Congratulations to myself!

Disclaimer: I am about to brag something about myself in this short post.

Today, at the assembly I was awarded as one of the students who show exemplary behavior in school. That means I never had a violation, I keep good grades, and also the school's pride as a pep squad varsity. I could not even believe myself for this!

I also lose 2 lbs, from 95 lbs now I weigh 93 lbs. My lifters won't have a trouble lifting and throwing me in the air now! In addition, I'm getting stronger and stronger each day!

I am so blessed!  Thank you, God for these wonderful achievements!

M- 102 for lunch

My Statistics class starts at 12:00 noon and ends at 1:30 pm. And take note,  I don't have a break before this subject to have my lunch, so I have no choice but to eat late. Too bad, students aren't allowed to eat even biscuits while classes are on going! Water doesn't work for me. I just pee all the time.

I just hope I won't have an ulcer in the future. 

Stressful Tuesday!

I lacked sleep from last night. I only had 4 hours of sleep and I felt so cranky this morning. I woke up at 4:00am and left the house at 5:40am. If I'll leave later than that I'll be late on my 7:30am class. I don't have a choice. This is going to be my routine everyday for the whole 2nd semester.

Anyways, whenever someone would talk to me, I would give them a rude answer subconsciously. I could also sense myself frowning the whole time. I even tried to close my eyes for quick seconds when my professors were facing the blackboard while discussing something in class for I was so sleepy. In addition, I get easily annoyed of something or someone just because it or she looks annoying to me. 

Somehow, I managed to laugh and smile when my classmates were throwing funny stories and punchlines at break times, but after those I can't help but to be back in my grouchy mood again!

Oh, stress! I know you won't leave me, but at least lessen it please. Sincerely, begging for a longer sleep.

Good night!

Blasting Monday!

How are you?

How was your day? Was it fun? was it bad? Hmmm... ?

If you'll ask me, mine was very exploratory! Here's what I remember today:

I came to school early this morning to attend a general assembly held by the communication department. When the special guests appeared, a lot of ladies where screaming and cheering on top of their voices. I would like to do the same, but I hesitated. They were cute, yes! But they're humans too, right? so I just smiled at them on their whole performance. It was also my classmate's birthday and she received a kiss from one of the guests who were singing on stage. How lucky she was! I wanted to receive a kiss too! but not from him, but from the guy I always wish was mine!

The Lamar brothers were the special guests

This cute Micah Lamar kissed the birthday celebrant!

After the event, we went to BON CHON, a restaurant just around Katipunan, to celebrate her birthday! She treated us for lunch and I could say that she was overjoyed!

Hannah, the birthday celebrant, on my left side.
Oh, and they were the ones who decided to wear black and white clothes.

When it was already afternoon, I returned to school to attend my training. We did 10 laps of jogging, heavy conditioning, stretching, gymnastics, and we did different stunts for pyramid. I can now do different toss and turns as a flyer very well, and to tell you, I never been a flyer before. I'm just so happy being fit, productive, and staying in the squad wholeheartedly.

Lastly, after the training, I came home as soon as possible to finish all my assignments, to have my supper and to blog about this tonight!

Finally! I can now have  the sleep I was waiting for to happen.

Good night!

Good sign

You must be wondering why I haven't posted something new here for a long time now. I guess, for me, this is a good sign.

But for now, I won't tell you not until I have accomplished my greatest mission!

I'll update you soon,

Erica :)

I'm sorry

I abandoned this blog for a long time, like how a person abandoned his pet or a kid who didn't want to play with his toys anymore, but I still want to post many stories here. It's just that the things happening to me right now are more of a private matter that aren't appropriate to share with the world wide web, except for the days when my sembreak was so productive--- thanks to the PEP SQUAD!

There are also times when I want to cry and scream out loud, say the meanest words I know, punch people and hurt their feelings. What sucks more in my part is you probably want to know why and I just couldn't tell you. I want to, but I can't coz if I do you might hate me for that. I just badly want to talk to someone right now-- heart- to- heart. But no one is around to comfort me. Presently, it's me against the world.

Or maybe there is really someone who can listen, understand and comfort me, but I'm not yet ready to open up to Him.

This is it for now. Have a happy Halloween!

I'm a cry baby :'(

Early this afternoon we were doing some pyramids. Officially, I am the flyer and I have my very strong and beautiful base and a back spotter. As we were practicing different stunts, I couldn’t help but to hurt them, hit them in the face or kick their heads as I land onto their arms. I can sense the pain they were feeling even though they keep telling me that they were fine, but actually they were not. I felt apologetic and dreadful at the same time. I started blaming myself for the fault happened (but I just kept it in my head), because I knew that I need to master more the stunts I am doing.  I haven’t done these before and this was my only opportunity to learn them in order to stay where I am placed right now.

I really want to cry that moment because I was already causing them so many burdens, but I tried to holdback my tears as long as I could so they wouldn’t notice. I want them to know that I am still determined and willing to do better for the team despite of the errors done.

Eventually, when we were doing the ‘twist’, I was able to land perfectly several times without hurting them physically! Finally! Finally! we were able to make it! I suddenly burst down in tears for the joy I felt! And that feeling was beyond words! My company was starting to cry as well. They must have felt the same way too.  I was so glad that I finally did right before the training session ended.

I am so thankful to God for this magnificent day!

Behind those 'you', I meant me

Have you experienced before when you are trying to hold back tears by smiling to those people cheering/ talking to you? And that you decided not to utter words, not even one, because you know that those tears may start running down from your eyes and you just don’t want to let them see?

sigh.

I was not with myself this afternoon. At least I'm okay now this evening.

sigh.

Here I go again

I haven't updated my blog since last week. I'm always occupied with so many things I do in life that makes me have no time for this. I know it's sembreak, but life goes on, and I just can't stay at home for a month and do nothing. I just love being productive all the time--- I love the long walks, the never ending talks, the mellow laughs, the fast runs, heavy conditioning, and so many more that makes me physically active. Those are what I am doing everyday-- everyday in my training at the pep squad!

Luckily, I had the opportunity to use my laptop once again and tell you something about my day.

The reason why I'm still strong and positive until now to face my daily challenges is because I am always inspired. Also, having faith in God really helps me to live a wonderful life!

I guess this is all for now. It's already late in the evening here in the Philippines and I'm going to sleep. There will be another hardcore training tomorrow.

Good night!

Oldie, but good---ie!

My friends wonder why I call you all the time,
What can I say?
I don't feel the need to give such secrets away
You think maybe I need help though I know i am right, all right
I'm just better off not listening to friends advice

When they insist on knowing my bliss,I tell them this
When they want to know what the reason is
I only smile when I lie, then I tell them why

Because your kiss, your kiss is on my list
Because your kiss, your kiss is on my list
Because your kiss is on my list of the best things in life
Because your kiss, your kiss is on my list
Because your kiss, your kiss I can't resist
Because your kiss it's what I miss when I turn out the lights

I go crazy wondering what there is to really see
Did the night just take up your time, cause it means more to me
Sometimes I forget what I'm doing, I don't forget what I want,what I want
Regret what I've done, regret you? I couldn't go on

But if you insist on knowing my bliss,I'll tell you this
If you want to know what the reason is
I only smile when I lie, then I'll tell you why

Because your kiss, your kiss is on my list
Because your kiss, your kiss I cant resist
Because your kiss is what I miss when I turn out the lights