!---- eiw!

Last, someone called my sister on the telephone. She knew my sister's name. When my lil' sis asked her who she was, the person in the other line said "Guess who am I". Then the person abruptly hanged the phone. I shiver! It was sort of scary. Just try having one some time. And you'll feel what I want you to feel.

I wonder why I'm crazy. I'm not drank. Maybe I'm just stressed about last night.

Heeh.

Busy Day II

These are the new photos at the constructing site from yesterday. I was not able to post this last night because I'm too sleepy when I got home. Anyway, they had their paychecks. I wish mom gives me for working there too! Ha!


I took a photo of these so I can recall what's missing when I need them back




The steels. Ready to put up. and hey! there's my sis.


I have a new place to stay. They already destroyed the last one






The ground was dig deep. It's almost 5 feet in height and I can barely reach that because I'm not tall enough. Poor me, I'm small :(( Yet, good job workers!

I hope daddy sees these. He's looking for it =]

Just click here to see the first part

It's my time to rest now =].

Sunday!

My family and I went to China town today with Janus. Yes, it's Mothers' day today, But no, we didn't go out to celebrate. We went there to buy something we need for our catering. After we had bought everything on the list we stepped inside the car. How sweet of Janus when he gave mom and grandma a rose and greeted them this event. He's so thoughtful!

At the end of the day he greeted me too! But it wasn't about being a mother.... "Happy GRANDMOTHERS' DAY!", he said as I close the gate when he'll leave. Haha, I laughed!

Last but definitely not the least, we bought a french poodle. She was named 'babe'. She's small, white, and cutie.

EVEN HERE?!

THIS IS TOO MUCH! ALL MY HATERS REALLY TRYING TO DO EVERYTHING TO MAKE MY DAY BAD! WELL I'M STARTING A LITTLE (you had your little achievement!). NOT ONLY AT FORMSPRING BUT ALSO HERE ON MY BLOG. THOSE PEOPLE, I DON'T KNOW WHAT TO DO WITH THEM ANYMORE. THEY ARE SO BULLY! I DON'T UNDERSTAND WHY THEY HAVE TO DO THESE THINGS TO ME. I THOUGHT WHEN I'M AWAY FROM SCHOOL I'LL HAVE MY PEACE OF MIND. BUT IT TURNED OUT TO BE OPPOSITE! MY GOODNESS!

I REALLY DON'T KNOW! CAN'T THEY JUST IGNORE ME LIKE THE WAY I DO TO THEM?

IF I HAD THIS ATTITUDE PROBLEM THEN WHY CAN'T THEY SAY THAT TO ME PERSONALLY? WHY DO THEY HAVE TO SEND ANONYMOUSLY TO SAY EVERYTHING THEY WANT?

FIRST, I NEVER DONE ANYTHING WRONG WITH THEM. IF THERE'S SOMETHING, WHY CAN'T THEY REPORT THAT TO ME?

SECOND, I NEVER SPREAD A RUMOR ABOUT THEM, BUT THEY DID ABOUT ME!

THIRD, THEY KEEP ON NOTICING ME, EVEN THOSE LITTLE THINGS LIKE WHEN I LAUGH, OR THE HEADBAND I AM WEARING ETC.. DO YOU GET MY POINT?

I ALWAYS BACK AWAY SO THERE WILL BE NO BIGGER ISSUES, BUT THEY WON'T REALLY STOP! THE ONLY WAY HOW I CAN EXPRESS MY EMOTIONS ARE THROUGH THIS BLOG THAT I ONLY HAVE AND MY TWO REAL FRIENDS FROM SCHOOL.

geezes! GOOD THING I'M MATURED ENOUGH TO THINK THAT NOT EVERYONE HATES ME! MY HATERS ARE ALL FROM MY SCHOOL ONLY. BUT WHEN I GO TO OTHER PLACES, PEOPLE DON'T HATE ME ANYMORE. REALLY AT SCHOOL ONLY! I SWEAR.

I HOPE WHEN I REACH COLLEGE, I WON'T SEE THEIR FACES ANYMORE. I'M HOPING. HOPE IS WHAT I ONLY HAVE RIGHT NOW. IT WILL BE MY LAST YEAR IN THAT SCHOOL, AND I HOPE THEY DON'T DO ANYTHING FOR A THEIR OWN REMEMBRANCE

I'M NOT CRYING.