Dear Blog,

I don't know what to do now. I don't know when to fix myself again. I'm being irresponsible, lazy, and happy go lucky lately. Just now, I am in misery.

I just had the most regretful feeling ever! Last meeting my professor in Philosophy collected the journals of students who have completed their entries. It was actually a surprise! I wasn't able to pass mine because I lack one entry. Today, he gave back those journals and announced to the class that those students who have submitted theirs are already exempted in our midterms and can leave the room now! While those who haven't submitted theirs, including me, well, will have to take the written exam. I was so devastated when my professor said that! What made everything worse was when I saw my test paper and gave unsure answers. I guess I'll flank on this.

If only I completed all the entries, I'll be one of those who were exempted today.
Not only that, before we started answering our papers, he also distributed our quiz papers from the previous day. To my surprise I received a failing mark!!! As in big 'F'!!! It was my first time ever in college to fail a class work! That moment I was already low and wanting to turn back time just to fix everything wrong.

Sigh. That was not my only problem.

I also ALMOST fail in my long test in Biology. I got a score of 55 out of 100 items.

I'm so like WHAT'S HAPPENING TO ME?! IS THIS REALLY ME RIGHT NOW?!

I studied the night before, but I guess that was not enough.

Napapabayaan ko na mga academics ko!!!

I want to cry, but crying won't help anything anyway, so I decided not to.

I am also aware that I am no longer helping my family in doing household chores, that I'm being such a bummer at home, that I spend so much money with the things I can't remember, that I become a gluttony, that I no longer prioritize my studies, because I'm happy doing other stuffs.

I am completely out of my mind! I want to return to the real me, the person who I used to be, but how? I am already ruined...
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Stunting

I can do what he can do

I can't believe that there was a picture on the internet that looked almost the same as my own picture doing a stunt. LOL! I was amazed to see that dude, that was why I placed together his picture and mine :)