Wednesday, June 30, 2010

What's to post and not to post in a blog

I've been reading a lot of blogs from other people. I find it all interesting which means they have their own rule or limitations that I have noticed.
And those are about what to post and not-- to make your own blog interesting.

Yes, You can exactly tell anything you want. Lovelife, financial, family, work, friends, pets, etc. Anything that happened with your day . That's the use of blogs to us anyway.

But as I surveyed, readers find it better when:
1. bloggers less type bad words in their post
2. photographs are displayed and attracks them
3. punchlines or phrases are very unique
4. most poeple can relate with your story
5. the blog they are reading are the same of their age or older.
6. the layout or design is beautiful
7. it has variety of topics that are being posted in their blogs and they just don't stick to one.
8. it is fun, funny, and sometimes crazy
9. the blogger targeted the feeling of one person reading his/ her own blog

So, from this point I will follow those guidelines to achieve good blogging.

Inauguration of President Benigno Simeon Cayetano Aquino

I watched on television the event because it is our project in school. We have to write down important things that happened at that time. It's also a history in our country. That makes the even very important.

As a very responsible student, I did.

I didn't find it boring.

I've heard songs about Filipinos which are nice to hear and very meaningful.

It will also be my second time in my life to watch an oat taking ceremony of the president.

Charice Pempengco was their to sing our national anthem, "Lupang Hinirang".

While watching the event, there was the previous president waving goodbye to the nation and marching around with the Militars. I know how it feels not to be the president of the country anymore, but I didn't see her cry. She was brave even she's small. She's President Gloria Macapagal Arroyo.

After marching she stepped inside the car and went home. I'm not sure if she cried inside.

And this new president, Noynoy Aquino, is very happy. Mentioning his name in the whole nation is so pleasant for him to hear.

And many more happened.... Let's just skip some part.


While promising and telling his future projects, he coughed at the middle of his words! I laughed because it's hilarious. He just said "Excuse me" to the public then continued like nothing happened.

This new president is a bald man already. He still feels like he has a thick hair, so that's why he always comb with his fingers his hairs while entering the palace. Few strands in his head are left, just like tweety bird.

Seeing him like that is like "dude, this pres is a comedian. Can he do better for our country? i hope he won't make us his sidekick clowns!"

He even doesn't know to salute properly. He can't march together with the militars. Arroyo can do that.

Didn't he practice?

LOL. I'm too mean.

So that's why I didn't find it boring to watch.

Anyway, I'm done with all my home works. Time for me to rejuvenate.

Until next time,
Erica

Tuesday, June 29, 2010

Amateur Writer

There are times that I feel so inspired and I want to share it here in this blog for the world to know. It just so happen that my writing skill is not enough. I can't express well all my thoughts and feelings. I don't know where and how to start learning. I am so frustrated. I think nobody reads my blog but only me. Only same persons are posting comments in here, and they are my friends and no one follows me. But still I am hoping that one day hundreds of people are already viewing my page.

Some teachers say that I have a very good diction. I write essays well and I report lessons outstandingly. My performance in reading and writing are excellent. But there is really one thing that wouldn't come out to me. I just can't do it. I like how the authors of my book writes and narrates their stories, but I can't copy even 20% of it. So I'm thwarted!

When I was a sophomore, I'm planning to take up communication arts. I want to be a reporter, a newscaster, a journalism and many more about writing. But then, I ended taking up Business Administration and Accountancy. And my second choice would be BS Mathematics.

Life--- it really changes things.

Maybe writing is one of my talents. So I will not stop typing, writing, discussing and when I get better I'll continue making my own novel and I'll make sure it has an ending.

It will never really going to stop anyway, because I can still tell stories here in this blog about my first day in college, first day in my first job, or even share my story of my new born baby.



Relief.


Until next time,
Erica

My Problem as a Teen

Most common problem of a teenager is MONEY. Money to spend on clothes, accessories, gadgets, cinemas, party and unnecesary things. But that's not my problem. I already have them all. I have plenty of source to have money. I just use them wisely.

Mine is how am I suppose to have more time resting my body in bed. I have big ugly eyebugs that I wish to remove soon.

I have a lot of things that I do in my early life. When I was 11 years old I am already put into business. I manage a store alone, I do inventories, I audit money, I am the one who designs the outlook of tarpaulins and flyers, etc., etc. for our business alone. School projects, assignments, researches and other activities in school add more to my problem. Plus I need to clean the house in the morning before I got to school and do more chores before I go to sleep, and more, when I have an errand to do from my mother, father and grandmother.

I keep managing my time. I write it in my planner, organizer, and write my schedule everywhere in my notes, but it's really not enough.

Yes, I have money. But money won't buy me more time so that's why time is gold for me.

I am worried that I'm looking old for my age.

I'm not poor. My family isn't. But I just really have to do this. Why? they explained to me that when they are gone in this troubled world, somehow I know how to stand on my own, know a lot of things and I can manage bigger business that we have.

It's true.They are right, and I already proved it to myself.


The way I think is far different from other teens. I really don't like going outside to party or whatsoever. I just want to have time to read books, buy more books, collect many books and post something at my blog, in this blog you are reading right now.

But I'm happy even I don't go out and be wild with friends outside. I'm not even ignorant. I have been to a lot of places, here and abroad.
If ever I'll be out with friends, I make sure we do safe things. We girlfriends are modest.

oh! before I forgot, If you're wondering why won't I just put cucumber in my eyes before I got to sleep, I'm sorry I really don't have time at all. And sometimes we ran out of it inside the refrigerator.

Until next time,
Erica

When I start blogging ...

Who am I?

Why am I here?

Why did I start to post random articles along this blog?

Did you even wonder-------WHY?


Yes?

No?


I better tell you.

I should have posted this before, and because I was new before and I don't know how to start things in here, Maybe it's better to start things right now.


I am JOANA ERICA DANIELLE BERMUDEZ PAULE. They call me Jed, Eri, Erich, Wana, Dani, Jeddie and so on and so forth. But the common name they call me is Erica.

I live here in the Philippines where you experience extreme heat and rain every year. Things in my country is getting worse, or should I say since my country is getting poor.

I started blogging this year because I just realized that I have many stories and thoughts that I want to share with you.

I am so frustrated being a writer. I started writing when I was 14. There are many errors when I am writing my own novel and I never finished an ending with three of them that I started. So I gave up.

Reasons why I make this blog:
1. To share my stories to hundreds and thousands of strangers that I barely talk to or never talked at all.
2. Since I am a Filipino student, English subject must be learned well. I must improve my writing skills and develop a wide vocubulary.
3. Make friends around the world.
4. Be inspired by rreading others' stories.
5. To avoid boredom when you have nothing to do at home.
6. It gives me happiness releasing my emotions.
7. To forget how frustrated I am as a young writer.
8. To be creative and fun
9. To realize how useful technology is.
10. Lastly, when there's no one to talk to about my problems, maybe this blog can help.

I hate rats!

I said before that I hate money. I'm done talking about it today.

This time it's all about the pesky mice inside my room. I've been suffering sleeping at my mom's room for 2 nights because of that small mice. It bothers me when I'm already lying in bed. It squeaks and runs through the curtains! I'm scared of it!

Everytime that I'm going to turn on the light to shoo it off, it's already gone. But when the light is off and I'm already rested in bed here it comes again.

Geez! It doesn't want me to stay and sleep inside my own room. How come there's a mice inside? My room is clean and well- organized.

I just hope it doesn't tear off my precious books, or else I'm reall going to find that pesky mice and I'm going to kill it!

It won't get away with me this time!



Bwahaha! (evil laugh)

Sunday, June 27, 2010

i googled you

When did "google" become a verb? Now, don't get me wrong. I love google. Who doesn't? But being told that you were "googled" is an interesting experience. Especially when you are blogging.

yummy, yummy I got cash in my tummy...

I learned a new word today.

Hijole is Spanish for "wow".

I went to the sari-sari store today.

HIJOLE!

Yes, I know eating can be expensive - but I never realized how much of my money saved in my wallet can give me satisfaction! Just went to the sari-sari store and bought a snack for after dinner.

No need to worry. I can save money tomorrow, or the next day, or the following day, or maybe next week..

nyah! Dad will really going to be mad when he finds out (Think he's reading my blog?)


That was a joke! I know how to handle money. I never ran out of money especially when I have to buy the book I've been waiting for, for months.

As I believe, LAST MONEY NEVER DIES.


Ouch.

I totaled the amount of money I have inside my wallet.


Okay. I am going to tell the world.


No, I'm not.


Forget it. The blog is off.


But, if I do this, I will be even more motivated to meet my goal.


Nope, can't do it.


Shit.


I think there is only one way out of this.

I did the math.

265 pesos is all i got (plus the money i have in my atm account).

That won't worth the book I wanted to buy.

I Hate Money!

Why do we constantly try to live outside our means? Why do we justify spending money on things we don't need? Why do we need things to make us happy? And why do I keep saying "we" when I really mean "me"??

My goal for the month of June is not to buy any books. I am a bookworm. This will be especially difficult, seeing as how I must meet other book lovers in Laguoon. and by definition I must have a new book to share. Perhaps I will buy it this week.

oops

Why did I only get two newsletters in the mail? I thought I was getting three. Every month, I've always gotten three. Where is the third one? Seriously, Summit Media, this isn't funny.

Until (what I thought was) today,

que sera, sera

When I was just a little girl,
I asked my mother,
what would I be?

Will I be pretty?
Will I be rich?
Here's what she FORGOT to say to me:

Pay your bills, your bills!
There's never enough money.
The future is debt, you see.
Pay your bills, your bills!

I totally....

miss my friend Mayo.

Being around Mayo is like bringing home a new puppy. He's so adorable. Sure, he gets into trouble, but you never get mad at him because he just wants to make you happy. He has an endless supply of energy. He waits on you and makes you feel loved. He looks at his family with big puppy dog eyes and is so incredibly loyal to them.

I totally miss Mayo.

The fortune cookie

I have a fortune cookie slip taped to my fridge that says:

You will come to realizations in your life that will change you forever.

I doubt that these are among them, but at least they are fun:

1. I've come to realize that, when I talk: I'm not necessarily saying what I'm thinking, or vice versa.

2. I've come to realize that, somewhere, someone is thinking: about far more important things than this blog.

3. I've come to realize that, I'll always have: a need for my mother and the support of good friends

4. I've come to realize that, my cell phone is: so high tech!

5. I've come to realize that, when I wake up in the morning: it's probably not fair, but I pee before I take my babe out to do the same.

6. I've come to realize that, before I go to sleep at night I: love to read and have missed that ritual.

7. I've come to realize that, right now I am thinking about: how loud Stitch is snoring. Do they make breathe-rights for dogs?

8. I've come to realize that, I get on facebook: too much.

9. I've come to realize, that tonight I will: perhaps go and buy a school supply at the national bookstore. Well, I've accepted it more than realized - I hate spending money on them.

10. I've come to realize that, school is: where I belong, in any capacity.

11. I've come to realize that, tomorrow I will: wake up at 4:45 am because its school day.



Maybe it's not what the fortune cookie had in mind, but I like it.

Friday, June 25, 2010

I'm not a loner at all

Remember what i've said at my SENIOR YEAR post? I was wrong then.

Boys in front of the row are very crazy. They ask things that make them look innocent (which is terribly not!) and do weird stuffs in front of me. Sometimes they are gross and very naughty, but I understand them, they are BOYS.

One thing that really touched my heart about these boys is when Jamie didn't want to eat lunch and prefer to stay inside the classroom (she's the only close GIRL friend I have in my section) And I have to be alone to eat my lunch since i'm already hungry. I'm alone in one long table. Nobody is sharing the place with me (Poor me!). I looked like a pity stray cat eating my meal. Then here comes their group. They said "Hey come join with us, Erica! We don't want to see you alone and looking so sad. Don't worry about us. See? We still have place for you. Come on now!". First I declaim them but since they forced me to sit beside them, I did.

They were nice at all. Very kind. I felt relieve. They are calm and quiet and talked to me just like their sister.

aww... They are Mervin, Gio, Janred, Dave and Kent.

Thank you so much!

Enduring Understanding

When you're always close to God, good things always come. Just like today. I'm enlighten. I had a great time with my classmates that are far away from my feelings and now we're having more time to know each other well. The truth is they had been my schoolmates since grade1. We had conflicts as years pass and as we get matured. But today was different. I really had a great time with those persons who I had a hard feelings before.

I can't spit-out the exact word for what I'm feeling right now. But it was really nice. At Calculus time we we're not listening to our mathematician but rather laugh with each other telling random stuffs about these and that. Then suddenly, I don't know. We became ok again like nothing happened.

It's really better and nice that I have no much uhmm... how should I say the word? enemy? hard feelings with another person. NO. They are not anymore.

I always pray for this to happen. Prayers are so powerful like magic. Thank you so much. I'm thanking a hundred times for this thing to happen.

Now i'm in peace. I can study well and smile to them once more.

Enduring Understanding:
wait for a person to have time to think and realize when you want things to get better. And challeneges are meant to be solve.

I got a strike one.

Amen.

Sunday, June 20, 2010

Happy Fathers' Day

"To my dearest dad who is far away from me, Thanks for all the support you give me. I appreciate those things for me. Sometimes when you come back I'll chat with you for longer."

I've discovered something about my dad too! I think I inherit his hobby to make schedules of whatever he is planning whether it is a big or a small occasion. Like for example you're planning what to do with that whole week even if you know things will be changed when you're already in that day. We're same. Totally! I found it because I have seen some of his notes from an envelope he left here at home.


Miss you dADDy, A lot!

Sophia's 1st Birthday!


Hooray!

We attended one of my niece's birthday. It was so fun and exhausting! And my three nieces are all beautiful-- just like me! kidding.

Here are some photos held in McDonald's.

The mom and the celebrant
The cake
The tarpaulin

Mommy carrying the celebrant and Gran carrying the celebrant's sister
Taking picture with the mascot, Birdie
Playing a bring me game

Smile
With the mascot, the mom, the celebrant and me
Another niece, why is she sad?
My sister carrying the celebrant, Sophia!
I'm here at McDonald's!

Friday, June 18, 2010

Senior Year

I've been away blogging for almost two weeks. I keep preparing things I need to bring in school and I need to cut my time when I use the computer. But here I am once again telling you my new story!

Yesterday was a new adventure. It was the first day of school and finally I'm a senior! This will be my last year in highschool and soon i'm off to college! (whoo!). I've met my classmates. They are much better than Dea has--- DEA. She's not my classmate anymore :( She's placed in a different section. Too bad! I felt left alone early in the class because Jamie is with her cousin, Janred is chatting with his boy friends, and me? I was staring lonely between two group of girls loudly talking about themselves--- Arggh! Someone told me that I'm an EMO! which i hate the most.

Each students have their own peer group. Mine, you cannot even say that I have a group, like a large number of students making circles talking either about themselves or their whatsoever topic. I'm going to be a total loner this year (sigh).

Anyway, time gave Dea and me a chance to hang out at recess and at lunch, tomorrow will be the official schedule and our breaks doesn't have the same time. This is really so bad.

We had a game also which I liked the most, it is called BACKSTABBING. you tape a piece of paper at your back and let other students write their expressions of you. And you'll do the same. I was flattered that nothing negative was written. They said that I'm a good influence, behave, kind and a BULLY! LOL. she also said joke at the end.

And many things not so interesting happened liked we danced and discussed about the never ending school rules ( yeah, about that they didn't found out my hair was colored because I hid it) so I'll end it now.

About today. I felt a little comfortable with my day. It was something special that appears like magic. That happened at English time. We had an activity and it is simple. Pick a question and answer it. So I have this question "WHAT OR WHO MAKES YOU SMILE?" I abruptly smile so wide in front of the class looking like a geek. It was someone who suddenly appeared in my mind. And that is JANUS. I couldn't say the exact answer to my teacher that he makes me smile even he's miles aways from me. She maybe know him but I don't know if it is appropriate so I said my friends. It was a common answer, It could be a crush or a love one, but I let it said. After all his just my friend--- friend with many meanings!

At that same class, I was irritated with some students who cannot answer easy questions, they find it hard to answer like what appliance do you like the most? for that student it's very obvious that she likes the television but she said none. My goodness! It took her 3 minutes. I knew why because she likes to watch K-POP, UKISS and tell her friends about what she recently watched and so on and so fort. One is who is your bestfriend? I really son't know with some students. ( Do I sound arrogant now? tell me so I'll edit this soon).

At MAPEH class, I have a male awesome teacher. He can spin the ball longer than you can imagine and makes some exhibitions with it. He even balance the tip of an egg (still with its contents) in a coin. He said he just found the center of the gravity.

Next is PHYSICS. I had my first report for our group. He said to me "exellent" after reading infront of the class and many heard that. I'm flattered again!

The last part of my school day is being with our one and only mathematician, Mrs. Jaspe. She's old but can still teach students. She's been at that school nearly two decades but she's still strong.

About her, I found amazement. Not only me but also Janred ( he sat beside me half of the class). We're solving basic operations and we race each other who to answers first. And sometimes it was me sometimes others. Still good.

I came home full of assignments and requirement that is needed to pass. So this time I have to say bye bye!

Monday, June 7, 2010

Oh, Mommy!

Urgh. I'm being jealous with mom lately. I don't know exactly why. Maybe she catches more guys' attention than me. Joke! And sometimes other people think that mom's my sister. But that is not so true! I'm 16 and she's 38 turning 39 this December. See how far are ages are!

Do I look old? Or mom really looks so young.

Just like last Saturday. I'm with my mom in Trinoma Mall to receive a package from my dad. An employee from where dad is working came here in the Philippines to give us the package. We met her there. She's 14 years younger than mom but looks so old like 40's. When the time she saw us she talked to mom like she's talking to a teen infront of her saying "And you are?", pointing her index finger to mom. It's some kind of insulting. She can ask in different phrase.

My mom finally said, "I'm Joana's mother.", The lady's face turned shocked & embarrassed, wondering if mom experienced teenage pregnancy before.

I was like "oh-owh!" that moment but I kept silent.

And that's how it ends.

I finally have my blackberry phone, 9500 Storm! And it's so cool. Thanks to my dad.

And thanks to my ever supporting mom!

Love them both.
Muwah!

Sunday, June 6, 2010

Oh eri ..

sucks when you're happy and you can't really tell anyone about it.

I Have Things to Say


But I will likely say them tomorrow or the next day.

For now - please don't go away. I very much like you.

And thank you for being patient with my spotty posting :)

Catering.

When I have so very much to blog about, I usually don't. I realize that time and space cannot possibly provide ample opportunity to cover everything sufficiently, so I refrain entirely. Sad, isn't it, that after all this time I've never learned to demonstrate simple temperance in blogging. ~sigh~

Anyway, After all my hectic schedules from Monday up to this Saturday, Finally it's over! We served well Lumacang's wedding and done everything we need to complete and do. I'm not lucky that day. I wasn't able to parlor myself because there is no much time to visit the salon, the other servants aren't that expert to let them do their own (anyway, I look pretty w/ my own natural beauty). Only Kuya Adaon helped great. Plus, I didn't see the PA's Gila. I don't know how it looks like in actual. Bad, isn't it?

I'm so sad and maybe depressed because my love didn't come, but I truly understand. My day will never be the same again without seeing his smiles and inhale his fragrance. I'm back to being grumpy when someone's trying to talk to me. OH! what love can do.

Anyway, here are some photos of that day:

I only slept 4 hours the night before his wedding. We prepared a lot of thing. I slept by 12am and awake by 4. It was so harsh. We pumped balloons early in the morning with my sister.



I made this heart all my own. It took me an hour to finish this big figure.
Me with an ROTC officer, Sir Antonio. The surname in his uniform is not his.
With Sir Adaon, who helped us with everything. Without him, maybe everything will be a disaster.
Matulac, that's her surname. I forgot her first name. She's pretty in person and also an officer.
Sorry, I only took few photos. I have no time to click and click my camera. That's me. Ready to go home. What a relief!


Thank God for everything. It was successful. The foods are delicious. and the decorations are neatly arranged. Good thing it didn't rain that time too (because they have no roof. It will be poor for the visitors).

=]

Friday, June 4, 2010

I'm sorry. My fault.

Sometimes I hate him. Sometimes I just really love him (Janusatorate Mayo) to stay with me for so long. I even regret the days when I'm feeling mad at him without any good reasons. But the truth is I really really love him.

I just felt so sorry last time when he sent me a message thru sms that he cannot come back anymore to help us with Lumacang's wedding. He left us before so he can remove his wisdom tooth that can cause him death. So he went to the Military camp. They have a dentist there. He was even required to take a rest for two weeks so it won't bleed all the the time.

Before he left, he said he's coming back to help us with the preparation since we're going to cater Lumacang's wedding. Now the situation had changed. Once he's inside the camp he cannot go out anymore. And his rest won't be enough for his wisdom tooth.

But what did I do? I forced him to leave the camp. I said hurting words that I don't really mean. I sent him back a message, "What?! You don't have a word of honor! Is that how an an army act?". I really think I hurt his feelings. I really regret it!

What he did is he ran away from the camp to meet us yesterday. I want to cry that time. It's like I forgot his deadly wisdom tooth and the rule he is dealing with. Once the officials find out that he's not inside the camp, he can never come back. My conscience is taking me over. I don't wanna look like a bad person to him who doesn't care about his feelings and situations.

I swear I'm in love with him. I just don't know how to show it well. I lack experiences. I don't know what to do. I'm still Immature.

He left us that night too. Someone knew he's not there and he needs to go back. I hope he can! God, please help him enter the camp again.

Today he has to ran away again. But I don't want him to come back here in us anymore. Yes, I like him around here. But if he comes back here and when this time he will be caught, I'll destroy one of his dreams.

So I'm just going to wait when he will come back and visit us.

I Love him, and surely gonna miss his presence.

Thursday, June 3, 2010

How to eat an ice cream =]

Haha! I feel like being a kid again! I'll show you how i eat an ice cream =]

See this ice cream? It's corneto with a vanilla flavor. It's yummy for sure!
Oh! with choco bits. I can't wait to eat this

First, you unwrap the wrapper
Second, you bite a little amount of it to enjoy eating your ice cream
You can lick an ice cream, swallow it, or bite it
See? I'm good with this! :p


Look at me, like a kid! Messy mouth!
Biting, biting.
I want to give you some but it will not be enough for me if i'll share. Sorry!
Nabawasan na siya. It get smaller
Almost done. I want more! It's delicious.

I look stupid, don't I? haha!
Hooray! I'm done! I'm a pro. Licking is really deli-deli!
And there. That's how I eat an ice cream!
Have fun eating yours this summer! =]

What's to post and not to post in a blog

I've been reading a lot of blogs from other people. I find it all interesting which means they have their own rule or limitations that I have noticed.
And those are about what to post and not-- to make your own blog interesting.

Yes, You can exactly tell anything you want. Lovelife, financial, family, work, friends, pets, etc. Anything that happened with your day . That's the use of blogs to us anyway.

But as I surveyed, readers find it better when:
1. bloggers less type bad words in their post
2. photographs are displayed and attracks them
3. punchlines or phrases are very unique
4. most poeple can relate with your story
5. the blog they are reading are the same of their age or older.
6. the layout or design is beautiful
7. it has variety of topics that are being posted in their blogs and they just don't stick to one.
8. it is fun, funny, and sometimes crazy
9. the blogger targeted the feeling of one person reading his/ her own blog

So, from this point I will follow those guidelines to achieve good blogging.

Inauguration of President Benigno Simeon Cayetano Aquino

I watched on television the event because it is our project in school. We have to write down important things that happened at that time. It's also a history in our country. That makes the even very important.

As a very responsible student, I did.

I didn't find it boring.

I've heard songs about Filipinos which are nice to hear and very meaningful.

It will also be my second time in my life to watch an oat taking ceremony of the president.

Charice Pempengco was their to sing our national anthem, "Lupang Hinirang".

While watching the event, there was the previous president waving goodbye to the nation and marching around with the Militars. I know how it feels not to be the president of the country anymore, but I didn't see her cry. She was brave even she's small. She's President Gloria Macapagal Arroyo.

After marching she stepped inside the car and went home. I'm not sure if she cried inside.

And this new president, Noynoy Aquino, is very happy. Mentioning his name in the whole nation is so pleasant for him to hear.

And many more happened.... Let's just skip some part.


While promising and telling his future projects, he coughed at the middle of his words! I laughed because it's hilarious. He just said "Excuse me" to the public then continued like nothing happened.

This new president is a bald man already. He still feels like he has a thick hair, so that's why he always comb with his fingers his hairs while entering the palace. Few strands in his head are left, just like tweety bird.

Seeing him like that is like "dude, this pres is a comedian. Can he do better for our country? i hope he won't make us his sidekick clowns!"

He even doesn't know to salute properly. He can't march together with the militars. Arroyo can do that.

Didn't he practice?

LOL. I'm too mean.

So that's why I didn't find it boring to watch.

Anyway, I'm done with all my home works. Time for me to rejuvenate.

Until next time,
Erica

Amateur Writer

There are times that I feel so inspired and I want to share it here in this blog for the world to know. It just so happen that my writing skill is not enough. I can't express well all my thoughts and feelings. I don't know where and how to start learning. I am so frustrated. I think nobody reads my blog but only me. Only same persons are posting comments in here, and they are my friends and no one follows me. But still I am hoping that one day hundreds of people are already viewing my page.

Some teachers say that I have a very good diction. I write essays well and I report lessons outstandingly. My performance in reading and writing are excellent. But there is really one thing that wouldn't come out to me. I just can't do it. I like how the authors of my book writes and narrates their stories, but I can't copy even 20% of it. So I'm thwarted!

When I was a sophomore, I'm planning to take up communication arts. I want to be a reporter, a newscaster, a journalism and many more about writing. But then, I ended taking up Business Administration and Accountancy. And my second choice would be BS Mathematics.

Life--- it really changes things.

Maybe writing is one of my talents. So I will not stop typing, writing, discussing and when I get better I'll continue making my own novel and I'll make sure it has an ending.

It will never really going to stop anyway, because I can still tell stories here in this blog about my first day in college, first day in my first job, or even share my story of my new born baby.



Relief.


Until next time,
Erica

My Problem as a Teen

Most common problem of a teenager is MONEY. Money to spend on clothes, accessories, gadgets, cinemas, party and unnecesary things. But that's not my problem. I already have them all. I have plenty of source to have money. I just use them wisely.

Mine is how am I suppose to have more time resting my body in bed. I have big ugly eyebugs that I wish to remove soon.

I have a lot of things that I do in my early life. When I was 11 years old I am already put into business. I manage a store alone, I do inventories, I audit money, I am the one who designs the outlook of tarpaulins and flyers, etc., etc. for our business alone. School projects, assignments, researches and other activities in school add more to my problem. Plus I need to clean the house in the morning before I got to school and do more chores before I go to sleep, and more, when I have an errand to do from my mother, father and grandmother.

I keep managing my time. I write it in my planner, organizer, and write my schedule everywhere in my notes, but it's really not enough.

Yes, I have money. But money won't buy me more time so that's why time is gold for me.

I am worried that I'm looking old for my age.

I'm not poor. My family isn't. But I just really have to do this. Why? they explained to me that when they are gone in this troubled world, somehow I know how to stand on my own, know a lot of things and I can manage bigger business that we have.

It's true.They are right, and I already proved it to myself.


The way I think is far different from other teens. I really don't like going outside to party or whatsoever. I just want to have time to read books, buy more books, collect many books and post something at my blog, in this blog you are reading right now.

But I'm happy even I don't go out and be wild with friends outside. I'm not even ignorant. I have been to a lot of places, here and abroad.
If ever I'll be out with friends, I make sure we do safe things. We girlfriends are modest.

oh! before I forgot, If you're wondering why won't I just put cucumber in my eyes before I got to sleep, I'm sorry I really don't have time at all. And sometimes we ran out of it inside the refrigerator.

Until next time,
Erica

When I start blogging ...

Who am I?

Why am I here?

Why did I start to post random articles along this blog?

Did you even wonder-------WHY?


Yes?

No?


I better tell you.

I should have posted this before, and because I was new before and I don't know how to start things in here, Maybe it's better to start things right now.


I am JOANA ERICA DANIELLE BERMUDEZ PAULE. They call me Jed, Eri, Erich, Wana, Dani, Jeddie and so on and so forth. But the common name they call me is Erica.

I live here in the Philippines where you experience extreme heat and rain every year. Things in my country is getting worse, or should I say since my country is getting poor.

I started blogging this year because I just realized that I have many stories and thoughts that I want to share with you.

I am so frustrated being a writer. I started writing when I was 14. There are many errors when I am writing my own novel and I never finished an ending with three of them that I started. So I gave up.

Reasons why I make this blog:
1. To share my stories to hundreds and thousands of strangers that I barely talk to or never talked at all.
2. Since I am a Filipino student, English subject must be learned well. I must improve my writing skills and develop a wide vocubulary.
3. Make friends around the world.
4. Be inspired by rreading others' stories.
5. To avoid boredom when you have nothing to do at home.
6. It gives me happiness releasing my emotions.
7. To forget how frustrated I am as a young writer.
8. To be creative and fun
9. To realize how useful technology is.
10. Lastly, when there's no one to talk to about my problems, maybe this blog can help.

I hate rats!

I said before that I hate money. I'm done talking about it today.

This time it's all about the pesky mice inside my room. I've been suffering sleeping at my mom's room for 2 nights because of that small mice. It bothers me when I'm already lying in bed. It squeaks and runs through the curtains! I'm scared of it!

Everytime that I'm going to turn on the light to shoo it off, it's already gone. But when the light is off and I'm already rested in bed here it comes again.

Geez! It doesn't want me to stay and sleep inside my own room. How come there's a mice inside? My room is clean and well- organized.

I just hope it doesn't tear off my precious books, or else I'm reall going to find that pesky mice and I'm going to kill it!

It won't get away with me this time!



Bwahaha! (evil laugh)

i googled you

When did "google" become a verb? Now, don't get me wrong. I love google. Who doesn't? But being told that you were "googled" is an interesting experience. Especially when you are blogging.

yummy, yummy I got cash in my tummy...

I learned a new word today.

Hijole is Spanish for "wow".

I went to the sari-sari store today.

HIJOLE!

Yes, I know eating can be expensive - but I never realized how much of my money saved in my wallet can give me satisfaction! Just went to the sari-sari store and bought a snack for after dinner.

No need to worry. I can save money tomorrow, or the next day, or the following day, or maybe next week..

nyah! Dad will really going to be mad when he finds out (Think he's reading my blog?)


That was a joke! I know how to handle money. I never ran out of money especially when I have to buy the book I've been waiting for, for months.

As I believe, LAST MONEY NEVER DIES.


Ouch.

I totaled the amount of money I have inside my wallet.


Okay. I am going to tell the world.


No, I'm not.


Forget it. The blog is off.


But, if I do this, I will be even more motivated to meet my goal.


Nope, can't do it.


Shit.


I think there is only one way out of this.

I did the math.

265 pesos is all i got (plus the money i have in my atm account).

That won't worth the book I wanted to buy.

I Hate Money!

Why do we constantly try to live outside our means? Why do we justify spending money on things we don't need? Why do we need things to make us happy? And why do I keep saying "we" when I really mean "me"??

My goal for the month of June is not to buy any books. I am a bookworm. This will be especially difficult, seeing as how I must meet other book lovers in Laguoon. and by definition I must have a new book to share. Perhaps I will buy it this week.

oops

Why did I only get two newsletters in the mail? I thought I was getting three. Every month, I've always gotten three. Where is the third one? Seriously, Summit Media, this isn't funny.

Until (what I thought was) today,

que sera, sera

When I was just a little girl,
I asked my mother,
what would I be?

Will I be pretty?
Will I be rich?
Here's what she FORGOT to say to me:

Pay your bills, your bills!
There's never enough money.
The future is debt, you see.
Pay your bills, your bills!

I totally....

miss my friend Mayo.

Being around Mayo is like bringing home a new puppy. He's so adorable. Sure, he gets into trouble, but you never get mad at him because he just wants to make you happy. He has an endless supply of energy. He waits on you and makes you feel loved. He looks at his family with big puppy dog eyes and is so incredibly loyal to them.

I totally miss Mayo.

The fortune cookie

I have a fortune cookie slip taped to my fridge that says:

You will come to realizations in your life that will change you forever.

I doubt that these are among them, but at least they are fun:

1. I've come to realize that, when I talk: I'm not necessarily saying what I'm thinking, or vice versa.

2. I've come to realize that, somewhere, someone is thinking: about far more important things than this blog.

3. I've come to realize that, I'll always have: a need for my mother and the support of good friends

4. I've come to realize that, my cell phone is: so high tech!

5. I've come to realize that, when I wake up in the morning: it's probably not fair, but I pee before I take my babe out to do the same.

6. I've come to realize that, before I go to sleep at night I: love to read and have missed that ritual.

7. I've come to realize that, right now I am thinking about: how loud Stitch is snoring. Do they make breathe-rights for dogs?

8. I've come to realize that, I get on facebook: too much.

9. I've come to realize, that tonight I will: perhaps go and buy a school supply at the national bookstore. Well, I've accepted it more than realized - I hate spending money on them.

10. I've come to realize that, school is: where I belong, in any capacity.

11. I've come to realize that, tomorrow I will: wake up at 4:45 am because its school day.



Maybe it's not what the fortune cookie had in mind, but I like it.

I'm not a loner at all

Remember what i've said at my SENIOR YEAR post? I was wrong then.

Boys in front of the row are very crazy. They ask things that make them look innocent (which is terribly not!) and do weird stuffs in front of me. Sometimes they are gross and very naughty, but I understand them, they are BOYS.

One thing that really touched my heart about these boys is when Jamie didn't want to eat lunch and prefer to stay inside the classroom (she's the only close GIRL friend I have in my section) And I have to be alone to eat my lunch since i'm already hungry. I'm alone in one long table. Nobody is sharing the place with me (Poor me!). I looked like a pity stray cat eating my meal. Then here comes their group. They said "Hey come join with us, Erica! We don't want to see you alone and looking so sad. Don't worry about us. See? We still have place for you. Come on now!". First I declaim them but since they forced me to sit beside them, I did.

They were nice at all. Very kind. I felt relieve. They are calm and quiet and talked to me just like their sister.

aww... They are Mervin, Gio, Janred, Dave and Kent.

Thank you so much!

Enduring Understanding

When you're always close to God, good things always come. Just like today. I'm enlighten. I had a great time with my classmates that are far away from my feelings and now we're having more time to know each other well. The truth is they had been my schoolmates since grade1. We had conflicts as years pass and as we get matured. But today was different. I really had a great time with those persons who I had a hard feelings before.

I can't spit-out the exact word for what I'm feeling right now. But it was really nice. At Calculus time we we're not listening to our mathematician but rather laugh with each other telling random stuffs about these and that. Then suddenly, I don't know. We became ok again like nothing happened.

It's really better and nice that I have no much uhmm... how should I say the word? enemy? hard feelings with another person. NO. They are not anymore.

I always pray for this to happen. Prayers are so powerful like magic. Thank you so much. I'm thanking a hundred times for this thing to happen.

Now i'm in peace. I can study well and smile to them once more.

Enduring Understanding:
wait for a person to have time to think and realize when you want things to get better. And challeneges are meant to be solve.

I got a strike one.

Amen.

Happy Fathers' Day

"To my dearest dad who is far away from me, Thanks for all the support you give me. I appreciate those things for me. Sometimes when you come back I'll chat with you for longer."

I've discovered something about my dad too! I think I inherit his hobby to make schedules of whatever he is planning whether it is a big or a small occasion. Like for example you're planning what to do with that whole week even if you know things will be changed when you're already in that day. We're same. Totally! I found it because I have seen some of his notes from an envelope he left here at home.


Miss you dADDy, A lot!

Sophia's 1st Birthday!


Hooray!

We attended one of my niece's birthday. It was so fun and exhausting! And my three nieces are all beautiful-- just like me! kidding.

Here are some photos held in McDonald's.

The mom and the celebrant
The cake
The tarpaulin

Mommy carrying the celebrant and Gran carrying the celebrant's sister
Taking picture with the mascot, Birdie
Playing a bring me game

Smile
With the mascot, the mom, the celebrant and me
Another niece, why is she sad?
My sister carrying the celebrant, Sophia!
I'm here at McDonald's!

Senior Year

I've been away blogging for almost two weeks. I keep preparing things I need to bring in school and I need to cut my time when I use the computer. But here I am once again telling you my new story!

Yesterday was a new adventure. It was the first day of school and finally I'm a senior! This will be my last year in highschool and soon i'm off to college! (whoo!). I've met my classmates. They are much better than Dea has--- DEA. She's not my classmate anymore :( She's placed in a different section. Too bad! I felt left alone early in the class because Jamie is with her cousin, Janred is chatting with his boy friends, and me? I was staring lonely between two group of girls loudly talking about themselves--- Arggh! Someone told me that I'm an EMO! which i hate the most.

Each students have their own peer group. Mine, you cannot even say that I have a group, like a large number of students making circles talking either about themselves or their whatsoever topic. I'm going to be a total loner this year (sigh).

Anyway, time gave Dea and me a chance to hang out at recess and at lunch, tomorrow will be the official schedule and our breaks doesn't have the same time. This is really so bad.

We had a game also which I liked the most, it is called BACKSTABBING. you tape a piece of paper at your back and let other students write their expressions of you. And you'll do the same. I was flattered that nothing negative was written. They said that I'm a good influence, behave, kind and a BULLY! LOL. she also said joke at the end.

And many things not so interesting happened liked we danced and discussed about the never ending school rules ( yeah, about that they didn't found out my hair was colored because I hid it) so I'll end it now.

About today. I felt a little comfortable with my day. It was something special that appears like magic. That happened at English time. We had an activity and it is simple. Pick a question and answer it. So I have this question "WHAT OR WHO MAKES YOU SMILE?" I abruptly smile so wide in front of the class looking like a geek. It was someone who suddenly appeared in my mind. And that is JANUS. I couldn't say the exact answer to my teacher that he makes me smile even he's miles aways from me. She maybe know him but I don't know if it is appropriate so I said my friends. It was a common answer, It could be a crush or a love one, but I let it said. After all his just my friend--- friend with many meanings!

At that same class, I was irritated with some students who cannot answer easy questions, they find it hard to answer like what appliance do you like the most? for that student it's very obvious that she likes the television but she said none. My goodness! It took her 3 minutes. I knew why because she likes to watch K-POP, UKISS and tell her friends about what she recently watched and so on and so fort. One is who is your bestfriend? I really son't know with some students. ( Do I sound arrogant now? tell me so I'll edit this soon).

At MAPEH class, I have a male awesome teacher. He can spin the ball longer than you can imagine and makes some exhibitions with it. He even balance the tip of an egg (still with its contents) in a coin. He said he just found the center of the gravity.

Next is PHYSICS. I had my first report for our group. He said to me "exellent" after reading infront of the class and many heard that. I'm flattered again!

The last part of my school day is being with our one and only mathematician, Mrs. Jaspe. She's old but can still teach students. She's been at that school nearly two decades but she's still strong.

About her, I found amazement. Not only me but also Janred ( he sat beside me half of the class). We're solving basic operations and we race each other who to answers first. And sometimes it was me sometimes others. Still good.

I came home full of assignments and requirement that is needed to pass. So this time I have to say bye bye!

Oh, Mommy!

Urgh. I'm being jealous with mom lately. I don't know exactly why. Maybe she catches more guys' attention than me. Joke! And sometimes other people think that mom's my sister. But that is not so true! I'm 16 and she's 38 turning 39 this December. See how far are ages are!

Do I look old? Or mom really looks so young.

Just like last Saturday. I'm with my mom in Trinoma Mall to receive a package from my dad. An employee from where dad is working came here in the Philippines to give us the package. We met her there. She's 14 years younger than mom but looks so old like 40's. When the time she saw us she talked to mom like she's talking to a teen infront of her saying "And you are?", pointing her index finger to mom. It's some kind of insulting. She can ask in different phrase.

My mom finally said, "I'm Joana's mother.", The lady's face turned shocked & embarrassed, wondering if mom experienced teenage pregnancy before.

I was like "oh-owh!" that moment but I kept silent.

And that's how it ends.

I finally have my blackberry phone, 9500 Storm! And it's so cool. Thanks to my dad.

And thanks to my ever supporting mom!

Love them both.
Muwah!

Oh eri ..

sucks when you're happy and you can't really tell anyone about it.

I Have Things to Say


But I will likely say them tomorrow or the next day.

For now - please don't go away. I very much like you.

And thank you for being patient with my spotty posting :)

Catering.

When I have so very much to blog about, I usually don't. I realize that time and space cannot possibly provide ample opportunity to cover everything sufficiently, so I refrain entirely. Sad, isn't it, that after all this time I've never learned to demonstrate simple temperance in blogging. ~sigh~

Anyway, After all my hectic schedules from Monday up to this Saturday, Finally it's over! We served well Lumacang's wedding and done everything we need to complete and do. I'm not lucky that day. I wasn't able to parlor myself because there is no much time to visit the salon, the other servants aren't that expert to let them do their own (anyway, I look pretty w/ my own natural beauty). Only Kuya Adaon helped great. Plus, I didn't see the PA's Gila. I don't know how it looks like in actual. Bad, isn't it?

I'm so sad and maybe depressed because my love didn't come, but I truly understand. My day will never be the same again without seeing his smiles and inhale his fragrance. I'm back to being grumpy when someone's trying to talk to me. OH! what love can do.

Anyway, here are some photos of that day:

I only slept 4 hours the night before his wedding. We prepared a lot of thing. I slept by 12am and awake by 4. It was so harsh. We pumped balloons early in the morning with my sister.



I made this heart all my own. It took me an hour to finish this big figure.
Me with an ROTC officer, Sir Antonio. The surname in his uniform is not his.
With Sir Adaon, who helped us with everything. Without him, maybe everything will be a disaster.
Matulac, that's her surname. I forgot her first name. She's pretty in person and also an officer.
Sorry, I only took few photos. I have no time to click and click my camera. That's me. Ready to go home. What a relief!


Thank God for everything. It was successful. The foods are delicious. and the decorations are neatly arranged. Good thing it didn't rain that time too (because they have no roof. It will be poor for the visitors).

=]

I'm sorry. My fault.

Sometimes I hate him. Sometimes I just really love him (Janusatorate Mayo) to stay with me for so long. I even regret the days when I'm feeling mad at him without any good reasons. But the truth is I really really love him.

I just felt so sorry last time when he sent me a message thru sms that he cannot come back anymore to help us with Lumacang's wedding. He left us before so he can remove his wisdom tooth that can cause him death. So he went to the Military camp. They have a dentist there. He was even required to take a rest for two weeks so it won't bleed all the the time.

Before he left, he said he's coming back to help us with the preparation since we're going to cater Lumacang's wedding. Now the situation had changed. Once he's inside the camp he cannot go out anymore. And his rest won't be enough for his wisdom tooth.

But what did I do? I forced him to leave the camp. I said hurting words that I don't really mean. I sent him back a message, "What?! You don't have a word of honor! Is that how an an army act?". I really think I hurt his feelings. I really regret it!

What he did is he ran away from the camp to meet us yesterday. I want to cry that time. It's like I forgot his deadly wisdom tooth and the rule he is dealing with. Once the officials find out that he's not inside the camp, he can never come back. My conscience is taking me over. I don't wanna look like a bad person to him who doesn't care about his feelings and situations.

I swear I'm in love with him. I just don't know how to show it well. I lack experiences. I don't know what to do. I'm still Immature.

He left us that night too. Someone knew he's not there and he needs to go back. I hope he can! God, please help him enter the camp again.

Today he has to ran away again. But I don't want him to come back here in us anymore. Yes, I like him around here. But if he comes back here and when this time he will be caught, I'll destroy one of his dreams.

So I'm just going to wait when he will come back and visit us.

I Love him, and surely gonna miss his presence.

How to eat an ice cream =]

Haha! I feel like being a kid again! I'll show you how i eat an ice cream =]

See this ice cream? It's corneto with a vanilla flavor. It's yummy for sure!
Oh! with choco bits. I can't wait to eat this

First, you unwrap the wrapper
Second, you bite a little amount of it to enjoy eating your ice cream
You can lick an ice cream, swallow it, or bite it
See? I'm good with this! :p


Look at me, like a kid! Messy mouth!
Biting, biting.
I want to give you some but it will not be enough for me if i'll share. Sorry!
Nabawasan na siya. It get smaller
Almost done. I want more! It's delicious.

I look stupid, don't I? haha!
Hooray! I'm done! I'm a pro. Licking is really deli-deli!
And there. That's how I eat an ice cream!
Have fun eating yours this summer! =]