My heart is in pain

I can't remember when was the last time I felt hurt, I mean my heart. Maybe because that time when I was younger I found out that my crush had someone in his heart already. Yes. I felt hurt for that stupid crush. And that was a long time ago.

It's totally different today, I'm not a baby or a kid anymore. I'm growing up, as a teen. And crushes are not a big deal for me anymore.

I felt hurt for someone who I really love, not just an ordinary crush anymore. Someone who is really special to me. Someone I fell for.

Even tough I'm a little sad of what happened, I know this will pass away since we have talked clearly about our situation.

We are mutually bound. We love each other but we can't be together. He said it is not the right time for both of us.

This is what he said, " Remember what I'll say. Study, Meet people, enjoy your life and if you can live your life as if I'm not part of it. I don't want to be a hindrance to your life."

I cried, of course, for a while. But now I think it is healing.

Thanks for my mother's guidance. Without her, maybe I'll feel more hurt than ever.


'Till next time,
Erica