Procrastinating

I still have many things to accomplish this week, and here are the ff:

-finish the audio visual presentation for my high school batch (to be passed on Tuesday)
- review for Psychology 101 midterm exam (this coming Friday)
- make a reflection paper for H-101 (to be passed on Tuesday)
- prepare an informative speech in E-102 (to present on February)

But instead of doing them today, what I did was this...

...smiling in front of the webcam and being vain the whole afternoon.

At least I've finished my laundry this morning. I have uniforms and training attires to wear this coming school days, so as my younger siblings.

Oh well, I guess that's the only good thing I did today, this Sunday. Still, I feel like I've wasted a lot of time.

How are you, blog?

When was the last time I posted an entry here? It seemed like a month had passed already, although it was just few days ago.

Anyway, my week was full of a lot of assignments to do, reports to prepare, and deadlines to meet, plus the time I spend having my training at the pep squad. I'd never been so stressful before. I've been lacking sleep consecutive days already and the result is I look older than what my age should really tell other people who see me.

I admit, I feel so anxious most of the time. I do everything just to finish all my jobs before the deadline to get high grades and be a dean's Lister, to have a good reputation in and out of the school, and to never fail the expectations of the people who knew about my capability.

It's hard, I know. I even attempt to give up several times, but it never happened, and thank you for that. I'm still this person/ student who strives harder to achieve a lot of things I want, to make my family proud of me and to reach my goals.

Aside from all the school works this week, I had my recollection last Friday. I was so blessed to attend that activity because I know God wants me to spend my whole day with Him. I felt renewed and spiritually heeled from all the sorrows I had in my life. I always remember Him every day and every night, and I know He is always by my side to always reach out.

The following day, Saturday, was the final examination of all first year students for their PE subject (I was exempted in that exam because I am a varsity, and varsities do not have to to attend that subject). They were graded with their cheerdance presentation and it was also a sort of competition w/ the other sections. I didn't join my blockmates because I danced at the opening w/ the pep squad (boy, I'm too proud to brag about it!) Not only that, my section was announced as the champions! That was equivalent to a perfect score for their final exam! Hooray for them! hooray for us!

The Pep Squad 

My champion blockmates!

Everything paid off knowing that news. Saturday was just the day for fun and merriment!

Oh, and have I told you that within those challenging days, there is always this one person who adds strength in me? He used to tell me that I'm strong, that we're both strong, that we can accomplish all the work given to us because we can. I love that boy so much. Too bad, we're both apart and busy with our own businesses. But that's okay, there will be a day that we'll meet and enjoy each others company  in wherever place we plan to go. I'm already happy to know that he is happy with all the activities he does, and the little time he spares to update me with his day.

It feels so good to be inspired--- to be in love with the guy who cares for me even without any words unleashed from his voice. I can strongly feel that in my heart *blushing*. Sigh. I can't wait for that special moment of my life :)

It's late in the evening again. I'd better be in bed now.

Good night, world! Let's always pray to have a better tomorrow!

9/11

A decade had passed since the terrorists sabotaged the country of America. It seems like yesterday when it happened. But look at it now, still a progressive country. After all the damaged done, the lost lives and values learned, they remain strong and powerful until this very point.

What about us Filipinos? What happened to us? I may still not be in the right age to tell this since I'm still a student, but I can sense that there is really something wrong with us.

Aside from the government officials who are having a hard time counting billions of money that they corrupt from us, our country seemed to look worse than what America should experience when they were bombed by the terrorists.

Look at Japan and the other countries that experienced catastrophic calamities, they easily rise because they have the funds to reconstruct and they have less money owing.  In us? We are about to start a new project, yet we already have a debt to pay.

Do you think that the generation of the Filipinos today can witness a success Philippines, that there will be a day when we there is no much news about the dirty politicians? that everything happening in our country are all nice, that there are less crimes here because many citizens have their decent jobs already, that anywhere here in the Philippines can be a tourist destination?

I am so bored.. so irritated.. why? Because the other countries already made it. And Philippines? I don't know when.

The long weekend is over!

Finally, I had the rest I always wanted. I slept longer than I used to, watched late TV shows and movies, went out to the beach to stare at the sky and to enjoy the breeze, to be with my family again, and to talk to random people. Sadly, I was not able to control the amount of food I should consume, for I am tempted by many people around me. I hope to still maintain the weight my coach checked last Friday.

Aside from the rejuvenating activities I did, the school works were still attached to me wherever I go. I can not help but to think about what I should accomplish before I enter school. My professors did not fail to give me assignments to be passed tomorrow. Fortunately, I have more time to do that, but it is better if they did not assigned me anymore.

And good news, the muscle injuries on my thighs were gone already. I can do cat walk again and attend my training at the Pep Squad tomorrow.

Oh, tomorrow!
I have to wake up again so early in the morning just to be in school on time.

Oh, tomorrow!
My brain will be drained again because of all the essays, recitations, seatworks, and quizzes in class.

Oh, tomorrow!
You give me all the strength to face my daily challenges.

The life of homeless people under the footbridge of Katipunan

Was there a moment in your life that you picture yourself being homeless? That your only bed is a small carton, your blankets are the crumpled newspapers found on the trash bin, and your room is the whole sidewalk? Have you imagined yourself begging for food or asking for spare change at the streets just to have something to eat for the day?  How will you feel if these really happen to you?

Few days ago, after my pep squad training, I was walking across the footbridge, suddenly a young boy, around 5 years old, pulled my shirt and begged me to pay money for his sampaguita flowers. Honestly, I don’t want to purchase those because I’m not going to place them on the altar, but the child looked so hungry.  Instead of getting the flowers he was holding, I gave him coins that were enough to buy him bread or a biscuit, and he can earn more money if he’ll sell the flowers to other people passing by. It was a relief on my part that I have helped someone and he can finally fill his empty tummy, but it was better if I gave him directly foods so that I can be sure that he will really consume it. It was so happen that there were no open stores nearby so I have no choice but to give him money.

The following day, I saw a mother with two infants who were exposed to the polluted air of the city. The helpless babies were sleeping under the footbridge and the mother was asking for alms. When I observed the bottle, it was empty and unclean. This can cause harmful effects on their body. When I also looked at the infants’ faces, there were tears dried on their skins evidencing that they recently cried. I really felt so bothered with their situation. Unfortunately, I can’t do anything to help them.  I sensed guilt in me. Passing by on them really stabbed my heart. When I mentioned this to my mother, she told me to donate some clothes to them. But I wonder, will I ever see them again when I pass by? They are homeless; they move to different places to ask help from more fortunate people.

There are more kinds of situations like these that I see around the city everyday.

All I want is to make the other people who are not contented of what they have to realize how lucky they are for having a good life. I know you are lucky. Why?  Because you have your own computer to read this blog, if not, you’re still lucky to afford renting a PC in the internet café. You’re lucky because your room may not be as big as what you wanted, but I’m sure it has a comfortable bed that can make you sleep well. You’re lucky in so many other ways. My point is whatever we own, even the smallest objects, we should be thankful for it and let us always remember those people who support us financially and to God who lets these good things happen to us.

Be responsible enough

Most of the students in my school say that this week is a "hell week!" because it's our midterm exam week starting today until on Saturday. But for me, it was never came to mind to term my week that way.

Why? Because in every exam, I always ready myself so I don't have to worry anything. I start reviewing all the tackled lessons and all the pointers to remember. And besides, it was announced to us when will be our exam week a long time ago, so there's no one to blame.

I don't understand some students, the teachers and the school officials, they keep reminding us about this. They even release school papers of the upcoming activities before we reach the date when we should be prepared. But it seems nothing to them, to those happy-go-lucky students. They'll just open their books when it's already the day before the midterm. Then when they found out the result of their exams they will start complaining why their grades were like these and like that. I find it irritating. Really.

I know it's not my concern to care about their grades or whatever they do in life, but I'm just being affected. I can't help but to mind their acts than just minding mine.

I hope they realize that instead of complaining, why not just sit in one place where they can concentrate well and start studying. And I also hope that they will refrain asking their classmates about the lessons because they both attend the class anyway. Sometimes they don't know that the classmate they are asking is already bothered and irritated.

Lastly, I hope they learn the lesson of being a responsible individual not only in school, but also when they go out to other places.

-____-

"Today I Don't Feel Like Doing Anything, I Just Wanna Lay In My Bed"

The moment my coach announced that we'll have no training tomorrow and this coming Monday in our pep squad I was so glad! I even wanted to shout on top of my voice "HOORAY!!!" but I couldn't because he might change his mind. So I just blushed in one corner. At least I am given a chance to sleep longer this weekend because I badly need it. Sleeping 4 hours every night really sucks! My eyes automatically close when I'm already in class, and I hate that feeling! Plus, I can do on the following days tons of my assignments that are to be submitted next week.

sigh.

I thank God for the good news, for my safe travel going to school and at home, for my health and for the abundant blessings I keep receiving from Him every day of my life!

Oh, it's 11:40 in the evening again. I should go to sleep now.

I'll talk (blog) more tomorrow for you.

P.S. I keep thinking about this guy before I go to sleep. I hope I dream of him tonight. He just doesn't know how I love him so much! I can't wait for the day I can hug him tightly.

Ok, I said too much. Good night, world!

Today, i feel like...

 

...writing more, blogging more, and doing more! this may be something shallow for you to make you happy, but this means a lot to me. The whole world, they view my blog everyday, no matter what i keep posting here, they just seem to enjoy.

I can certainly tell you that this is me!

Enjoy reading! :)

Today, I will make a change

I’ve been enjoying random topics lately and maybe other teens will enjoy reading them.  I want to talk about different issues other people can relate with and not just what happened in my day, in school, at home or anything about my life.

Reformation

Lately, I’ve been going to the wrong direction and thinking in a wrong way.  I lost focus of what I always love to do and that is---- to BLOG.  To make some clarifications I asked myself,

“What’s wrong, Erica? What makes you down? How will you be successful if you’re always like this? What are the possible ways to put you on full strength again? Where is the eagerness you used to put in yourself to reach that goal? You need to answer these questions right here, right now. Don’t waste time. Come on! You used to repeat the phrase make use of my time again and again in your mind. But what are you doing? You’re just sitting there and looking at nowhere. Isn’t this the right time to use it? ”.

Don’t get me wrong, but I really talk to myself often.

Remember my last post before this? You can read it back if you want so you can understand clearly what I am talking about.

If you just know, Blogging is a big deal for me, earlier as now I am practicing myself for bigger purposes. I am putting myself to the test, to ready myself to make my career successful in the future, and this is a perfect way to start. I always wanted to be a WRITER. I love writing; I always have abundant imaginations and can make them out of a story.

I often picture myself holding a book in front of the Medias throwing questions of how I made it, that the book I have created is now a bestselling not only in my continent, but also worldwide. That my name is very famous and is always seen in magazines and newspapers, and paparazzi are everywhere to snap photos of me for their own article, and they might also put it in their blogs too. And that I’m well- known by people just like how Ophra Winfrey is right now, and so as Bill Gates, and the others.

Doesn’t it feel good to be true? I want these things to happen, I really do.

But in every big achievement it is necessary to start at the small one, because there is a saying, “In every thousand miles we start with one step”.  But how will it be as big as my imagination to make it in reality if in small areas I am not making a move?  I should stop being happy-go-lucky and should set a goal.

Just like yesterday, I know there’s something nice to blog about a grandpa and my unusual feeling of what happened that the readers will find it touching, but I didn’t post it because I’m lazy and tired. I’m tired because I’ve been doing nothing the whole day.  See? This is not good. When I get a job I can’t be like this. Do you get what I mean?

If you’re telling me that maybe I’m getting the wrong choice of career, you’re wrong. This is what I love, being in the industry of authors, editors, writers, columnists, etc. This is really the profession I wanted to take. I’m just being TOO LAZY.

And I find my courage again when a friend of mine, Mr. John Marine, had an article about blogging stuff which I find it absolutely true. He inspires many people across the world including me. And his words are very powerful and meaningful that you will get up from where you are seated and start doing what you really love that is good for you and for your career. I appreciate everything he does for me all the time.

If you want to meet him, just visit his blog here.

And this time, I’ll make it sure that I’m heading the right direction to success with God’s guidance.

Countdown

I am counting those days ...

19 days to go and it will by my final examination for the last quarter of the school year. (March 7)
33 days to go and it's my graduation day! (March 25)
[Note: Saturdays and Sundays were not included in counting]

40 days to for my dad's arrival! (March 20)
110 days to go and I'm turning 17! (May 26)
[Note: Saturdays and Sundays were included in counting]

HOORAY TO ME!

What's up, Doc?

Last Friday my dentist contacted me and told me to be in her clinic the following day.

I DID.

As I enter her clinic, she was attending a patient who was seated on the dental chair. There was also a patient before me waiting for her turn and her teeth has to be re sealant.

After SEVERAL minutes it was another patient's turn. The one who I am next with.

My dentist was not yet done sealing the patient's teeth. I was totally bored, so I gave up. I waited an hour and a half for nothing!

I have to go back home for I'm already hungry and I want to eat my lunch, and besides I have a rehearsal in school later that time. I still have to prepare the things needed to be brought there. What I did is I approached my dentist and asked if I can just go back tomorrow.

Tomorrow was today, Sunday.

 Finally, I was the first patient who came to her clinic. As I was seated on the dental chair, I opened my mouth, she checked for a FEW seconds and said, "Your braces can now be removed. Let's reschedule when you want to take them off."

That's it?! That's the appointment all about?!
Of course I can't ask her to remove it that time because I didn't bring any money for the labor.
For all I know is she will do some adjustments and I don't have to pay any amount.
The only reaction I could give was to smile and said "okay". But that was totally not okay for me!

I waited longer than to be assisted! Shoot! If I only knew this was going to happen I should have asked her to assist me first before the patient before me!

This was not the only time I have encountered an experience like this with her. She's totally ridiculous. Doesn't she know about time management?

Ow, gawd! I was totally pissed off!