I'm not yet ready to face the reality after I dreamed about mom.
I previously posted here that she is sick. But she's fine now.
Last night, as I walk to my room to have my sleep after blogging, my mind was in peace, relaxed and relieved coming home safely after our trip to Cavite. After praying, I fastly fell asleep.
And that's the start of my nightmare.
The scene was inside my mom's room. She's lying down in her bed not breathing anymore. Me, my two younger siblings and my grandma surrounded her crying sorrowfully.
In my dream I started blaming myself that it's all my fault. She got sick because I asked her to drive me to the camp just to see my crush, and because of that I made her so tired and asked her a lot that makes her ill worse.
It's stupid I know, but that's how it happened.
Luckily, when I was able to blink my eyes open, I realized that it was just a stupid dream, a very stupid dream that means the opposite in reality. Thank God, It was just a dream!
As I reflect myself from reality, It's obvious that I'm not yet ready to lose her. Not only to mom, but to my dad and grandma too. I don't want this to happen soon.
I woke up in bed with teary eyes. And I hate it because when I came to school, it's obvious that I hardly had my sleep.
P.S. Janus texted me that night. It was so sweet to receive a message from him.