I'm sorry

I abandoned this blog for a long time, like how a person abandoned his pet or a kid who didn't want to play with his toys anymore, but I still want to post many stories here. It's just that the things happening to me right now are more of a private matter that aren't appropriate to share with the world wide web, except for the days when my sembreak was so productive--- thanks to the PEP SQUAD!

There are also times when I want to cry and scream out loud, say the meanest words I know, punch people and hurt their feelings. What sucks more in my part is you probably want to know why and I just couldn't tell you. I want to, but I can't coz if I do you might hate me for that. I just badly want to talk to someone right now-- heart- to- heart. But no one is around to comfort me. Presently, it's me against the world.

Or maybe there is really someone who can listen, understand and comfort me, but I'm not yet ready to open up to Him.

This is it for now. Have a happy Halloween!

I'm a cry baby :'(

Early this afternoon we were doing some pyramids. Officially, I am the flyer and I have my very strong and beautiful base and a back spotter. As we were practicing different stunts, I couldn’t help but to hurt them, hit them in the face or kick their heads as I land onto their arms. I can sense the pain they were feeling even though they keep telling me that they were fine, but actually they were not. I felt apologetic and dreadful at the same time. I started blaming myself for the fault happened (but I just kept it in my head), because I knew that I need to master more the stunts I am doing.  I haven’t done these before and this was my only opportunity to learn them in order to stay where I am placed right now.

I really want to cry that moment because I was already causing them so many burdens, but I tried to holdback my tears as long as I could so they wouldn’t notice. I want them to know that I am still determined and willing to do better for the team despite of the errors done.

Eventually, when we were doing the ‘twist’, I was able to land perfectly several times without hurting them physically! Finally! Finally! we were able to make it! I suddenly burst down in tears for the joy I felt! And that feeling was beyond words! My company was starting to cry as well. They must have felt the same way too.  I was so glad that I finally did right before the training session ended.

I am so thankful to God for this magnificent day!

Behind those 'you', I meant me

Have you experienced before when you are trying to hold back tears by smiling to those people cheering/ talking to you? And that you decided not to utter words, not even one, because you know that those tears may start running down from your eyes and you just don’t want to let them see?

sigh.

I was not with myself this afternoon. At least I'm okay now this evening.

sigh.

Here I go again

I haven't updated my blog since last week. I'm always occupied with so many things I do in life that makes me have no time for this. I know it's sembreak, but life goes on, and I just can't stay at home for a month and do nothing. I just love being productive all the time--- I love the long walks, the never ending talks, the mellow laughs, the fast runs, heavy conditioning, and so many more that makes me physically active. Those are what I am doing everyday-- everyday in my training at the pep squad!

Luckily, I had the opportunity to use my laptop once again and tell you something about my day.

The reason why I'm still strong and positive until now to face my daily challenges is because I am always inspired. Also, having faith in God really helps me to live a wonderful life!

I guess this is all for now. It's already late in the evening here in the Philippines and I'm going to sleep. There will be another hardcore training tomorrow.

Good night!

Oldie, but good---ie!

My friends wonder why I call you all the time,
What can I say?
I don't feel the need to give such secrets away
You think maybe I need help though I know i am right, all right
I'm just better off not listening to friends advice

When they insist on knowing my bliss,I tell them this
When they want to know what the reason is
I only smile when I lie, then I tell them why

Because your kiss, your kiss is on my list
Because your kiss, your kiss is on my list
Because your kiss is on my list of the best things in life
Because your kiss, your kiss is on my list
Because your kiss, your kiss I can't resist
Because your kiss it's what I miss when I turn out the lights

I go crazy wondering what there is to really see
Did the night just take up your time, cause it means more to me
Sometimes I forget what I'm doing, I don't forget what I want,what I want
Regret what I've done, regret you? I couldn't go on

But if you insist on knowing my bliss,I'll tell you this
If you want to know what the reason is
I only smile when I lie, then I'll tell you why

Because your kiss, your kiss is on my list
Because your kiss, your kiss I cant resist
Because your kiss is what I miss when I turn out the lights

Did you know?

When I was still at my mother's womb, she had an ultrasound and the doctor said that I was a "boy". My parents then started buying blue clothes. My mom also had a name for me already, and it was supposed to be JOHN ERIC DANIEL. It so happened that when my mom gave birth to me I turned out to be a cute little baby girl!

and taaaaadaaaaa! the cute baby picture you see below was me :)

Oh, and yes, I still wore those blue clothes they bought for me. How sad! but at least they bought new ones with my favorite color-- PINK!

Random post (i'm bored)

 ‎-------------------Girls---------
-------------are like apples------
---------on trees. The best ones-----
-------are at the top of the tree.-----
-----The boys don't want to reach---
-----for the good ones because they--
---are afraid of falling and getting hurt.-
---Instead, they get the rotten apples-
---from the ground that aren't as good,
but easy. So the apples up top think there
--is something wrong with them when in
----reality they're amazing. They just--
-----have to wait for the right boy to
------- come along, the one who's-
------------- brave enough to-----
----------------- climb all---------
----------------- the way------
-----------------to the top----
-----------------of the tree ----

--------------------------------------------

Essentially, this post is something nice to share with other girls out there. I got this from my awesome friend, Alleli Fei.

If you feel loveless and single right now (yes, single! like me! but I don't feel loveless. hehehe), well, you're wrong.

Let's just learn to WAIT--- nothing else but WAIT. Time flies so fast anyway, and we'll absolutely have the boy that we've been longing to.

Enjoy your evening!

Nanuod ako ng reputasyon sa ABS-CBN kanina

Ericaritish Bermudez Paule:

'via Blog this'

Bihira lang talaga kasi ako manuod ng telebisyon. Nagkataon na nanunuod ang lahat kanina ng teleserye sa channel 2. Nang nakinuod din ako sa palabas, abay may linya ang isang matandang babae duon na maiinis ka rin pag narinig mo. Nakuha ng artista ang atensyon at dapat na maramdaman ng manunuod. Dahil duon napagtanto ko na:

Malalaman mo talagang magaling ang isang artista, lalo na pag gumaganap na kontrabida, kapag nanggagalaiti ka sa galit dahil sa ginagampanan niyang papel.

Ayun lang naman. Nakakaramdam na kasi ako ng pagkabagot ngayon.

A morning message from Liza P.

"Being inspired with someone is the simplest and best reason why you find yourself smiling without reason."

oh, yeah! rise and shine, beautiful world! :D

Does anyone else

GET SCARED WHEN A TEXT READS 

"Can I ask you a question?"

Sembreak!

Finally, the 1st semester is over! I will have a month of no seatworks, no assignments, no quizzes, no projects, and no oral reports! The only thing I have to do now is to work out, dance, work out, dance, work out--- and if there are plans going out with few friends I may spend my time with them-- or with him =)

For now, I'm enjoying my stay at home sipping a cup of green tea while thinking of what gifts to buy for my love ones this coming Christmas season, and at the same time saving money for those.

enjoy your day!

Pre-final grade in Math

(click image to enlarge)

Rating Scale

 96-100 -  5.0

91 - 95 - 4.5

86 - 90 -  4.0

80 - 85 -  3.5

74 - 79 -  3.0

68 - 73 - 2.5

62 - 67 -  2.0

56 - 61 -  1.5

50 - 55 -  1.0

Below 50 - F

I always get an average grade in math. ALWAYS.  Should I be contented with this? I still have my final exam tomorrow, and I hope I to get a higher grade this time. I am aiming to reach 4.0 or 4.5 as a FINAL GRADE this semester. I'd be happier (At least I know that I don't have to take up this subject again next semester).

Good luck to me!

Hello, I'm back!

I haven't blog lately, and yet the page view still increases everyday. Thank you to those who backread, I appreciate you so much! I also apologize for being silent for a while. This week made my time totally occupied. I don't even know where to start, but I'm sure I still have the full details in my head, and hopefully I can share it with you.

Let's see..  hmm:

Monday
I usually don't have classes on this day, but I went there because I need to. It was the only day when all the organizations and clubs will sign the students' clearance in order to take the exams this finals and to see our grades for this first semester. Every assigned rooms were so crowded, and the line was too long that it made me feel so exhausted waiting. It also rained so hard and the weather just made my mood turn bad. Since this was the only day that I can accomplish signing my clearance, I tried to be more patient, and fortunately I did. I was also able to finish all within this day. At last!

Tuesday
It supposed to be a regular class day in school, but the strong signal of the weather made our classes suspended. The typhoon came to our place. Many from other cities experienced flash floods, landslides, and many disastrous incidence. I feel so sorry for them. I couldn't do anything else but to hope and pray for them. Luckily, I live on top of the hills that's why we didn't experience much of those. It was also black-out nationwide! after 8 hours of no electricity, it finally returned. I just slept the whole day and afternoon, and at night when there was light already, I finished my essays, reaction papers, reflection papers, and thesis. It was then 11:30 pm and I haven't started reviewing for the exam in Sociology on the following day. I felt sleepy and could no longer force my eyes to open so I decided to sleep for a couple of hours.

Wednesday
Rinnnngggg!! The alarm waked me up at 3am to start reviewing my subject for later's exam. Imagine, I just had 3 and a half hours of sleep! woah! Anyway, I am already used to it, especially in a case like this. I stopped reading my book when it was 5 in the morning. I made breakfast and prepared myself to school. I was done by 6. Before I left the house I needed to print the school papers I finished last night, then I realized it was a bad timing! I ran out of ink! Good news was mom and grandma were going to town so I decided to go with them. Bad news was  there still no electricity in town! I searched the whole place, and I found no hope! the printing shops couldn't print my documents, and worse, those school papers were due this day! I didn't know what to do. I was about to give up! I had an hour left to travel to school. And if  there's a shop near my school to print my documents, I'd be lucky! And thank God! there was! I still had 15 minutes left before my exam started so I grabbed the opportunity. Phew! A big relief when I was able to submit those on time. I'm so blessed! God is so great!

Thursday
I didn't have any exam this day. But I still went to school to shoot a short film for our Filipino subject. I had to finish it tomorrow with my group mates because it would serve as our final exam. When I arrived home In the afternoon, I had my early dinner. And since it was still too early to sleep I surfed the internet. Then I just realized that It was 10pm already and I haven't started reviewing my Theology subject for tomorrow's exam! Since I was so lazy already, I decided to skim my notes tomorrow morning.

Friday
I woke up at 4am and abruptly skimmed the notes that I wrote in my Theology subject. Then I did my usual routine-- make breakfast and prepare for school ( I skipped doing my chores this morning. lol!). The exam was a piece of cake for me. After that I proceeded with my groupmates to continue our shooting. Fortunately, at the end of the day we were done! Phew! A tiring day I must say.

Saturday
which is today. I went to school this morning just to pass our short film and came back home. The end.