Pull the brakes, neighborhood!

Oh no, what have I done? Was it my fault? or was he in a hurry?

The story starts like this. Ever since I arrived here in the Philippines I never talked to this boy, who until now is still my neighborhood. I don't go out our street that much. People see me really rare and they never had the chance to talk to me too. They even think I am snobbish and very anti-social. And whenever I walk around our street, the boy who I never talked to stares at me but abruptly look at a different direction whenever I spotted him.

And years pass by...

On our graduation day, he was there! I was surprised to see him in my school. I found out that he's one of my batch mates' friend and was there to watch the event. So I gave him a wry smile when our eyes met each other. That was nothing. Really nothing at all. Just a friendly approach/ welcome that he came. For the first time in a decade my neighborhood recognized my name when I came up the stage as the emcee announced it.

Then he started searching me on Facebook and sent a friend request. I accepted it with no doubts. It would be rude if I didn't, it will prove more that I'm really antisocial when in fact I am really friendly. When he spotted me online he asked for my cellphone number and I gave it. I thought that gaining a new friend is a good thing. He send messages most of the time, but I don't for I limit myself. He even invited me to attend events in his school. I told these about my parents and they allowed me since the school is less than 2 KM away from our house.

So there and there. Events are over but we still text each other. To be honest It's really awkward to reply his messages and I know I am taking it for granted. And it became more awkward when he told me that he loves me!

Say what? I was really shocked!!! As in really!

I didn't see that coming! I never really envision that that could really happen. We were communicating like less than a month for him to tell me that. Too fast. Too fast. He doesn't even know me at all. Does he even know what is he talking about? And worse, He said he will wait for me and I don't want him to, I know it's not true. My heart is already locked to the one I really love and it's hard to tell him how opposite my feelings are for him.

And now, I keep giving excuses just to avoid him and I hope eventually he will get tired of it and he'll find someone to focus on.