Heartache or Bugled mind?

There are times when I feel so happy, and there are times when I really feel so hurt. In just few thoughts, my feelings would eventually change and I am just making myself confused. It sucks actually, but most of the time I would think of throwing away objects that I would see near me if my heart could no longer handle the hurtful feeling that I am keeping inside. Apparently, that idea of mine never happened.

I don't know what to do anymore. I already made myself occupied with so many activities that will make me forget about those thoughts, thoughts that emit not-so-good vibes and eventually make me feel so angry and envious and then will end up crying.

Sigh.

This coming new year, I just want to receive good vibes, feel wonderful, beautiful and be filled with merriment.

Merry Christmas, world!

Hello,

It's been a long long long long long long long time since I updated this blog. I really have so many things to share with you, but I do not know where to start. Second semester in first year college really made my time occupied. AS IN. I'm getting used to sleep 3 to 4 hours at night just to finish all my assignments and be in school on time. Anyways, I'm still lucky that I'm strong, surviving and can accomplish everything on time. I thank God for that despite of all the pressure and anxious feeling that I couldn't avoid when I feel like I couldn't make it.

I'm glad that it's Christmas break and I have 2 weeks of worry free. Since it's also Christmas, I'm greeting all of you a wonderful one and happy holidays!

Wish everyone receives its own special gift this year

Will update you soon,
Erica :)

Say "HI" to the Miriam College Pep Squad 2011- 2012

Starting tonight...

I will place a pen and a notebook near my bed, so whenever I dream of something I can easily jot it down. I am planning to do this for the rest of my life, because I believe that these dreams have a message that must be interpreted to unlock something that involves my life and my relation to others, or like what my professor mentioned in my psychology class, these might somehow become true in reality. If there is an instance that one of these came true and I saw it written on my notebook, that's when I will advice you to do the same thing too!

And I bet this will be fun!

Have a nice day!

Congratulations to myself!

Disclaimer: I am about to brag something about myself in this short post.

Today, at the assembly I was awarded as one of the students who show exemplary behavior in school. That means I never had a violation, I keep good grades, and also the school's pride as a pep squad varsity. I could not even believe myself for this!

I also lose 2 lbs, from 95 lbs now I weigh 93 lbs. My lifters won't have a trouble lifting and throwing me in the air now! In addition, I'm getting stronger and stronger each day!

I am so blessed!  Thank you, God for these wonderful achievements!

M- 102 for lunch

My Statistics class starts at 12:00 noon and ends at 1:30 pm. And take note,  I don't have a break before this subject to have my lunch, so I have no choice but to eat late. Too bad, students aren't allowed to eat even biscuits while classes are on going! Water doesn't work for me. I just pee all the time.

I just hope I won't have an ulcer in the future. 

Stressful Tuesday!

I lacked sleep from last night. I only had 4 hours of sleep and I felt so cranky this morning. I woke up at 4:00am and left the house at 5:40am. If I'll leave later than that I'll be late on my 7:30am class. I don't have a choice. This is going to be my routine everyday for the whole 2nd semester.

Anyways, whenever someone would talk to me, I would give them a rude answer subconsciously. I could also sense myself frowning the whole time. I even tried to close my eyes for quick seconds when my professors were facing the blackboard while discussing something in class for I was so sleepy. In addition, I get easily annoyed of something or someone just because it or she looks annoying to me. 

Somehow, I managed to laugh and smile when my classmates were throwing funny stories and punchlines at break times, but after those I can't help but to be back in my grouchy mood again!

Oh, stress! I know you won't leave me, but at least lessen it please. Sincerely, begging for a longer sleep.

Good night!

Blasting Monday!

How are you?

How was your day? Was it fun? was it bad? Hmmm... ?

If you'll ask me, mine was very exploratory! Here's what I remember today:

I came to school early this morning to attend a general assembly held by the communication department. When the special guests appeared, a lot of ladies where screaming and cheering on top of their voices. I would like to do the same, but I hesitated. They were cute, yes! But they're humans too, right? so I just smiled at them on their whole performance. It was also my classmate's birthday and she received a kiss from one of the guests who were singing on stage. How lucky she was! I wanted to receive a kiss too! but not from him, but from the guy I always wish was mine!

The Lamar brothers were the special guests

This cute Micah Lamar kissed the birthday celebrant!

After the event, we went to BON CHON, a restaurant just around Katipunan, to celebrate her birthday! She treated us for lunch and I could say that she was overjoyed!

Hannah, the birthday celebrant, on my left side.
Oh, and they were the ones who decided to wear black and white clothes.

When it was already afternoon, I returned to school to attend my training. We did 10 laps of jogging, heavy conditioning, stretching, gymnastics, and we did different stunts for pyramid. I can now do different toss and turns as a flyer very well, and to tell you, I never been a flyer before. I'm just so happy being fit, productive, and staying in the squad wholeheartedly.

Lastly, after the training, I came home as soon as possible to finish all my assignments, to have my supper and to blog about this tonight!

Finally! I can now have  the sleep I was waiting for to happen.

Good night!

Good sign

You must be wondering why I haven't posted something new here for a long time now. I guess, for me, this is a good sign.

But for now, I won't tell you not until I have accomplished my greatest mission!

I'll update you soon,

Erica :)

I'm sorry

I abandoned this blog for a long time, like how a person abandoned his pet or a kid who didn't want to play with his toys anymore, but I still want to post many stories here. It's just that the things happening to me right now are more of a private matter that aren't appropriate to share with the world wide web, except for the days when my sembreak was so productive--- thanks to the PEP SQUAD!

There are also times when I want to cry and scream out loud, say the meanest words I know, punch people and hurt their feelings. What sucks more in my part is you probably want to know why and I just couldn't tell you. I want to, but I can't coz if I do you might hate me for that. I just badly want to talk to someone right now-- heart- to- heart. But no one is around to comfort me. Presently, it's me against the world.

Or maybe there is really someone who can listen, understand and comfort me, but I'm not yet ready to open up to Him.

This is it for now. Have a happy Halloween!

I'm a cry baby :'(

Early this afternoon we were doing some pyramids. Officially, I am the flyer and I have my very strong and beautiful base and a back spotter. As we were practicing different stunts, I couldn’t help but to hurt them, hit them in the face or kick their heads as I land onto their arms. I can sense the pain they were feeling even though they keep telling me that they were fine, but actually they were not. I felt apologetic and dreadful at the same time. I started blaming myself for the fault happened (but I just kept it in my head), because I knew that I need to master more the stunts I am doing.  I haven’t done these before and this was my only opportunity to learn them in order to stay where I am placed right now.

I really want to cry that moment because I was already causing them so many burdens, but I tried to holdback my tears as long as I could so they wouldn’t notice. I want them to know that I am still determined and willing to do better for the team despite of the errors done.

Eventually, when we were doing the ‘twist’, I was able to land perfectly several times without hurting them physically! Finally! Finally! we were able to make it! I suddenly burst down in tears for the joy I felt! And that feeling was beyond words! My company was starting to cry as well. They must have felt the same way too.  I was so glad that I finally did right before the training session ended.

I am so thankful to God for this magnificent day!

Behind those 'you', I meant me

Have you experienced before when you are trying to hold back tears by smiling to those people cheering/ talking to you? And that you decided not to utter words, not even one, because you know that those tears may start running down from your eyes and you just don’t want to let them see?

sigh.

I was not with myself this afternoon. At least I'm okay now this evening.

sigh.

Here I go again

I haven't updated my blog since last week. I'm always occupied with so many things I do in life that makes me have no time for this. I know it's sembreak, but life goes on, and I just can't stay at home for a month and do nothing. I just love being productive all the time--- I love the long walks, the never ending talks, the mellow laughs, the fast runs, heavy conditioning, and so many more that makes me physically active. Those are what I am doing everyday-- everyday in my training at the pep squad!

Luckily, I had the opportunity to use my laptop once again and tell you something about my day.

The reason why I'm still strong and positive until now to face my daily challenges is because I am always inspired. Also, having faith in God really helps me to live a wonderful life!

I guess this is all for now. It's already late in the evening here in the Philippines and I'm going to sleep. There will be another hardcore training tomorrow.

Good night!

Oldie, but good---ie!

My friends wonder why I call you all the time,
What can I say?
I don't feel the need to give such secrets away
You think maybe I need help though I know i am right, all right
I'm just better off not listening to friends advice

When they insist on knowing my bliss,I tell them this
When they want to know what the reason is
I only smile when I lie, then I tell them why

Because your kiss, your kiss is on my list
Because your kiss, your kiss is on my list
Because your kiss is on my list of the best things in life
Because your kiss, your kiss is on my list
Because your kiss, your kiss I can't resist
Because your kiss it's what I miss when I turn out the lights

I go crazy wondering what there is to really see
Did the night just take up your time, cause it means more to me
Sometimes I forget what I'm doing, I don't forget what I want,what I want
Regret what I've done, regret you? I couldn't go on

But if you insist on knowing my bliss,I'll tell you this
If you want to know what the reason is
I only smile when I lie, then I'll tell you why

Because your kiss, your kiss is on my list
Because your kiss, your kiss I cant resist
Because your kiss is what I miss when I turn out the lights

Did you know?

When I was still at my mother's womb, she had an ultrasound and the doctor said that I was a "boy". My parents then started buying blue clothes. My mom also had a name for me already, and it was supposed to be JOHN ERIC DANIEL. It so happened that when my mom gave birth to me I turned out to be a cute little baby girl!

and taaaaadaaaaa! the cute baby picture you see below was me :)

Oh, and yes, I still wore those blue clothes they bought for me. How sad! but at least they bought new ones with my favorite color-- PINK!

Random post (i'm bored)

 ‎-------------------Girls---------
-------------are like apples------
---------on trees. The best ones-----
-------are at the top of the tree.-----
-----The boys don't want to reach---
-----for the good ones because they--
---are afraid of falling and getting hurt.-
---Instead, they get the rotten apples-
---from the ground that aren't as good,
but easy. So the apples up top think there
--is something wrong with them when in
----reality they're amazing. They just--
-----have to wait for the right boy to
------- come along, the one who's-
------------- brave enough to-----
----------------- climb all---------
----------------- the way------
-----------------to the top----
-----------------of the tree ----

--------------------------------------------

Essentially, this post is something nice to share with other girls out there. I got this from my awesome friend, Alleli Fei.

If you feel loveless and single right now (yes, single! like me! but I don't feel loveless. hehehe), well, you're wrong.

Let's just learn to WAIT--- nothing else but WAIT. Time flies so fast anyway, and we'll absolutely have the boy that we've been longing to.

Enjoy your evening!

Nanuod ako ng reputasyon sa ABS-CBN kanina

Ericaritish Bermudez Paule:

'via Blog this'

Bihira lang talaga kasi ako manuod ng telebisyon. Nagkataon na nanunuod ang lahat kanina ng teleserye sa channel 2. Nang nakinuod din ako sa palabas, abay may linya ang isang matandang babae duon na maiinis ka rin pag narinig mo. Nakuha ng artista ang atensyon at dapat na maramdaman ng manunuod. Dahil duon napagtanto ko na:

Malalaman mo talagang magaling ang isang artista, lalo na pag gumaganap na kontrabida, kapag nanggagalaiti ka sa galit dahil sa ginagampanan niyang papel.

Ayun lang naman. Nakakaramdam na kasi ako ng pagkabagot ngayon.

A morning message from Liza P.

"Being inspired with someone is the simplest and best reason why you find yourself smiling without reason."

oh, yeah! rise and shine, beautiful world! :D

Does anyone else

GET SCARED WHEN A TEXT READS 

"Can I ask you a question?"

Sembreak!

Finally, the 1st semester is over! I will have a month of no seatworks, no assignments, no quizzes, no projects, and no oral reports! The only thing I have to do now is to work out, dance, work out, dance, work out--- and if there are plans going out with few friends I may spend my time with them-- or with him =)

For now, I'm enjoying my stay at home sipping a cup of green tea while thinking of what gifts to buy for my love ones this coming Christmas season, and at the same time saving money for those.

enjoy your day!

Pre-final grade in Math

(click image to enlarge)

Rating Scale

 96-100 -  5.0

91 - 95 - 4.5

86 - 90 -  4.0

80 - 85 -  3.5

74 - 79 -  3.0

68 - 73 - 2.5

62 - 67 -  2.0

56 - 61 -  1.5

50 - 55 -  1.0

Below 50 - F

I always get an average grade in math. ALWAYS.  Should I be contented with this? I still have my final exam tomorrow, and I hope I to get a higher grade this time. I am aiming to reach 4.0 or 4.5 as a FINAL GRADE this semester. I'd be happier (At least I know that I don't have to take up this subject again next semester).

Good luck to me!

Hello, I'm back!

I haven't blog lately, and yet the page view still increases everyday. Thank you to those who backread, I appreciate you so much! I also apologize for being silent for a while. This week made my time totally occupied. I don't even know where to start, but I'm sure I still have the full details in my head, and hopefully I can share it with you.

Let's see..  hmm:

Monday
I usually don't have classes on this day, but I went there because I need to. It was the only day when all the organizations and clubs will sign the students' clearance in order to take the exams this finals and to see our grades for this first semester. Every assigned rooms were so crowded, and the line was too long that it made me feel so exhausted waiting. It also rained so hard and the weather just made my mood turn bad. Since this was the only day that I can accomplish signing my clearance, I tried to be more patient, and fortunately I did. I was also able to finish all within this day. At last!

Tuesday
It supposed to be a regular class day in school, but the strong signal of the weather made our classes suspended. The typhoon came to our place. Many from other cities experienced flash floods, landslides, and many disastrous incidence. I feel so sorry for them. I couldn't do anything else but to hope and pray for them. Luckily, I live on top of the hills that's why we didn't experience much of those. It was also black-out nationwide! after 8 hours of no electricity, it finally returned. I just slept the whole day and afternoon, and at night when there was light already, I finished my essays, reaction papers, reflection papers, and thesis. It was then 11:30 pm and I haven't started reviewing for the exam in Sociology on the following day. I felt sleepy and could no longer force my eyes to open so I decided to sleep for a couple of hours.

Wednesday
Rinnnngggg!! The alarm waked me up at 3am to start reviewing my subject for later's exam. Imagine, I just had 3 and a half hours of sleep! woah! Anyway, I am already used to it, especially in a case like this. I stopped reading my book when it was 5 in the morning. I made breakfast and prepared myself to school. I was done by 6. Before I left the house I needed to print the school papers I finished last night, then I realized it was a bad timing! I ran out of ink! Good news was mom and grandma were going to town so I decided to go with them. Bad news was  there still no electricity in town! I searched the whole place, and I found no hope! the printing shops couldn't print my documents, and worse, those school papers were due this day! I didn't know what to do. I was about to give up! I had an hour left to travel to school. And if  there's a shop near my school to print my documents, I'd be lucky! And thank God! there was! I still had 15 minutes left before my exam started so I grabbed the opportunity. Phew! A big relief when I was able to submit those on time. I'm so blessed! God is so great!

Thursday
I didn't have any exam this day. But I still went to school to shoot a short film for our Filipino subject. I had to finish it tomorrow with my group mates because it would serve as our final exam. When I arrived home In the afternoon, I had my early dinner. And since it was still too early to sleep I surfed the internet. Then I just realized that It was 10pm already and I haven't started reviewing my Theology subject for tomorrow's exam! Since I was so lazy already, I decided to skim my notes tomorrow morning.

Friday
I woke up at 4am and abruptly skimmed the notes that I wrote in my Theology subject. Then I did my usual routine-- make breakfast and prepare for school ( I skipped doing my chores this morning. lol!). The exam was a piece of cake for me. After that I proceeded with my groupmates to continue our shooting. Fortunately, at the end of the day we were done! Phew! A tiring day I must say.

Saturday
which is today. I went to school this morning just to pass our short film and came back home. The end.

Howlee Sheet!

For the first time in my college life, I was marked late in my 7:30am class today, which is Humanities. It sucks! Now I won't be able to have a perfect record in my attendance sheet. Why did this happen when the semester is almost over? Alas!

The story starts like this.

Whenever I have a 7:30 am class I am supposed to wake up at 4:30 and leave the house around 5:45 in the morning. But today was something devastating! I didn't hear my phone alarmed! or my phone didn't alarm? Whatever. I am still late, and I hate to remember it! I already woke up 6 in the morning! And maybe I will be waking up later than that if my mom didn't come inside the room to ask me to print the contract that was saved on my laptop.

"Howlee sheet!!!" were the first words I said this morning and I felt bad about it.

I rushed myself to take a bath and left the house without eating my breakfast. I did that all for half an hour!

I know by that time that it's already traffic on highways and it's impossible to get a ride going to school. My emotions were mixed up. I don't know if I should stay positive or release the madness feeling inside me.

Finally, I made it to the class! I arrived there at 7:50am, but my professor already checked the attendance and I was already marked late!

Shoot!

Saved by the bell!

I had my Sociology class early this morning, and I guess this is my lucky day!

I was assigned to report a given topic on Friday and today is only Wednesday. It so happened that our professor has a dilemma on that day and she won't be able to meet us, so she decided to have all the reports to be finished this meeting. I was suddenly shocked to hear that announcement!

Oh no! I wasn't able to bring my flash drive today! I left it at home (and honestly, I'm not yet finish w/ it)! I have nothing to present in class! What now?!

Anxiety abruptly came to me. I tried to calm down, but I couldn't stop my heart beating rapidly. While there are still other reporters in front, I started skimming all the pages of my book to remember the important details about my topic. I am not worried about how I am going to deliver my report in front of the class for  I have studied that already in advance. It's just that my professor will mark higher grades to those students who prepared any visual aids or powerpoint presentation. She might think that I effortlessly did my report and she will end up giving me a low grade.

Tick! tock! tick! tock! I can't stop looking at the clock...

Tick! tock! tick! tock! and I am next to present in the class...

The moment my professor will about to call my name the bell suddenly rang!

Phew! What a relief! Class is over! I'm so happy... I'm so lucky! She has no choice but to make me report on the next meeting.

Thank, God!

I should be asleep right now...

... but because of what I found out before I log off on facebook, My blood started to boil  when I saw an account with my picture and name displayed on it. And wow! Am I too popular already? That person should have created a fan page, and not a different account just to receive praises from people when they see him/her online (If they are already a friend with him/her). Or maybe that person is just messing around with me? I'll tell you, this is not funny.

Here's the link of the poser to prevent any malicious situations:

MY POSER'S LINK ON FACEBOOK!
(You should log in to facebook first before clicking this link to see it)

Poser, if you are reading this, what did I do to you to make such thing? Tell me.


Help me report the account please!

Thank you, friends!

How are you, blog?

When was the last time I posted an entry here? It seemed like a month had passed already, although it was just few days ago.

Anyway, my week was full of a lot of assignments to do, reports to prepare, and deadlines to meet, plus the time I spend having my training at the pep squad. I'd never been so stressful before. I've been lacking sleep consecutive days already and the result is I look older than what my age should really tell other people who see me.

I admit, I feel so anxious most of the time. I do everything just to finish all my jobs before the deadline to get high grades and be a dean's Lister, to have a good reputation in and out of the school, and to never fail the expectations of the people who knew about my capability.

It's hard, I know. I even attempt to give up several times, but it never happened, and thank you for that. I'm still this person/ student who strives harder to achieve a lot of things I want, to make my family proud of me and to reach my goals.

Aside from all the school works this week, I had my recollection last Friday. I was so blessed to attend that activity because I know God wants me to spend my whole day with Him. I felt renewed and spiritually heeled from all the sorrows I had in my life. I always remember Him every day and every night, and I know He is always by my side to always reach out.

The following day, Saturday, was the final examination of all first year students for their PE subject (I was exempted in that exam because I am a varsity, and varsities do not have to to attend that subject). They were graded with their cheerdance presentation and it was also a sort of competition w/ the other sections. I didn't join my blockmates because I danced at the opening w/ the pep squad (boy, I'm too proud to brag about it!) Not only that, my section was announced as the champions! That was equivalent to a perfect score for their final exam! Hooray for them! hooray for us!

The Pep Squad 

My champion blockmates!

Everything paid off knowing that news. Saturday was just the day for fun and merriment!

Oh, and have I told you that within those challenging days, there is always this one person who adds strength in me? He used to tell me that I'm strong, that we're both strong, that we can accomplish all the work given to us because we can. I love that boy so much. Too bad, we're both apart and busy with our own businesses. But that's okay, there will be a day that we'll meet and enjoy each others company  in wherever place we plan to go. I'm already happy to know that he is happy with all the activities he does, and the little time he spares to update me with his day.

It feels so good to be inspired--- to be in love with the guy who cares for me even without any words unleashed from his voice. I can strongly feel that in my heart *blushing*. Sigh. I can't wait for that special moment of my life :)

It's late in the evening again. I'd better be in bed now.

Good night, world! Let's always pray to have a better tomorrow!

Dream Interpretation seminar

We had an alternative classes in school last week, and the most interesting activity that I have attended was the Dream Interpretation seminar. Our guest speaker that day was Dr. Randy Dellosa. I was surprised and at the same time impressed of who he is when he was introduced to us.

Randy Misael Sebastian Dellosa, popularly known as Doc Randy is a Filipino psychologist and psychiatrist.

He is popularly known as the life coach-psychotherapist of Filipino celebrities and was the resident psychiatrist in the Pinoy Big Brother and Pinoy Dream Academy reality shows of ABS-CBN Network as well as game shows such as Deal or No Deal.

He is distinguished as the first and so far the only Filipino who is both a psychiatrist (M.D.) and a doctor of clinical psychology (Psy.D.) [Source: Wikipedia]

I was also overwhelmed that I was given a chance to talk to him in person when I shared my dream to him and to others who were listening.  He helped me interpret it.


I just can't believe that I've actually faced someone who's really a genius, popular and amazing.


Despite everything negative happening in our country, I'm still proud that I'm a Filipino. There are so many of us just like him.

Hi, Jake!

I wish I was your leading lady in all your movies, but that's quite impossible, so I just wish to meet someone who has the attitude that you portrayed in the movie 'Prince of Persia', and be his one and only leading lady. I would be so glad of having that person in my life.

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Sigh.. I really can't stop day dreaming today. He's just so adorable and irresistible. I was struck again when I watched his movies last night. But behind those, there's this guy I really can't stop thinking about every day and night. I believe he's aware of my feelings. Maybe I'm like this lately because I want to see him face to face (again) and have that long conversation about anything happening in our lives. He's just so-- so-- so-- WONDERFUL!

oh, I said too much already.

Sigh. I hope he knows that I'm just here waiting until my heart stops beating :)

Merry Monday, friends!

9/11

A decade had passed since the terrorists sabotaged the country of America. It seems like yesterday when it happened. But look at it now, still a progressive country. After all the damaged done, the lost lives and values learned, they remain strong and powerful until this very point.

What about us Filipinos? What happened to us? I may still not be in the right age to tell this since I'm still a student, but I can sense that there is really something wrong with us.

Aside from the government officials who are having a hard time counting billions of money that they corrupt from us, our country seemed to look worse than what America should experience when they were bombed by the terrorists.

Look at Japan and the other countries that experienced catastrophic calamities, they easily rise because they have the funds to reconstruct and they have less money owing.  In us? We are about to start a new project, yet we already have a debt to pay.

Do you think that the generation of the Filipinos today can witness a success Philippines, that there will be a day when we there is no much news about the dirty politicians? that everything happening in our country are all nice, that there are less crimes here because many citizens have their decent jobs already, that anywhere here in the Philippines can be a tourist destination?

I am so bored.. so irritated.. why? Because the other countries already made it. And Philippines? I don't know when.

I'll soon tell you what those are.

I wish you could all feel how great I feel right now! I'm just really excited because I'm learning so many new things and trying to do things that I've been meaning to do but haven't for some reason. 

"The last missing ingredient for true change is DISCIPLINE."

Good morning!

If you missed the beautiful sunrise that God made this morning, it's okay. All you have to do is look at the mirror and see a real beautiful creation of God.


Say thank you too!

DIY

Do It Yourself. It's all the rage. Well, in these tough economic times, it makes sense. I mean, if you can figure out how to do it yourself, it's just less expensive to pay someone else to do it, right? So where does that plan break down? It's when you can't figure out how to do it yourself. So now you're breaking things you were supposed to be fixing and often end up paying far more than what you would have because there's so much more damage.

Sigh. Frustration. Here you go again. No matter how I handled my phone with care, it would still end up ruined. Now, I have to let go a  huge amount of money just to have my phone fixed.

"I like the quality of Post. Than the quantity of notes."

Blacked out, but not knocked out.

For as much as it costs, is it worth it? Can you put a price on adrenaline, anxiety, and glory? Some people are all big talk with no results. Others down talk themselves and don't give themselves the credit they deserve. Judging words. Judging height. Judging width. Judging rank. Most importantly, judging attitude.

But none of it matters when it's just you and me. Will my judgements be wrong? Did I stress myself out for nothing? Making it known that I won't be pushed around by you, or you, or you. Making others fall down, not on purpose, but still taken personally by them. Guidance and support on the sidelines. Focus. So much adrenaline that you don't notice your injuries until an hour later. Moment of blackness. Did I just stretch my thighs too much that the muscle injury returned again? Really? Suck it up. Prepare to see me improve my flexibility better.

I confess; for as much as I'm scared about getting seriously injured, I'm more worried about not performing well.

I rehearsed tonight for the opening cheerdance to be presented next two weeks . I can't wait to learn, grow, and have a cheering style of my own.

Let the dreamers continue with their dreaming.

The other morning I was thinking about how I always dream about wanting to do this or that. I'm tired of dreaming. I guess it's fine if you want to be stuck in a never ending dreamland where you can float along and never amount to much. I've had enough. It's time for less dreaming and more doing.

These ideas that I've had in my mind for the past few years, I think it's time I did something with them.

A dream is no good if that's all it ever is.

A brand new day, a brand new life.

I wanted to say good morning to all.


I thank God for giving me another day to spend my time with the people I love, to accomplish all the unfinished tasks, to learn new things, to meet new people, to be able to live the life I always wanted.


It's September 1, the day to start all over again.



Always remember that


“ God is the reason why even in pain, we smile; even in confusion, we understand; even in betrayal, we trust and even in fear, we continue to fight.”


Take care, everyone! Time to go to school.

between

it's uncomfortable being inbetween

it's painful being inbetween

it's exhausting being inbetween

it's frustrating being inbetween

None of it is going to get the best of me.

down.

Those of you who know me are aware that I'm not the most social person. I'm not great at starting up conversations and the like, but I think I have a basic understanding of what should happen.

Blogging was never nonsense

It is a kind of medication. We release ourselves with the feelings we express here. Sometimes we even inspire people, give knowledge to them, and when we read other's entry, we can be warned with the experiences they had.

Blogging is really important for me. This is where I practice my writing skills. It has something to do with the course I am taking up in college. In this, I can improve myself as a communication student. I can practice expanding a certain topic, think fast of what to say or write when I am asked to, discover more words that I have not encountered before in my life, know the thoughts people always have in their mind, and many more.

It is good to blog without boundaries. That what make us a true writer. When someone criticizes us, let them. They always mind the errors that they see from us which only help us to develop ourselves, the skills we have and the thing we will do. And when they are too focused on us, they forget to improve themselves. And the result is we are far better than them. When I always think about this, I make myself smile for they are a fool on their own.

Blogging is noteworthy, if you just know the real meaning of it.

(P.S. This is a kind of informal/ free writing. I'm not using a thesis statement and this is not an essay. This is a blog. Just saying. LOL)

No pain, no gain.

My lower backbone hurts every time I do this because my bones aren't that soft or flexible. If I were able to enroll myself in a ballet class or in gymnastics when I was younger, I can do better. But I have no regrets for I can do it several times and I'm improving day by day. I have a coach who trains me well and believes that I can perfect other stunts that he is teaching. I am dedicated and eager to master everything so I don't have to complain anymore the pain I am feeling.

Not all unfortunate are illiterate

I've been observing the street vendors and the fare conductors for a long time now. I see them every day at towns and when I board public vehicles. They are the people who were not able to have a proper education, because they do not have enough money to enroll themselves in a school. That is why they have no choice but to get unprofessional jobs just to have their means of living.

Talking about their job, it involves money, and money involves math. I am so amazed with these kinds of people because they know how much change they will give to their customers and passengers no matter how big or small the amount of money is. And the fact is they can do more.

If they were not given a good education, what more if they were?

I pity them. They are smart people who were not given a chance to prove themselves in bigger companies. The only thing they do not have is a diploma to be employed in a better position, and the money to for the fees needed to completely work in that company.

It's easy to express something when you start your blog entry with:

• Sometimes...
• There are people...
• In my experience...
• Why would it be...
• In so many opportunities...

And so many more. 

Since blogging is not for academic writing, it's okay to be informal most of the time.

Try it!

No use in complaining

It will be over soon.

The long weekend is over!

Finally, I had the rest I always wanted. I slept longer than I used to, watched late TV shows and movies, went out to the beach to stare at the sky and to enjoy the breeze, to be with my family again, and to talk to random people. Sadly, I was not able to control the amount of food I should consume, for I am tempted by many people around me. I hope to still maintain the weight my coach checked last Friday.

Aside from the rejuvenating activities I did, the school works were still attached to me wherever I go. I can not help but to think about what I should accomplish before I enter school. My professors did not fail to give me assignments to be passed tomorrow. Fortunately, I have more time to do that, but it is better if they did not assigned me anymore.

And good news, the muscle injuries on my thighs were gone already. I can do cat walk again and attend my training at the Pep Squad tomorrow.

Oh, tomorrow!
I have to wake up again so early in the morning just to be in school on time.

Oh, tomorrow!
My brain will be drained again because of all the essays, recitations, seatworks, and quizzes in class.

Oh, tomorrow!
You give me all the strength to face my daily challenges.

long weekend

Just because we do not have classes tomorrow does not mean we can sleep late at night . Take a rest. This opportunity rarely happens. The next thing we will do are the school works. Life is just so cute.

Kanina sa loob ng jeep

May kuyang taga-UP na ginigitgit ako sa loob ng jeep kanina kaya naglakas loob akong kausapin siya


Me: Kuya, anong name mo? Madalas kasi kita nakakasabay sa pagsakay ng jeep tuwing uuwi na (which is true)

Siya: Raymond.

Me: Ako si Erica.

Siya: Ah.

Me: Anong course mo?

Siya: ECE

Me: Ah.

Dahil doon, nilayuan niya na ako, at sa wakas maluwag na ang aking inuupuan. Hehe. Papansin.

The life of homeless people under the footbridge of Katipunan

Was there a moment in your life that you picture yourself being homeless? That your only bed is a small carton, your blankets are the crumpled newspapers found on the trash bin, and your room is the whole sidewalk? Have you imagined yourself begging for food or asking for spare change at the streets just to have something to eat for the day?  How will you feel if these really happen to you?

Few days ago, after my pep squad training, I was walking across the footbridge, suddenly a young boy, around 5 years old, pulled my shirt and begged me to pay money for his sampaguita flowers. Honestly, I don’t want to purchase those because I’m not going to place them on the altar, but the child looked so hungry.  Instead of getting the flowers he was holding, I gave him coins that were enough to buy him bread or a biscuit, and he can earn more money if he’ll sell the flowers to other people passing by. It was a relief on my part that I have helped someone and he can finally fill his empty tummy, but it was better if I gave him directly foods so that I can be sure that he will really consume it. It was so happen that there were no open stores nearby so I have no choice but to give him money.

The following day, I saw a mother with two infants who were exposed to the polluted air of the city. The helpless babies were sleeping under the footbridge and the mother was asking for alms. When I observed the bottle, it was empty and unclean. This can cause harmful effects on their body. When I also looked at the infants’ faces, there were tears dried on their skins evidencing that they recently cried. I really felt so bothered with their situation. Unfortunately, I can’t do anything to help them.  I sensed guilt in me. Passing by on them really stabbed my heart. When I mentioned this to my mother, she told me to donate some clothes to them. But I wonder, will I ever see them again when I pass by? They are homeless; they move to different places to ask help from more fortunate people.

There are more kinds of situations like these that I see around the city everyday.

All I want is to make the other people who are not contented of what they have to realize how lucky they are for having a good life. I know you are lucky. Why?  Because you have your own computer to read this blog, if not, you’re still lucky to afford renting a PC in the internet café. You’re lucky because your room may not be as big as what you wanted, but I’m sure it has a comfortable bed that can make you sleep well. You’re lucky in so many other ways. My point is whatever we own, even the smallest objects, we should be thankful for it and let us always remember those people who support us financially and to God who lets these good things happen to us.

Hello, Monday!

 

I was so glad to see my friend, Matthew Geis, online yesterday. It was like we didn't chat a long, long, long time ago and my reaction was exactly how you see in the picture above. I told him few things I keep thinking in mind and he must be laughing at me right now.

Oh, well, few more hours and my training will start. Good day, world!

Words can just be words ...

... but when that someone means a lot to you,

... words can never be words.

Nothing to say

I haven't had anything to say.

It's a thought that takes me only a second to say and only two seconds to realize is a complete lie.

I passed all my exams this midterm, we started having a hardcore training in our pep squad, an anonymous person asked me to give any suggestion for his article, and I'm deeply in love with a guy and not a gal (JSYK, cuz I'm enrolled in an all girls school).

Fact is, I've had a lot to say. I just don't want to say it.

It's probably because to say things makes me feel vulnerable and open. Generally, I like this feeling. I like to foster that between me and my family and friends. Truly, I do. But I like it on my terms.

And when one is officially a great writer, and soon to be a full-time worker and goal-achiever, the vulnerability is officially no longer my own.

And maybe that's why I don't want to say things. I think I already feel like I'm saying enough.

I have an awesome dad!

It's Saturday today. My family has no plans going out this weekend. Obviously, I'm just here at home being unproductive.

I thought I'll get bored until the end of the day, but I was totally wrong. As I was searching songs saved here on my laptop, I went to my dad's files. I saw many folders which I was not surprised of. I expected that those were very old songs, maybe when he was even a teenager. I couldn't even recognize the titles because they were named "Track 1", "track 2", and so on. So I doubted if I should continue searching interesting songs here.

Then, I tried to open and listen to the songs he saved. Suddenly, I recognized what kind of songs were stored in here. I started hearing songs of Pitbull, Sean Kingston, Usher, Neyo, Jordin Sparks and many other singers who are popular nowadays.

I was like, "For real?! Dad really like these songs??! I thought he's an oldie-old- old."

I know my dad is awesome, but I never thought he'd be this awesome. Whoo! I finally had something new with my day

What the heck!?

I slept like two and a half hours just this morning because I finished all my assignments, then I rushed myself to school to not be late, then when I arrived here (yes, I'm blogging here in school!) to attend the first subject they announced that it was a free cut because the professor was not around. GRR!

My next class is supposed to be Physical Education but I no longer attend that because I am already a school varsity (sounds arrogant? lol.). So, what I am saying is I have like 5 hours break before I will really attend my next subject, which is Math. If I can only predict time, I should have left the house at noon and have my longer sleep :)

You just don't know how I look like today. I look like a zombie/ drunk person! -__-

School Tour Concert

Finally, I felt relieved when the midterm exams were over, and at the same time excited!

When I woke up Saturday morning, I felt like I needed more sleep, but I refuse to go back to bed. Instead I started doing all my chores at home and prepared everything I need to wear and bring for the school's event. I was already so happy with the thought that I'd be seeing someone later.

Then it was already evening. I felt more and more excited knowing that the time was near to meet the friend I'd been waiting to see a long time ago. When I saw him, I was so glad he made it. He knows how much his presence mean to me and I was so thankful to God he came. I know I have to be me when I'm with him but I can't help but to feel a little bit anxious.

We decided to eat first before we watch the concert in school so we went to a fast food. We talk a lot about school and blah, blah, blah. He's still amazing, cute and jolly. After an hour, we finally proceeded to where the concert was being held.

Honestly, I was tensed a little, but I cover it up by telling him a few facts about some people we saw on stage performing, hosting, singing and modeling. And the truth is all my attention was on him and not really with the concert.

I remembered someone who sent me a message asking what was special at the concert. I replied, "Nothing special at the concert, but the person I'm with tonight is special."

No words can equivalent the feeling I have when he is always around.

So, okay, hmm, I talked too much already. I don't know if he's reading this or not.

Lastly, we both went home safe and sound.

Midterm Exams!

It was my very first time to take up midterm exams in college. And as an overall result, I know I pass all the subjects. But that wasn't so easy.We know the saying, "To achieve your goals, you must work hard", and that  what I just did, to stay awake the whole night, to make sure that I can answer all the questions there.

The night before the exam day (which was Wednesday) I was planning to start my review after I had my dinner. But that didn't happen; instead I set my alarm at 10:00 pm to wake me up because I wanted to rest my eyes so badly even just  for a while.

When my phone alarmed, my eyes were still lazy to open but I forced myself to stand up. I abruptly open my notes and other references to review what were discussed in school that would be included in the exams. I stayed positive throughout the night and concentrated well with my studies. I finished reviewing when it was already 3 in the morning and decided to go back to bed since I have one more hour to sleep.

Then it was Thursday, I woke up at 4am and prepared everything for school. I put a smile on my face to emit good vibes and everything nice, and with a big help from my inspiration I was so confident to take the exams.

And just as I expected, it was a wonderful day. Exams were just a piece of cake.

Since the midterm was not yet over and I still have the following day, I did the same routine as soon as I arrived home. I stayed positive no matter what. It's really a big help for me.

Then it was Friday, I gave my best shot to get high grades. But this time, the exams were not as easy like yesterday. But still, I prepared for it and I believe I made it!

Inspiration was in my head the whole time.

Hmm, there was still an activity the next day,but I'll tell you that on my next post.

"You only feel insecure when you know that you need to improve something about yourself."

-Ms. Pelias

(MC101 Professor)

Be responsible enough

Most of the students in my school say that this week is a "hell week!" because it's our midterm exam week starting today until on Saturday. But for me, it was never came to mind to term my week that way.

Why? Because in every exam, I always ready myself so I don't have to worry anything. I start reviewing all the tackled lessons and all the pointers to remember. And besides, it was announced to us when will be our exam week a long time ago, so there's no one to blame.

I don't understand some students, the teachers and the school officials, they keep reminding us about this. They even release school papers of the upcoming activities before we reach the date when we should be prepared. But it seems nothing to them, to those happy-go-lucky students. They'll just open their books when it's already the day before the midterm. Then when they found out the result of their exams they will start complaining why their grades were like these and like that. I find it irritating. Really.

I know it's not my concern to care about their grades or whatever they do in life, but I'm just being affected. I can't help but to mind their acts than just minding mine.

I hope they realize that instead of complaining, why not just sit in one place where they can concentrate well and start studying. And I also hope that they will refrain asking their classmates about the lessons because they both attend the class anyway. Sometimes they don't know that the classmate they are asking is already bothered and irritated.

Lastly, I hope they learn the lesson of being a responsible individual not only in school, but also when they go out to other places.

-____-

Avoid the appearance of Evil

I'm of the opinion that it's a good idea not to do unto others what I don't like being done unto me. Revolutionary, I know, but it's my opinion and I'm welcome to it.

You know that guy who sits in every meeting drumming his fingers on the table? Or that coworker who whistles tunelessly and drives you up a wall? Or the kid who sits behind you in church kicking the back of your seat? Or the friend who cannot seem to tell a story without loading it with mindless and quite useless details?

You know, all those people who don't seem to mind at all how irritating they can be. Well, I try not to do that. This creates some difficulties, however. Over the years, I've had people comment to me about this or that and I've tried to change what I do because this or that irritates them ... until I end up being completely unable to do almost anything at all because everything seems to irritate someone at some time.

Enter this famous verse from Paul's first epistle to the church of Thessalonica: "Abstain from all appearance of evil" (1 Thess 5:22). I grew up with that verse. I knew people, friends and relatives, who made it their life's goal. They didn't go to movies not because all movies were bad, but because it was possible that you could be coming out of a theater that was playing Bambi and someone driving by may not have realized that last week's R-rated movie had changed and they would think you were doing something wrong. You don't play cards because, even though you were just playing "Go Fish", someone looking on could easily conclude that you were gambling. As a kid I once took a game for a rainy day to school. This game had dice in it that had numbers on them. You rolled these numbered dice and then tried to fit the numbers into math squares -- "__ + __ = __; __ - __ = __", and so on. An educational game. No, no! The game had dice, and even though you knew they weren't gambling dice, onlookers might not know and you could have the appearance of evil.

This whole thing bothered me for years. You see, it's not very likely that you can find anything you can do that will not appear evil to someone. You may join the military to serve your country and be "evil" because you're joining the military or refuse to join the military because joining the military is wrong and be "evil" for refusing to serve your country.

So ... Paul, what are we to do? We can continue to try to meet its requirement but that's impossible. We could throw out the verse, but that's certainly not a good choice. Or, maybe, just maybe, we can figure out what it means.

As it turns out, this isn't as hard as it seems. The Greek word translated "appearance" is eidos. It is, most literally, "form". It references the appearance or shape of something. So what is actually being said here is "Avoid the form of evil." Of course, newer translations have figured this out (so it's not like I thought this up myself). Green's Literal Translation says, "Keep back from every form of evil." The ESV says, "Abstain from every form of evil." The NAS agrees. So does the New King James. So maybe this wasn't such a hard saying after all. The real difficulty occurs when people don't think through what they're reading. "'Avoid all appearance of evil'? How do I do that?"

Now if only someone can help me out with this whole avoiding whatever irritates someone because I'm running out of options.

Anonymous asked: "Alam nyo po ba kung bakit laging busy ‘yung mga good looking?"

        

Sabihin ko sa iyo mamaya, may ginagawa pa ako eh.

This is how it looks like at home tonight

It is still rainy here in the Philippines. I don't know when it will stop. I always have to double my blanket every night just to not feel the cold temperature inside my room. I don't even want to get wet when I leave the house tomorrow. It makes me feel so irritated.

"Rain, rain.. go away. Come back again another day,.."

To those Pinoys who can relate:

Have you experienced this before?

Me, I did. So many times already. People beside me seem to be blind not seeing me giving my money to pay the transportation fee. They are so inconsiderate. But when it's their turn, I am kind enough to pass their money to the driver or kundoktor. I always think of getting my revenge by ignoring them, but I couldn't. My conscience always comes first before my evil acts.

Oh well, just something happened today to share with you tonight.

Para sa mga in love

Naranasan niyo na ba ang pakiramdam na kinausap/tumawag/nagtext mahal mo kahit sa sandaling oras lamang ngunit ang kasiyahang nadama mo sa ginawa niya ay umaabot ng linggo o higit pa? Sarap sa pakiramdam noh? Sarap ng may minamahal sa buhay.

Are you going to read this? If not, I don’t mind

I always tell myself to be true. Anything that appears in my mind and whatever I feel with so many comings and goings in my life I always blog it.

If I’m away from the computer, I write in on a scratch paper. To be honest with you, I get so pressured when other people tell me that my writing is good. And that’s really something. But who will really stay reading are my real friends and the people who love my blog.

That’s why when I get to read other’s blog I was never against with anything they post. Like me, they also have their own opinions, beliefs and events happening in their life. They are just being real and expressing their emotions. We just need to understand them. That’s what makes me appreciate different people, get inspired, learn from them and get ideas to post something on my blog (and sometimes even for my assignments, haha! like from Sir John Marine’s blog).


I salute every blogger in this world. They contribute a lot of help and knowledge to other people. They might sound harsh or not, but let’s face it we still get something out from them.


As long as we don’t step on other people and we know our limitations, everything will be fine.

"Don't be affected with what other people say about you

especially when you know to yourself that it is not true."

You know yourself better than anybody else

American Guy named Paul challenged a Pinoy,

“Use my name 4 times in a sentence.”

Pinoy thinking.

“Paul, be carepaul, you might paul in the swimming paul!”

Beat that? :)

For the many things you can do in this world,

You still get to be bored.

When you get sad,

It means that you have experienced to be happy

IF I WILL BE BLIND, I WANT YOU BY MY SIDE AND IT'S YOUR VOICE I'M ALWAYS GOING TO HEAR.

A taken for granted life

Most of the things in our lives are all taken for granted. We never notice the simple lucky things happening to us. Are you still going to ask for more if you're already complete? That you can see clearly, you can walk, you can talk and many more?

You're already so lucky when you were born that way, because there are other people who have nothing to do but to accept what they are. There are even handicap people who can do what you can do but you're just too lazy to do those. The reason for this is you're too confident of what you had.

Try to play with your mind. You don't have to be intelligent to think about simple things. What's important is you know how to observe and that's what matters.

There is even an instance when you even forget to thank God for the new day He has given you, and sometimes you'll wake up with a frown face.

It's been raining...

... and all classes were suspended
... the houses are quiet
... some kids are bored
... some are having their sleep
... some just watching tv
... no one wants to play with the rain,
... but many want to see the sun
... and enjoy outside to have fun
... like me, I want to go out
... to break free,
... to feel the warmth,
... to run and chase the butterflies,
... to be young again
... to be alive,
... but I could no longer be
... for there are lots of responsibilities
... even I'm just stuck here.

How I make my own MILO:

Step 1: put 3 tease spoons of powdered Milo energy drink into my mug.

Step 2: pour BOILING WATER, and then stir.

Step 3: add a cube of ICE, stir, then drink.

Weird? I know.

 :)

"Today I Don't Feel Like Doing Anything, I Just Wanna Lay In My Bed"

The moment my coach announced that we'll have no training tomorrow and this coming Monday in our pep squad I was so glad! I even wanted to shout on top of my voice "HOORAY!!!" but I couldn't because he might change his mind. So I just blushed in one corner. At least I am given a chance to sleep longer this weekend because I badly need it. Sleeping 4 hours every night really sucks! My eyes automatically close when I'm already in class, and I hate that feeling! Plus, I can do on the following days tons of my assignments that are to be submitted next week.

sigh.

I thank God for the good news, for my safe travel going to school and at home, for my health and for the abundant blessings I keep receiving from Him every day of my life!

Oh, it's 11:40 in the evening again. I should go to sleep now.

I'll talk (blog) more tomorrow for you.

P.S. I keep thinking about this guy before I go to sleep. I hope I dream of him tonight. He just doesn't know how I love him so much! I can't wait for the day I can hug him tightly.

Ok, I said too much. Good night, world!