Anyway, I'm not stopping. I can still see hope. I like it so much.
I have mentioned before that my mother only allows me to open the computer after school days. For me not to forget the happenings in my life, I write it on a scratch paper. I write and write everything that comes in my mind all the time. I write while listening to the teachers, at break times, and dismissals. Even my hand is already painful, I still continue to write. I never wanted to stop.
I a day I have plenty of stories that I would like to post, but as I reread it, I find it not so interesting and would rather crumple the paper and throw it away. But if I'm fab, I'll get to post them all after school days.
I prefer writing it first on a paper so i'll just type everything and not to think for a long time in front of the computer.
You know that everything that we do has an advantage and disadvantage. I'll tell you first the bad side. I'm starting to have thicker part of skins in an area of my right hand (kalyo), It looks so ugly an makes me anxious to show it with others. I started having this when I was 10 years old. I write heavily and so many. I feel like I'm torturing my own self.
Sometimes I wonder if my suitors will still going to like me with my ugly right hand, or if my future boyfriend will still going to hold my hand despite of the ugliness I have. Plus, It is starting to shake because of my wrong doings. I must not wash my right hand after writing and have to rest it for a while to avoid this situation.
Still, I keep on looking at the bright side. It makes my handwriting more beautiful and I can easily make an essay without having a hard time.
Oh, and there's one more thing that suddenly popped in my mind while typing this post. I am taking BS mathematics in college because I love to count money and we have a business that I will handle in the future. Now I am starting to doubt. Should I just get AB communication Arts or Journalism because of the love for writing? or should I stick with the BS Mathematics and keep in my mind that this is one of my many talents?